36 days later by Katerina Rose (read my book TXT) 📕

world... but you still choose him, I don't understand it" he shook his head.

"We have a history"..

"What you have is bullshit, you think for one second if I was in his shoes I would leave you here for a stupid tour?, You think for one second I would even consider doing it without you? didn't you guys start your band together? Where is the guy in the garage you always talked about that you fell in love with that didn't want to do it without you"

"We grew up okay!, We grew out of that phase! We had life hit us in the face a few times but don't sit there and pretend like you know my life because we shared a few laughs! on the bus for the last few months!"... "This is insanity! I'm allowed to live my life, I don't need your judgement!"

I stuck my key in my door and Tyler wouldn't move, he was standing just a foot away from me. I turned my door knob and flicked on the lights, tossed my bags inside and turned around to look at him...

"What do you want me to say?! I don't have the same feelings for you that you want me to have! Why is that my fault!? Why am I being punished!?"

Tyler sighed. I could see he was getting really upset.

"I think we should just say goodnight... Some space would do us both good right now" I turned to go inside.

"Cass..."

I turned around

"Please don't marry him" He said quietly.

My heart sunk.

He picked up his bags and went upstairs. Milo followed him. I had almost forgotten Milo had been on tour with us, he was such a quiet dog. We played with him from time to time but had no real time to spend with him after that first week....

I watched them walk down the hallway and closed the door.

"Hi"

I heard a sweet familiar voice behind me.

I smiled and turned around.

Daniel stood in the living room. "Are you okay?" He asked.

I nodded.

"Was that Tyler?"

"Yeah,... but I don't want to talk about him" I walked up to him and put my arms around him. I kissed him. "Why weren't you in the parking lot"

"Because the boys took me straight home so I could get here before you" He smiled.

"Oh?"

"Your not having second thoughts are you?" He took my hands in his. "We don't have to do this..."

"No, I want to..."

"Okay"

I put my hands around his neck and pulled him in. I kissed him to see what I felt for him. Most of the time the tension between us was unbearable but I wasn't feeling it right now I didn't know why... maybe I was fearful of what was going to happen? Maybe I needed to slow this down? How could I tell him that without making him think I wasn't giving up on us?

I continued kissing him... his hands wrapped around me.

I walked towards him and he walked backwards... we headed towards the bedroom.

We reached the door frame and he held on "Cassie" he said.."I thought we were leaving"...

"I think we should do something else first" I smiled and slipped my hands under his shirt.

"You didn't want to wait until we are married?"....

I stopped...

"You want to wait till we get married?"

He half smiled "Is that lame?"

I backed up. "No, that's not lame,... its a little surprising but its not lame"

"Surprising?"

"Well its usually the girl that asks for that.." I said feeling like a slut.

He half laughed. "Well we've been best friends for years, we've waited for everything else to fall into place, I can wait a while longer... I'd rather have a ring on your hand before we take that step together..I know its really old fashioned but."

I smiled... It was refreshing almost. I didn't realize it would mean that much to him. After all these years of pinning away for this man he stood in front of me ....ready, nothing and no one in our way.

I took him by the hand and grabbed my jacket.

"Where are we going?" he laughed.

"Lets do it now"

"Wait....what? we're not going to wait for levi and ally?"...he tried to slow me down.

"They can curse me for it later" I grabbed my keys off the table, and continued walking.

"Are you sure".... Daniel called after me as we kept walking.

"Yes.... Lets go now..."


we took off down the stairs and got into my car.... This was it.
Chapter 10

We pulled up to a local house. A justice of the peace, it was an older couple and they welcomed us into their home.

"Lets talk a moment" The older man said with a smile as he motioned us further into the house. "What makes you certain you can do this for years?"

Daniel smiled "I've never been more sure of anything sir"

"And why aren't you celebrating with friends and family?" The older lady asked.

"He's about to leave again, we are musicians" I pipped up grabbing Daniel's hand...

They both nodded. "Okay, well lets get started then..."

We stood face to face, and the older couple stood in front of us, she handed me flowers and they gave us bands they sold on the side.

Something about this seemed off putting. My heart was pulling at me.

The Older man began speaking, the vow's were coming... This wasn't how I imagined it. This was moving too fast....

