The Player or the good guy? by NotWithoutMusik . (best big ereader .txt) 📕

to really enjoy this and what I could see from her body language, she was even flirting with Dalton a bit. 

"I won't tell anyone, just please let her go!", Peter begged but Bellatrix and Daton just laughed, while Lucius looked really uncomfortable .  

"Come on, people. Lighten up a bit, let's just enjoy life!", I said, smiling at all the people who were here. I just felt so happy that I ignored the fact that I thought that I hated the Slytherins. Dalton and Bellatrix laughed even more, while Peter looked even more worried and looked like he was about to cry. Dalton came over to me and laid an arm over my shoulder.

"You heard your sister, Pettigrew. Now go clean this classroom up while we have a little fun with my new slave."

"What are you going to do with her, you sick bastard? Dumbledore will find out about this and then he will punish you.", Peter shouted after us when we walked to the door. When I looked back, I could actually see tears in his eyes and it killed me to see him like this. The alarm clock in my head rang louder, trying to wake me up, trying to snap out of this curse, but the fog was still too strong. 

"Oh, you are so pathetic, Pettigrew. I don't even understand why The Dark Lord would want you in his army anyways.", Dalton mocked and Bellatrix, Lucius, Dalton and me left the room, leaving Peter behind to clean up. 

When Dalton made sure that nobody was in the corridor, he pulled up my sleeve and touched my arm with his wand. "This is so that anytime you or your brother want to tell anyone about this incident, you will be reminded that I am stronger than you." With these words he started cutting deep into my skin.

"What on earth are you doing, Dalton?", Lucius asked and quickly looked around, checking if nobody was coming.  Bellatrix just laughed while I could only stare at my arm, not able to move, to scream or to defend myself just because Dalton told me so. 

"This is a dark wound. Pretty difficult magic, but I practiced a lot. Everytime she thinks of turning us in by telling anyone, the wound will open again and it will kill here before she can tell. It will never heal completely, there will always be a scar visible.", Dalton explained and Bellatrix eyes got bigger and bigger. 

"Seriously, just kiss him if you think he's that amazing!", I said, without even noticing and shocked all four of us. Me, because I had fought the curse a little, and the three others for the same reason. 

"She is starting to get rid of the curse!", Bellatrix said, blushing only a little bit, but then added: "Or did you tell her to say that?"

"I did not tell her to say that, but I wouldn't mind a little kiss...", Dalton said and instantly received a slap in the face: "I don't fancy you and I most certainly don't want to kiss you."

"Guys, I don't mean to interrupt, but it might be a little suspicious if we hang out with a Gryffindor. Make her go back to her dorm or something.", Lucius suggested, still looking around nervously. Bellatrix rolled her eyes, but she and Dalton had to admit that Lucius was right. Just then, I felt the  urge to walk back to the common room and think of a good excuse why I send the invisibility cloak back. 

"Bye, Dalton. You are the most amazing - not! Person on earth!", I said when I turned around to go up the stairs. It cost me a lot of concentration to through the 'not' into that sentence, but it was defenetly worth it, because I could hear Lucius and Bellatrix laugh at their friend when they made their way to the dungeons. 

I walked up the stairs, mechanically said the password and sat on the couch, staring into the fire and trying to fight the fog and Daltons voice telling me to convince Peter to become a Deatheater and betray his friends. 

"Hey, Scar! I thought you were going to go after Aya and Fabian? How was it?", James asked, coming down from his dorm. As much as I wanted to tell him that I didn't do that, but fought the Slytherins instead, I had Daltons orders to act normal: "Oh, uhm. I couldn't find them anymore, they were already gone when I got to the Entrance Hall and so I thought it would make any sense to follow them to Hogsmeade."

"Oh, okay. Do you wanna come to our dorm already, we are just starting the Party. I am just going to get Lily and then I'll join you.", James told me and I smiled and nodded: "Sure, I'll go."

I had the feeling that Dalton would make this night really embarrassing for me, and the first order that I got from him proved me right.  - 9 -

 

Firewhiskey

Sat- 26. September 1977

 

Drink as much Firewhiskey as you need to get totally drunk.

I rolled my eyes when I walked upstairs, because Dalton was being really childish with this curse. He could make me spy om the Orden or give Dumbledore false hints about Voldemord or many other things that were better than getting me drunk, while he couldn't even see what I was doing.

