Fighting by Anaya Phoenix (black books to read txt) 📕

“Again, I’m injured! Does no one have mercy around here?” Izzy burst out in laughter, walking in to the infirmary and slapping her thigh.

“Who knew our little Matthew could be a comedian?!” At that we all laughed and Matt groaned.

“In all honesty, you should rest. You both should. Your wolves will heal you before dinner and we can get back to training.”

“By training did you mean us beating on your little wolves?” I narrowed my eyes on him and slapped his ribs, holding in my smile as he winced and backed away.

“I SAID I’M INJURED!” I shook my head and looked to Blake, cocking my head to the side towards the exit.

“Care to walk with me to the training room?” She looked at me, her face clear but her eyes terrified.

“Blake wouldn’t leave me, she actually likes me unlike you mangy females.” Blake stood up quickly, masking her face before I could read anything, and smiled while putting her hands on her hips.

“Who said I cared about you? I had to be here, make sure our leader isn’t some little wimp who can’t handle a little beating.” He narrowed his eyes and she trilled out a little laugh before walking away.

“See ya for dinner MattyPoo!” I said, joining her and walking out with her.

                It was quiet for a while, while we walked farther from the infirmary. I was thinking of what I could say to her, how I could say it to her, and how to assure her everything would be fine when the little bitch grabbed me by my shirt and pressed me against the wall.

“If you even think about telling him, I swear!” She growled, her eyes wild and her fangs down. I held up my hands and didn’t move to fight against her. I had no doubt that she could beat my ass if she wanted to, and I’d been taking a lot of beatings lately.

“I wasn’t going to!” She growled and pushed me further into the wall at the smell of the lie.

“Ok, ok so maybe I was going to a drop a hint-“ a snarl from her “but he has to know Blake!” He forearm was pressed against my collarbone quickly and she leaned into me, her eyes looking angry and hurt.

“What does he need to know for? We’ve been doing fine as just Alpha and Beta, there’s no need to mess up that relationship.”

“Blake-“

“Don’t! Ok? Don’t pretend that you know anything about relationships now that you’ve finally settled down with Ander. Don’t pretend like you know anything about what’s happening between me and him right now, because you don’t!” Hurt was in her eyes, but so was anger and overwhelming strength.

“I do, I know how you feel absolutely.”

“Oh, do you? Miss There-Are-Two-Males-Pining-Over-Me-But-I-Don’t-Want-Any-Of-Them!”

“He wants me-“ Before I could finish my sentence her claws grew and dug into me which she used as the grip to throw me into the wall opposite of us.

“Shut up.” I groaned and got onto my knees, not even angry that she’d thrown me, and looked up at her.

“He wants me, not you, and that drives you crazy but-“ She gave me a vicious kick to the stomach which made me double up and I’m pretty sure she ruptured something.

“Stop. Talking.” She grit out between her teeth. I would kick myself for this later, but I leaned up and looked her directly in the eyes.

“He might not want you now-“ With a punch, that I’d taught her, to my jaw I was back on the floor.

“I would love for you to not say anymore, but this is good too. Let’s me get my aggravation out.” She cracked the joints in her hand and rolled her shoulders. Deciding it was best to stay down, I simply braced my hands on the floor and groaned.

“Ander fell in love with a human.” I could tell that she’d geared up to hit me again but she stilled at my words.

“He fell in love with a human, and it killed me to know that she had the affection of my mate, something that was mine by rite, but knowing I could do nothing about it. He loved her, probably more than he loved me and I could do nothing but accept that because I didn’t want to make him love me. I wanted him to love me because I was his mate and I was his. But he pined after her, even after days and nights spent with me he would just go right back to her whenever she was around and nothing ate at me more than that thought. So, yeah, I know how you feel. He doesn’t want you, but that’s because I was around. Ander’s finally claimed me, and I him. He can’t have me, and it’s been set in stone. He will notice you, that I can promise whole-heartedly.” She’d gone quiet and I risked a look at her to see her sitting down against the wall, her head leaned back and her eyes closed

“I know exactly what you’re going through and I’m so sorry. I know how it feels and I know that your beast is screaming at you to claw into me and eliminate the threat, but I’m nothing to him. He knows it and his beast knows it, he’s just stupid. He’s always been stupid, and we’ve always known that.” I was practically pleading with her at this point but she stayed quiet with her eyes closed. Biting my lip so I wouldn’t groan again, I sat up and mimicked her position, but crossing my legs and watching her.

“It’s fucked up.”

“What is?”

“The hand we get dealt. He’s wanted you since we came here. He saw how strong you were and was so fucking giddy about it. I’m pretty sure it’s the red hair.” She chuckled humorlessly and open her eyes, I wasn’t surprised to see how in control she was.

