"Die Happily" by Christina.D (inspirational books for women TXT) 📕

he’s going to die, then I invade his bed and now I made him buy me jeans; well he chose to buy them but I could have put smarter clothes on before I was going to die.
Phoenix smiled and nodded at the door; I nodded back and slid out the bed. I took my new jeans and slipped them on. Phoenix turned around, but still waited for me. I walked right behind him and waited to leave. Instead he looked at me with an eyebrow razed.
‘You’re still wearing my top.’ I didn’t look up at him.
‘Shut up .Its comfy.’ I slightly pushed him and he started laughing. I don't know why but I could feel myself around him, without him around me I felt very lifeless.

Chapter 5

We ate lasagne that his mum made; leaving a note for instructions for how to put it in the oven. You can imagine why I teased him for that. After we went to his bedroom to watch TV, but I fell asleep , well zoomed out.
The alarm woke me and by reflex I jumped out to stop the alarm, but instead I slapped Phoenix in the face. He was so shocked that he fell out of bed. I set up and looked at him.He was glaring at me from the floor.
‘What was that for?’ Phoenix asked still laying on the floor, looking defeated.
‘Sorry, my reflex is to turn the alarm of my bedside table and this time instead of the table there was you.’ I smiled but he continued glaring at me.
‘Tomorrow were swapping sides.’ He got up and slid back to bed next to me. I didn’t remember agreeing to sleep in the same bed, but I can’t complain; I’m lucky he let me stay.
‘You’re forgetting one thing.’ Phoenix looked at me with a surprised look and then looked at the bad sitting on the chair. He groaned, got out of bed and went to the bathroom. It’s Tuesday, Thinking about it now, I died yesterday. It doesn’t feel like I’m dead ; apart from the fact I can’t hear my heart or my blood pumping around my body. My life doesn’t seem real now; I don’t think I can call it a life at this point.
My thoughts were interrupted with Phoenix clicking his finger in front of my eyes.
‘How much can you sleep?’ He almost sounded agitated.
‘Well I’m dead, who knows how much I can sleep.’ That offended him.
‘How can you know you’re dead for shore? Maybe you hit your head and your just lost! Every time I look at you you’re not some. Ghost. At night I can hear you breathing!’ I knew that one time he’s bound to break out, I mean I wouldn’t be so calm If someone told me I had one week to live ; hell I don’t even know why he bothers going to school! But this isn’t about him he thinks something is wrong with me.
‘No Phoenix your wrong! I am dead, because otherwise I would hear my heart beating!’ I didn’t mean to shout, and then once again I could feel tears running down my face, I didn’t know why. Right now I feel anger but instead ,this happens. Phoenix opened the door and went out. I stayed upstairs, because first I’m not hungry and second, I think he’s just goanna leave for school anyway.
When I died I don’t remember anyone telling me when I’m going to die, maybe it’s for the best. It was always me, martin and my parents, no one else, we didn't even have a pet. Phoenix has a very un-happy family, just the opposite of mine. I think. The image of a woman, a man , and a little boy that I know is my brother laughing, is stuck in my head. I don’t know why I only remember my brother, but its better this way.
The door opened, Phoenix came in with toast, jam and milk on a tray.
‘You hungry?’ He didn’t look me in the eye.
‘Not really.’ He looked up and I smiled at him, teasingly took the toast anyway and made room for him to sit down.
‘Can we just forget the conversation we had before?’ He sat down next to me and took the other toast on the tray. I don’t know what to say to that. When I finished my toast he’s eyes begged for an answer.
‘Yeah, shore.’ We finished our breakfast. He went to school and I went back to sleeping. Thinking of what the conversation would've been like.

Chapter 6

Days passed with the same routine every time, but it made it harder for me to look in to his eyes and smile knowing that he’s going to die soon. He didn't believe it, I wasn't shore If I did too.
On Saturday we woke up at one pm. He’s mum was home so he went downstairs on his own. I was stuck in his room for hours. The perfect time not to be tired. I was soo bored.He finally came back at six with me sitting cross legged and cross armed glaring at him.
‘I’m soo sorry! Mum made me go to the shop with her.’ Phoenix sat next to me , and I felt a breeze coming of him.
‘Oh, you are so unforgiven! First you leave me here for hours and then you come back cold!’ I put on a angry face to hide my laughter inside.
‘What am I making you cold?’ He hugged me, giving me goose bumps. I screeched a little because I haven’t been outside for a few days, but it shore seems cold.
For the rest of the evening we stayed together watching TV and once gain I fell asleep, but this time in his arms. So I wasn't that tired.
The next morning was on my count the seventh day. I didn’t want to let go of him but he slid out the bed to the bath room. I can feel it. He’s going to die today and I can do anything about it. I couldn’t cry because it was too hurtful to even consider the thought. Phoenix came back and hugged me. The touch made me shiver. I wanted to be with him. We collided together touching our souls. He kissed me passionately; yet so softly. When he ended the kiss, I felt like I was paying for all my sins. I have kissed boys before, but this was my first kiss in my after life. It made it special. It felt better then in my real life, I could feel his energy going into me. I couldn't explain it if I wanted to.
‘Mum told me that today I have to go t work with her. I’m going to leave now.’ I was about to protest but he put his finger on my lips. ‘I hate goodbyes.’ He kissed me and left. This time the tears came and didn’t stop I wanted to die with him again, I can’t. There’s nothing I can do. I curled up in a ball and just waited to see what happens. It came to nine o’clock in the evening when I fell asleep.I never stopped crying. The light came and got me. Again.

When I woke up I was laying on the floor in a room with toys, I sat up and saw a little boy sitting and playing with cars, making sound effect that gave of the happiness he felt. Guess some thing don't change. I saw his smile. The smile made me smile too. I could feel his touch from far away.

I know the little boy. He’s my brother.
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Publication Date: 05-29-2011

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