MANIAC'S MIRROR by antim abhay (electronic reader .txt) 📕

whose people are trying to contact me. Sometimes, I hear someone nearby shouting my names I think maybe they can tell something about my origins, however, their voices are muffled; when I jump to the center of the source of the voice, I find a huge crowd there without an answer. Sometimes when I think something in my mind, and suddenly someone from far abound shouts the same thing that I was thinking. I run to find the source of the voice but couldn’t find anyone. I’ am not responding to the sound these people make. To make me trust them they enact plans because of which I start doubting them more. When will they understand it’s hard to trust anything when you have seen magic? It seems everyone I see are actors. Maybe they are forced by someone or they are robots or just illusion. Either I am making fool of the world (knowingly or unknowingly can’t tell), or the world is making fool of me. And family issues never end not in a rude sense.

 

Sitting here in black Upnafed eating re fried beans

We’re in all the magazines

Gulping' down Thorazine

We ain't got no friends

Our troubles never end

I'm friends with the President

I'm friends with the Pope

We’re all making a fortune selling coal

Don’t remember where I was

When I realized life was a game

More seriously I took things

The harder the rules became

I had no idea what it’d cost

My life passed before my eyes

I found out how little I accomplished

All my plans denied

If my heart was still alive

I know it would surely break

And my memories left with you

There’s nothing more to say.

 

Now wherever I go, good Shanurians come to watch my back, they give me tight security in one form or the other from the bad Shanurians but they don’t reveal themselves to me. In one manner, I m not a prisoner I can do anything. These good Shanurians who are watching me are present in one form or the other wherever I roam in this universe may be they are thinking I do not know about them. Now which type of Shanurian I get to deal with that only Creator might know. In a long race, in a stadium when you are leading, and you complete one lap so fast that you leave others far behind then a point comes when you again come behind them, at that time those who have noticed you from the beginning will only know that it is your second lap, others who didn’t notice you from start or uninformed will think you are lagging.

 

Feel no pain, but my life isn’t easy

I know you are my best friend

No one cares, but I'm so much stronger

I'll fight until the end

To escape from this true false world

Undamaged destiny

Can't get caught in the endless circle

Ring of stupidity

One with my mind, they just can't see

No need to hear things that they say

Life is for my own to live my own way

Rape my mind and destroy my feelings

Don't tell me what to do

I don't care now, 'cause I'm on my side

And I can see through you

Feed my brain with your so called standards

Who says that I ain't right

I am the world that hides

The universal secret of all time

Destruction of the empty spaces

Is my one and only crime

I lived a thousand times

I found out what it means to be believed

Well, I know it hard for you

To know the reason why

And I know you'll understand

When it's time to die

I don't believe the knife you have

Will be the only one

You have to let your body weep

To let your soul live on.

 

Alyonushka:

 

It makes me wonder

Your head is humming and it won’t go

In case you don’t know

God is calling me to join him.

You surprised me

Seeing a me I never saw

Thanks for meeting me

Where it matters most to meet

For opening my eyes

To what I could not see alone

See me as your fellow pilgrim

Not as your teacher

For seer and seeker are we both.

 

Ivanushka:

 

Lay beside me tell me what I've done

The door is closed so are your eyes

But now I see the sun

I know now that you are the only one

I'm lucky to have met you

I traveled through a tube and ended up in your infection

With eyes so dilated I've become your pupil

You've taught me everything without a poison apple.

 

I’m doing what Alyonushka told me to do before he willingly sacrificed himself for my freedom. He once said ‘we all are the prisoners in the same but different worlds.’ All of us are alone in the darkness, but we have to save every soul. Alyonushka has bonded all of us. I am a person who floats with the current, never guiding myself according to higher principles, have no idol no convictions. I am a thing instead of living and moving being an echo not a voice. I bring justice and truth for us and vendetta for them.

 

I set sail across the seas

Of long past memories

Fantasies end as I merge with reality

Welcome to where time stands still

No one leaves and no one will

Moon is full, never seems to change

Just labeled mentally deranged

Dream the same thing every night

I see our freedom in my sight

No locked doors, No windows barred

No things to make my brain seem scarred

Sleep my friend and you will see

That dream is my reality

They keep me locked up in this cage

Can't they see it's why my brain says rage?