“He talked about you to me, y’know. Kept me up nights talking about you, and how Ander didn’t deserve you. We were kids and he’d already planned on having you as his bride and pregnant.” She scoffed and rolled her eyes, crossing her legs too and sitting up.

“He’d get so mad at me when we’d fight. He’d tell me that I should be showing you respect because you were my future Luna. That you were more powerful, more of a female, than I was and that I shouldn’t even try. It didn’t even hurt, it just pissed me off. I was his friend, I’d always been there for him and you came out of nowhere and all of the sudden I had to bow down to you. It wasn’t fair. I decided then that it wasn’t worth it, he was going to do whatever he wanted and he could do it. I would still always be his beta, if anything, and he wouldn’t be able to mate with you anyway because I was his.” The strength was back in her voice was back and her face wasn’t blank but it wasn’t angry. She was just… Blake.

“Is that why you didn’t like me at the beginning?”

“No, you were just a little cunt and I didn’t have the patience for it back then.” She smirked and looked at me, but then her eyes glazed over.

“When we left… When I saw what happened to you because of him, it was kind of the last straw for me. He’d fought Ander for you, he’d hurt you because he was blinded by his need for you, and we were just kids then. I was happy we were leaving because it meant we were getting as far as we could from you and your influence on him, but I was also livid because we were leaving because of his attraction to you. For months after we left he moped around, looking like a kicked puppy. His father had to beat him into shape, him and I fought. It was nasty. That sealed it for me. He wasn’t mine, and he probably would never and will never be mine.” I stayed quiet, watching as she went from defeated to strong within a couple seconds.

“I’m mated now.” I whispered to her and she seemed to snap back. Her eyes settled on mine, the beast no longer there, and she cocked her head.

“His beast isn’t blinded by me, he’ll see you. It doesn’t matter if you don’t tell him, Blake, he’ll find out.” We stayed like that in silence before she stood up and shook her head, reaching her hand out to help me out.

“Like you said, Luna, he’s stupid and he’s always been stupid. I might go my whole life standing right underneath his nose and he’ll never even notice.” She said with extreme confidence. I didn’t have the heart to tell her she was wrong so I simply nodded and walked with her to the training rooms.

                Training went on, even though tensions were high and that led to everyone being on edge but we made it through. It was almost over when the inevitable happened and someone was shot that couldn’t handle it. A cry reverberated through the room and all the victors looked over to see a bear shrinking down around her stomach and her body twitching. I counted my lucky stars that it wasn’t one of mine and continued helping the wolf that asked for my help aiming. I heard Ursula soothing the sow and lifting her up, I hadn’t accounted for the low threatening growl that seemed to spread and saturate the room.

“And what do you think you’re doing?” I heard Urse ask, not at all sounding angry but more amused.

“Put her down.” The southern twang making me turn around, gripping the wolf’s hand so he wouldn’t do anything stupid while I wasn’t looking.

“She needs medical attention, vozlyublennaya, and she can’t walk. Now, if you’d back down so I can help your mate.” The male narrowed his eyes and spread his legs for a more stable stance in front of Ursula. I felt and saw her bristle, the animal side of her not wanting to be questioned by someone lesser.

“Would you like to take her, mind you she’s kicking off wicked waves right now I don’t know if you’ll be able to handle it.” Urse leaned forward, poking the shaking girl out towards her mate. Her brown hair was masking her face but I could tell it would be pale and sweaty, she smelled like she was in a lot of pain so whoever had a mis-shot must’ve had the setting on entirely too high. Looking around I found the guilty looking one and walked over to him and took the gun away, glaring only slightly at him before clicking the safety and walked to Ursula.

“He had it on fifty.” Ursula looked to me then, the teasing in her face gone as she looked up and above me throwing a nasty look to the boy before looking down at the girl who’s heart was beating entirely too fast.

“Take care of him, will you?” I nodded and she zipped to the infirmary to take care of a girl who was entirely too close to death. The bear snarled  and stepped closer to me, I held my hands up high but stood my ground.

“If you want her, go to the infirmary. There’s no reason that we should fight to hinder you from your girl.” He chuffed and my hair flew back but I looked him in his eyes. I saw the battle there, the need to not be disrespected and also the need to go to his mate was strong and it was tearing him apart.

“I’m not gonna yield to you, couldn’t even if I wanted to. So just go to her, quick.” Something in my voice gave away her condtion and his face looked heartbroken and he broke away from the confrontation, racing to the infirmary. I felt sad for him, but I couldn’t end