Why? by Danea (thriller book recommendations .TXT) 📕

My mom and James rushed me to the hosiptal. I was breathing heavy and I was soaked with all the sweat that was dripping from me. We made it to the hosiptal and they put me in a wheelchair. the doctor hurried and rushed me. I was mad because I was suppose to have a wedding. My mom and James kept telling me to breathe. the doctor laid me on the bed while James held my hand as I pushed and pushed. It hurted so bad and since my baby was 3 months early than his due date I couldn't have any medicine they had to take this baby out.
Mom: Push
Me: Shutup I'm trying
Then I herd a cry and there my baby boy was. I started to cry. Not because I was sad i was happy. Then I saw James hold him.
James: This is our baby boy
Doctor: What is his name
James: Jermiah
I looked at him.
Me: Jermiah
Then all my friends and family came to see the new baby.
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It had been three weeks since I had baby jermiah and things weren't going so well. I would get very frustrated at night when James didn't want to get up beacuse he had worked the late shift and Jermiah would not stop crying. But my mom had hired us a babysitter so I could go to school and still take care of the baby. I was laying on the couch and Jermiah was in my hand as I rocked him to sleep. Then James came in.
Me: Your finally here
James: Yeah so how was your day
Me: Lonely, busy, more and more
James: Look I really don't feel up to it today
Me: James what are you talking about
james: Look everyday you say the same thing
Me: well thats because everyday I'm lonely and your never home
James: See thats your problem you think since you have everything easy you can just do whatever
Me: What are you talking about
James: look I go to work to keep a roof over our heads, to keep food on the table and to satisfy you and the baby and then me so don't you come telling me that your tired and you are frustrated because I am, I'm tired of you complaning about every little thing.
I was shocked James was right.
Me: I'm sorry
James didn't say nothin instead he just walked up staires with Jermiah in his hand.

I was taking classes onlien that was good. James didn't have to work today and today we had decided to talk about the wedding.
James: So do you just want to have a wedding for me and you or
Me: I just want us to be married thats all
James: Yeah me too
Me: Look James I really love you and I just want to say that I'm sorry if I haven't acted like the best person in the world but I really need you. Me and Jermiah.
James: I need yawl too
We kissed and we played and tickled Jermiah.
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I was all alone once again. But I was actually happy. Today was Jermiah first day to get a check up. I was so excited. I strapped him in his car seat and drove off. Then I got a call from my mom.
Me: Hello
Mom: Hey honey look I need some help in the yard
Me: But ma today is Jermiah's first check up and James is working
Mom: No hes not your dad gave him 3 weeks off so he could help around the house
Me: Well he's not home
Mom: Well ok then
Me: I'm going to call him
Mom: OK bye love you
Me: I love you most
She hung up and I dialed James number and he picked up.
Me: Umm James I herd my dad gave you 3 weeks off of work and you told me you were at work whats up with that
James: Oh I know I'm sorry
Me: James were are you
James: Look I cant talk right now see ya
Me: No James
Before I could finish talking he hung up.
I pulled up to the doctor's office. I was mad because if James didn't have to work then why would he miss the most important day of our baby life.
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Jermiah's checkup was over and the doc told me that he was well developed and a happy and grown baby. I was proud to hear that. Then I drove home. When I opened the door I saw James and this Lady in the house.
Me: Umm hey baby who's this
James: Oh Umm this is my ex girlfriend Kasha
Me: Oh your ex umm Hi I'm Dariylnn
Kasha: Oh I know who you are
Me: Yeah Umm did he tell you that he is married and has a son named Jermiah see hese right here.
Kasha: He told me he was married but no baby
Me: Well now you know
James: Can you excuse us for a second
Me: No I'm fine were I am
Kasha: Umm if I'm bringing trouble I should leave
Me: Yes thats excalty waht you should do
James took my arm to the kicthen
James: Look What are you doing?
Me: Look James you told me that you had to work instead your here probaly doing God knows what with your ex
James: You think I'm cheating
I didn't say anything.
James: So now your giving me the silent treatment
Me: James we will talk about this later right now I'm upset
James: For what
Me: Today was your child's first check up today and you missed it beacuse you were to busy lying to me to talk to your ex girlfriend Kasha who is still in our living room.
I walked up the steps with Jermiah in my hand.

I was wide awake in the living room wathcing tv and so was James. We hadn't talk since 3 hours ago when james and his ex were talking and we had that argument. To be honest I wasn't sure if James was lying or telling the truth. I wasn't sure if he really did love me for me or was just for my money. I wanted to ask so many questions but they were stuck in a box and deep down into the Mississippi River. Then Jermiah started crying. I walked up the steps and went to go get him.
Then I walked back down the steps.
James: Do you want me to feed him or do you want to
Me: I'm already doing it if you haven't noticed
James: Look why the attiude
Me: Why?
James: Yes
Me: Do you really want to know
James: Yes Dammit
Me: I don't know if you are cheating on me, or if your lying or telling the truth I'm not even sure if you love me or you just pretend so you can have my money. I don't want to feel this way but I just do
James: See this is your problen you can't trust me
Me: Your right and do you know why I cant trust you, its beacuse you tell me that your at work trying to keep a roof over our heads and but food on the table and satisfy me and Jermiah but the truth is your just sitting on my couch with your ex now do you think I would believe you.
James: Look I lied to you because I knew you would act this way
Me: Then why did you bring her
James: Look Darilynn I'm sorry that you feel this way and that you cant trust me but thats how you feel
Me: James I love you so much and I dont want to love somebody who doesnt love me back
James: I love you and Jermiah on everything. Jermiah is my first child and you are my first wife I could never cheat on you or even hurt you like that
Me: I know but my head is telling me not to believe you
James: Sometimes you just gotta let yourself take control and not your head
I thought was James right
Me: Well I'm going to get Jermiah to sleep and maybe we could have a little fun
James: Yeah I would love that
Me: I thought you would
He laughed as I walked up the steps to put Jermaih to sleep.