Build my fear of what's out there

And cannot breathe the open air

Whisper things into my brain

Assuring me that I'm insane

They think our heads are in their hands

But violent use brings violent plans

No more can they keep us in

Listen, damn it, we will win

Fear of living on

Natives getting restless now

Mutiny in the air

Got some death to do

Mirror stares back hard

Kill it's such a friendly word

Seems the only way

For reaching out again

 

Alyonushkas:

 

Howling winds keep screaming round

And the rain comes pouring down

Doors are locked and bolted now

As Ivanushka crawls into town

Straight out of hell

One of a kind

Stalking her victims

Don’t look behind you

Sanctuary is being sought

Whispered prayers a last resort

Terror struck we know we are caught

Beware the beast in black

You know she’s coming back Ivanushka

As night is falling

The end is drawing near we hear

Our last rites echo on the wind

Huddled in the cellar

Fear caught in their eyes

Daring not to move or breathe

As the she creature cries

Fingernails start scratching

On the outside wall

Clawing at the windows

Come to me it calls

Atmospheres electric

As Ivanushka now descend the stairs.

 

Ivanushka:

 

If you listen very hard

The truth will come to you at last

When all are one and one is all

Evil eyes behind their smiles

You swallow it up when sincerity lies

Alert the press and address the states of emergency

We the crew you love to hate

First mistake, you were never ready

Dance with the dead, better be ten times more deadly

This is me, I'm always the same

Virus in the system,

Crash the mainframe

Up rise, now fall in line

Roll with the pack or get left behind

"It's a Masterpiece Conspiracy"

I'd rather hear it from you

Than be lied to

Deceived again

Exposed by the light, true colors ascend

Take down the regime, break the trend

Deceived by your peers and your so-called friends

Keep your people tight,

Watch your enemies close

Trust what you know,

Soon enough they'll choke

Where were you when we started this thing?

You weren't around, this isn’t yours to claim

You'll never take what's been given to us

Wipe that smile off your face and that look of disgust

Up rise, now fall in line Roll with the pack,

Or get left behind.

 

Now who are trapped how much deep they are, depends on their personal choices. Anyways whoever is right now trapped or who are going to be trapped they should know I have left many different clues and milestones in different worlds like this Timebook of Clocks, you’ll find them if you are true when you crawl your way out, but whether you’ll understand them it depends upon the factor that when you were free you were watching me or was there with me or didn’t knew me at all. Let this moment be x. Suppose after x, I spent my time doing quotidian work and died but if I couldn’t do what Shanurians wanted me to, then they would put me and my life again at x (they have to set everything around me as it was at the moment x) and from there Shanurians would try some other methods to achieve what they want. The residents of the planet are not aware of this, and they will never be, as Shanurians control their minds these Shanurians are immortal, and they manage to find me every time I run away, they want me to do something desperately. Shanurians have command over my life they can forward, rewind or pause my life anytime, but that doesn’t bother me; I can’t feel any difference just some sense of de javu or I see some visions while I’m awake. Now if any face that had come in my life after x I won’t be able to recognize it in the present life. I play hide and seek, and I’m the Dan I have to seek similar faces that are hiding from me in a crowded room. I now play the role that others choose for me as a scarecrow.

 

Alyonushkas:

The black and green scarecrow as everyone knows

Stood with a bird on his hat and straw everywhere

He didn't care

His head did no thinking

His arms didn't move except when the wind cut up Rough and mice ran around on the ground

The black and green scarecrow is sadder than me

But now he's resigned to his fate

'Cause life's not unkind - he doesn't mind.

He stood in a field where barley grows.

 

Ivanushka:

 

I met the leader (Alyonushka) today

He is as good as dead

But has showed me a way

I have awaken dead people from their cemeteries

Or I think they weren’t dead from the beginning

Anyways they are not zombies,

I’ am telling this because today I saw a ghost,

Someone I thought was dead long ago.

His name was Tarkone

He was a famous person at his home.

They are doing instant justice in our cases.

Don’t always trust the sound.

They usually hit when I’m nostalgic.

I’m trapped I’m not.

The restraint is stopping them from hitting me.

 

There is this machine that Kilkanuks have built for the Shanurians it is giving points based on your actions in the tests; I mean that you have to please a machine. Trust me on this and forfeit your nightmares. Sometimes I or my clones punish the Shanurians; sometimes they punish me and you. In this game there is only one outcome of your action that matters anyway (good or bad), you perform any action in any way the result will be the same. In this trial, consent of the subject has no link with the free will of the subject. I thought of writing a book but who will understand it. I have heard it said that you can write a book and publish it while you are in a solitary confinement but you know you can’t go out and see whether they have really published it or not or if they have altered the content of it. People like me are all in the same prison we all are undergoing the same punishment. I think I know what they want. There is only one way to escape out of the prison.

 

 I’ am sorry you could not escape but I did for a while somehow to another universe where nobody knew me and which was normal, they called it Arindhara but I came back for you. If anyone would have told me about the way to figure out the password then I would not have been able to escape, it’s the way it works if you are following the way to escape by establishing it on your own then you will escape but if you are following the rules of escaping by learning it from somewhere else, then I can’t say where it will lead you, that is the reason your allies on your planet (Alyonushka’s friends) will never tell you directly what you should do they will not even reveal that they are your allies they may do opposite .This