"Hey, Scar! Come in, come in!", I heard Remus babble, who was sitting on the floor of their dorm, leaning agains his bed and with a bottle of firewhiskey in his hands. His hair was very voluminous because the gel, that he normally put into it, didn't do it's job very well anymore. Appareanly he was also getting really drunk tonight, even though he did it by free will.

"Hey, Remus. Are you drunk already?", I asked ironically because it was obvious that he was tipsy. His upper body staggered a bit when he looked up to me and when he understood the question, he vigorously shook his head. When I sat down next to him, I remembered that the last time we met, we didn't part very friendly, and so I wanted to apologize again. 

"Remus, can I t- take a drink as well?", I asked, trying to say something completely different. But the curse made me want alcohol, even though I wasn't much of a drinker. And instead of apologizing, I got the bottle of firewhiskey from Remus. "Joining the club? 'Cuz I'm getting wasted tonight. Oh, and I'm sorry it didn't work out with Sirius.", Remus said, not sounding sorry at all that it didn't work out with Sirius, even though I didn't even know what he meant. Did Sirius have another girl? I wanted to ask him more about it, but the urge to take a sip out of the bottle was bigger. When I took a big sip and gave the bottle back to Remus, I couldn't stop myself from squinch up my face because it was so disgusting.  The liquid burned it's way to my stomach and I could feel how it seemingly heated me up from inside. When I looked at Remus, and saw how he was just staring at the bottle, I felt that something was wrong. 

"What happened to you, you look like you just saw a ghost.", I said, using the muggle expression and fighting the urge to ask him of the bottle again. I noticed that the more I concentrated on Remus and too myself that it would be irresponsible to drink more, the clearer my head got. Then, from one moment to the other, the fog in my head was just gone. All my worries, my fears came back to me and with them also the pain. I had massive pain in my right arm and I struggled to keep a straight face. That must be from the dark wound, that bastard really did hurt me a lot. I swore to myself that I would get back to him, but right now Remus was more important. 

"I see ghost everyday. But in my dreams I see a werewolf, myself, killing innocent people. ", Remus explained with a monoton voice, while he kept staring at the bottle, not noticing that I just fought an unforgivable curse. 

"You don't kill innocent people, Remus! You can control it now.", I tried to comfort him, but he just shook his head again. "Whatever, you don't even know what it's like! You don't know how hard it is."

"I can try to help you!", I said, feeling hurt by his words because I really did try to help him. 

"Hey you two!", Sirius shouted, coming out of the bathroom with a girl following him. When they came into the room, I noticed that it was Marlene. She laughed and held Sirius arm like it was her only source of life. Then she turned him around and kissed him passionately.

It felt like my heart stopped for a second when I saw this. I could feel jealousy overwhelm me and I quickly laid my head on Remus' shoulder to show Sirius that I didn't mind. Stupid bitch, to be so foolish and kiss the player. He was going to use her and throw her away after a few day, like he did with every girl.

"I have to go to the bathroom.", I said to get away from watching the two make out. When I got up and walked in the direction of the bathroom, the door to the dorm opened and James came in, followed by two girls. One with red hair and one with brown hair. 

"Hey, Moony. I got you the girl you asked for."

This one sentence was the most horrible that I ever heard. My intestines felt like they started to move around, burning up with heat and my heart tightened hurtfully. Remus had asked for a girl? Was he actually interested in someone else and maybe even had a crush on her, pretending to love me for a kiss? Even though I kept convincing myself that I wouldn't care if he did like someone else, right now there was no denying that I did care. 

"Yeah, Bella! Isabella, I am so glad that you made it!", Remus said, got up and hugged Isabella, the Ravenclaw girl we had detention with once. She laughed and that laugh just made me sick. "I'm glad that you're happy.", she answered when Remus let go of her and now stood really close. Then he suddenly stepped foreword, taking her neck with his left hand and pressed his lips on hers, the bottle of firewhiskey still in his other hand. 

I heard the wolf-whistles from Sirius and James only dulled while I stumbled backwards to the door. I almost didn't realize Lily, who asked if I was okay and the words that I spoke didn't seem to be mine: "I am fine, just drank too much. I am gonna check on Aya now, she should be back."

I walked to the door, trying to keep a straight posture when all I wanted to do was lye on the floor, crying my eyes out. Yes, I did feel bad when Sirius kissed other girls, but this