Wonderland by Bellaa Dream (superbooks4u .TXT) 📕

She cried hard. And i didnt feel any remorse. I got so much satisfaction out of it. All those nights i cried myself to sleep and all those therapy sessions. I wanted her to feel the same way i once felt before. Hurt. "Just give her some time to chill out. Love you mama. Call you later" "Okay my darling. Tell liam i say come inside." I was pacing back and forth in the living room. Liam? Thats his name? Why am i going thru all of this now? Lasiren ran towards me and pushed me.

"Why the fuck did you have to act like that?! Weve been thru too much. She's clean and wants to be in our lives again. I miss her, and i know damn well you do too. Shit! Your so goddamn evil!" I pushed him back by his neck into a wall. "How could you?! You know what. Find yo own way back home. And i aient finna be there when you get there. Oh, You can ask YOUR MOM to drop you off. I just cant believe you would do me like that."

Tears welled in my eyes. I was boiling hot and hurt. I know i could've handled that way better but all that anger that i had bottled up was soon to be let out. Better sooner than later right? I ran out crying and drove off half dead. That took apart of my soul and tore it to shreds right in front of me. It hurt my soul to see mama again. I thought she was dead. I called leanna and went over her place for a while. "Was it that rough babygirl?" Leanna spoke softly stroaking my hair.

"Yea, It was. I.. Just really wasnt expecting THAT. She was clean. And.. Alive. Its been 10 years man. 10 years i had to fend for me and Lasiren. And.. I have a little brother. He's cute or whatever. And its like i know i coulda handled it more civilized. But all that-------" "Anger that was built up". Leanna said finishing my sentence. "Yea" Me and Lasiren's Arguement raced thru my mind. Loudly. I closed my eyes. But it only got worse. I felt bad. Real bad. I felt... Alone. Like a single red rose in a dark room; Alone. So i decided to call him. "Let me borrow yo phone Lele. He's not gonna answer my calls. 

 "Hello? Lele what you want? I knew you'd be ringing in fa' some mo'." "Dear god.. Its not Leanna.. Its Layla.. Look. Im sorry. And I know you hate me now. And probaly forever. But i do love you with all my heart. But you gotta understand that.. I just have a ton of anger built up that you cant interfear with. If you wanted me talk to her you coulda just asked. The worst i could have said was no. I didnt want you to see that. I love you soo much. And im not coming home tonight just to let you cool off a bit." "Layla.. I.. I dont hate you. I love you with all my heart too. And i know i was wrong. Im sorry. Its just that.. I wanna be a family again. I missed out on a mother. Your the only mom i've ever known. But i understand where you coming from and i respect that. But i really want you home tonight. Shit. We're still on for tonight i hope you know that. I feel like your tryna waste my money."

He chuckled. "Ha okay. Ill be home in a little bit." "Love you lay lay" I told Leanna i'll call her when i get home. I stopped at the 24hr Everything store for some juice but insted i got Jayden. I hurried past only to have him grab my wrist and yank me back. "Woah woah woah lil baby. Where you going?" "Away from you" "Sooo soon? You know i love a good fight." He smirked sickly, "Shit. Dont i know." "I called you eariler. Why yeen answer?" I forgot i had a missed call from some random number. I wanted to confine in him right then and there but i couldnt. I didnt wanna deal with the result. So i lied.

"Sorry. I was shopping and as soon as you called my phone died." "Ha. Alright. So.. Im guessing you bought something cute for our date yo next night off at Changs... Am i right?" He stared me down seductivly. I wanted to pounce on him then and there. "Mhmm.. Whatever.. My next day off is friday." "Well alright then." I dont understadnd why i accepted his offer. "Well.. Thats a bet babe." Jay said. "Im not your babe." "Oh yea. Your right. Your not my babe.. Yet" I looked at him crazy. "Yet? Boy you funny." Realitly hit me.. I had to go shopping and Lasiren was still waiting on me at home. I picked up some Tampico juice and proceeded on. "Aye jay.. Call me later on tonight." "Alright lil mama" I waltezed out the store and saw Jayden loitering ourside with his friends i guess.