The only thing I heard in my mind was Tyler... asking me not to. He looked so sad, was I making a mistake? Why wasn't anyone in support of us? could we really do this? Why was this always so hard? And what happens when he goes on tour? What if he cheats? What if I cheat? what if we don't love each other as much as we think we do? what happens if nothing is what we thought it was.
Do I want to play divorced and lonely at my age?

"Cassandra...." The man spoke, I had missed my cue to say I do..

Daniel stood there looking at me. I was in love with him, that was clear in my mind. I never wanted to be with anyone else... So why couldn't I just say it? Maybe it will be okay.... ? but maybe it wont? ....

My mind raced... I knew I had to make a decision, now...

"Daniel.." I paused...

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"Cassie?" .... "hey,... Cass"

I felt someone push my shoulders. I opened my eyes and Ally stood over me. I took a moment to figure out where I was. I was in my bed, in my room... home.... what happened?

I looked around for my phone.

"You don't want to look" Ally said, I noticed she was holding it now...

"Ally... give me my phone"

"You're not going to be happy" She handed it to me.

A text message from Daniel sent at 4:03 am

"I'm leaving, its clear after last night we can't make this work, I don't know why I thought this time would be different, you can keep the ring, or trash it I don't care,... Sorry I inconvenienced your life, but lets just let this die here ok?... Have a nice life Cassandra, hope you get whatever it is your looking for and clearly can't find in me..."


I teared up.


"So what happened Cass" Ally asked...

"I asked him to elope" I covered my face.

She was confused... "Then why is he leaving on tour early???"....

"Because I left him at the alter" I started crying.

"Oh.... but,...why?"

I threw my covers off of me and began looking for my jeans and hoodie "Because! It wasn't supposed to be that way! We hadn't spent any time trying to fix our problems! We spent time flirting and trying to reconnect but we cant build a marriage on lies! and he gave up! he just gave up!" I screamed... " He didn't even want to wait! He just gave up on us!"

"But you left him at the alter?"

I turned around and snapped at her "To Fix shit!"

"Don't yell at me I'm just trying to make sense of the gibberish"

I ran my hands through my hair and looked around. Finally found my jeans, slipped my hoodie on, ... grabbed my tennis shoes and headed towards my front door.

Ally followed. "Where are you going?"

"He doesn't just get to do this, he cant just leave me here with this ring.. and expect me to pine away for him!" I screamed "He gave up! He doesn't get to end this!"


I swung open my door. Angry... Tyler was in the hallway, Milo was on a leash in front of him..

He took one look at me.. "Are you okay?"

"Not now..." I stormed towards the car port.

I heard Ally tell him what was going on. He told her to hold Milo and I heard him start running. I started running to get away from him.

I reached my car and started crying, I put my key into the car door and he reached me before I could get in.

"Leave me alone!" I screamed.. "I have to end this!... He cant just do this to me! Leave me alone!"


Tyler grabbed me. I hit him in the chest. My heart was breaking... everything I felt for Daniel was dying. I felt like I was dying.

Tyler wrapped his arms around me and wouldn't let me go no matter how hard I protested.

I screamed and struggled... I finally gave up and bawled. My body felt weak, I could feel everything in my head and soul collide. My heart was broken, Daniel had given up on us. I remembered last night so clearly now...

I finally calmed down and Tyler released me.

"You've got to tell me what happened cass, connect these dots".. he had my face in his hands... "I just want to help you"

Tears still streaming... I finally spoke "We tried to elope last night,.. I left him at the alter because it suddenly made sense, we hadn't worked on anything we just fell back into our old habits.. reckless, stupid... impatient.. we never thought anything through we just did what we felt in the moment and it always hurt us later.. I just needed some more time, and he gave up. He couldn't give me more time. He just gave up on me, he didn't speak to me the ride home he dropped me off and took off, and now he's leaving for his tour and I don't get a goodbye, I don't get closure he just gives up!"

I started to get angry again...

I pushed Tyler, he kept a hold of me "Let me go, I have to go end this... I need to end this now"

"Your not driving!... I'll take you ... your not stable right now" he took my keys and told me to get in the car.

part of me knew he was enjoying this because Daniel would fail in the end but I just needed closure I didn't care who was