How Can You know the Agony of Heart by Rida Shoukat (books to read for teens TXT) 📕

He kept staying in front of the Zoya house for some seconds, then taking long trides, crossing the lawn came inside to the wide-stretching hall. He finds her sitting at the corner of one of the sofas holding herself from her knees engrossed in the listening and watching the song. 

At the sound of Shanzal steps, she instantly came out of her thoughts and raises her head to look at him. 

"Hello, good girl how are you....?" 

He genuinely smiled as he saw Zoya was fully focused on looking at him and he came to sit beside her. She slowly picks up the remote to turn off the TV. 

"How are you, and how why did you bother to come here now....?" 

It is evident that she was fulfilling a formality. Only when a mild smile crept on her lips. 

"Are you sad from me?" 

Leaning a bit further toward her, he totally ignored the question she asked. When in sadness she turned her face to the other side. 

"I don't have any relation with you." 

"Really......and what about that beautiful knot that tied us both with each other a few days ago....." 

Most probably Shanzal Ali Shah chuckled at her gesture and was on her way of telling. But Zoya Khan's eyes were filled with tears now. 

"You can break that relation whenever you want, what I will do with you." 

He again started laughing at Zoya's words. 

"You have done everything, what else is left for doing now." 

"I am very depressed now, please you go from here now." 

She feels it hard to control her tearing eyes, then she rubs her cheek with the back of her left hand and said to him emotionally. Then Shanzal's smile was also wiped out of his face after looking at her state. 

"Ok, if you are depressed and don't want to talk then it's fine, I will talk to  Aunt." 

"Where is Aunt now." 

"She went for the party of one of her friends." 

"Right, but why you didn't go." 

"I was feeling headache, that's why." 

"Why are you feeling a headache." 

"I don't know." 

Saying to him nonchalantly, she gets up. Then instantly Shanzal held the corner of her black dupatta to stop her from going away. 

"Will you not forgive the misdoing of your Shanzal, Zoya." 

Zoya Khan's heart wriggled at his words, but she didn't turn back to look at him with her eyes filled with tears. 

"Since when Shanzal Ali Shah was mine." 

"It's not good to be that much disillusion in the love, Zoya." 

Don't know what thinking made him say so when she said wiping her tears. 

"Which love....? I know you can never love me." 

"Well...... but you do love me." 

Now he weakly smiled at her and came to stand in front of her. His eyes were fixed on her face. When she slowly lowered her eyes and said. 

"It's your misconception.....girls like me don't let themselves fall in love." 

"Really.....it's new information for me.......anyways if it is a misconception, then I want to live in this misconception." 

There was so much intensity in his tone that made it hard for Zoya to rise her eyelashes and look into his eyes. 

"I feel sorry for misbehaving with you, Zoya......I don't want to do this, but don't know how all this happened, please forgive me." 

Here as he said his apology, Zoya Khan's heart instantly becomes clear for him.  

"Don't say sorry please, I'm feeling guilty." 

"Really.......and now earlier you were saying of getting me out, then you didn't feel guilty." 

Shanzal Ali Shah's heart also immediately feel lightened seeing her trembling eyelashes. When he said in his fresh tone, she glared at her and smiled slightly. 

"You sit, I will make tea." 

As she said, she moved toward the kitchen, and Shanzal becomes satisfied and also takes his seat on the sofa smilingly. 

"Can't you feel scared at that time in such a big house?" 

Seeing Zoya coming back with tea he can't stop himself from asking. When she shakes her head negative and said. 

"No......in the start when mama goes out leaving me alone then I used to grow madly, but now.......now I become used to this loneliness." 

"Anyways, now I'm not letting you leave alone for so many days." 

A beautiful smile crept on his lips when Zoya gazed at him and hurridely lowered her eyes. Her heart started beating rapidly in her chest. 

"Today I'm here to talk with an aunt, now I don't want to live alone for so many days. After marriage, I want that aunt also to live with us so that all disappointments, all miserabilities of life can be ended, not any restless or perturbation left. Will you become my partner in fulfilling this wish, Zoya?" 

Shanzal Ali Shah these words have made her extremely guilty. Only she raises her trembling eyelashes and looks at him with longing eyes to hardly said. 

"Forgive me Shanzal, my little thinking has misunderstood you." 

She really was guilty by heart. Only then did a deep smile appear on Shanzal Ali Shah's lips. 

"You are very nice Zoya, and my that heart knows it very well that's why I never mind whatever you tell."

"Perhaps I am the luckiest girl of this universe that I got a life partner like you."

In Shanzal's mild tone, she expressed her feelings with all her glory. When he slightly slapped her on her head smilingly.

"I'm also the luckiest one perhaps that I got such a beautiful girl in the shape of you as a lifetime partner."

On Shanzal's smiling accent she also beamed with happiness for a moment and said again.

"Today I am firmly believing that you don't love Hoor ul Ain."

On Zoya Khan's revelation, the smile on his lips wipes out in an instant. That restlessness, which he wants to let himself free from by coming here to meet Zoya, again started hovering over his heart and mind. In his whole body, again started feeling a longing for something.