I got home and saw Lasiren had everything ready. We had a L shape couch and he was waiting on the shorter side of the couch. The house smelled of nachos. Lasiren sprung up and hugged me tight. "My feet are killing me" I whined. "Aient nobody tell yo ugly ass to put them shoes on" "Hush!" The rest of the night we cuddled up, ate and watched movies.

He stroaked my hair while mumbling something. "Speak up nigga!" "I said.. I hate the fact that you stripping man.. Id rather you be out there cooking and sellin dope. Stripping is a danger zone sometimes. Some of them cats in there be getting attached. They might follow you home or some shit like that. Shit.. Look what happend to Lolli pop." "Aw baby. Im sorrt. I only do it for us. Just.. Give it some time. I wont be doing this for too long." "I wish there was something i could do." I mumbled something and slowly nodded off to sleep on his chest.

I woke up by the vibration of my phone at 2am in the morning. "Ello." "Who this?" "Jay. What you doing right na?" "Sleeping like normal people do at this time of night, Jay" I slowly got up trying my best not to wake up Lasiren with my movement or my loud ass voice. "Damn. Well you want me to call you back later lil mama?" "Na man. You gucci." The rest of the night we talked about life in mexico and how my life was after he left and he asked about mama. I broke down and confinded in him. I cried and cried. He was mad at me a little bit bout me lieing bout me shopping but he understood. At 6am there was a knock on my door. I told Jayden i'd call him back in a second. Another knock. "Im coming!" I yelped from the back of the appt. I opened the door and saw Jayden standing there chesing hella hard.

"Mind if a come and comfort you for a lil while?" I yanked him in. He had a duffle bag fulla clothes , im guessing cause he knew for a fact i wasnt gonna let him leave. Lasiren was up and running around by then. "Wassup cuh?" Lasiren asked Jay. "Chilling with yo sister man, You know." "Maann.. Coo, Coo.. Thats wassup. But ayo sis, Ima be back in like 3 hours " "Okay. Be safe lil boy. Love you!" "Luv u too" The door slammed shut behind him. "Man.. Since yeen in no shape or form ready to go outside, So this is offically our first date.

" Jay's goofy ass told me. "Ahahah. Okay i guess. What we finna do sir?" He dropped his bag, And ran to the kitchen. I went to lay down and in 20 minuets there was Rice, Lemon Baked Chicken, And Choclate Mousse. "You Remembered!!" I yelled in excitement. This was my favorite foods. He threw them all toghther which was funny. "Yea. I guess i remembered.." Jay spoke softly but blushing hella hard. We ate and giggled and talked about silly shit. It made me feel WAAAY better.

I slowly made my way over to his lap. "Whew.. Um.. Soo?" Jay studdered nervously. "So.." My voice got extra sultry. I pulled him towards me and kissed him slowly and passionly. "Woah.. So um what this mean? lil mama?" "Nothing.. Yet.." "Alright lil mama.. Thats a bet" We kissed again but harder. He sprung up and pushed me aganist a wall. Kissing all over my neck and grabbing on my ass. I pushed him all the way to my room and threw him on the bed and locked the door.

"Shit" I turned on some slow music and started dancing. I pushed him down and climbed ontop of him. Grinding slowly. Jay grabbed my hips and grinded with me. He ripped off my shirt and i ripped off his. He flipped me on my back and slid off my pants, & slid my thong off with his teeth. And dropped his pants quick fast and in a hurry. "So.. What you want me to do?" He managed to get thru breaths. "Its whatever you wanna do" I dropped my head back The Flicking Of his tounge fast, He had me going crazy. He jolted up and got aggressive. He slid in slow and deep. His stroke got faster and deeper.

I yelled at the top of my lungs not giving a flying rats ass about who was above me, beside me or around me in these apartments. He bust and kept going, continuing to fuck me like a rabbit. He flipped me around each and every way that you could possibly think of. He was terrorizing my insides from behind and i finally gave up. "Baeeeee stop please." I yelped. He laughed. "Why? You tryna tap out on me?" "Maybe just a little!" He laughed hella hard then sped up. Finally i squirted. He stepped back with a face full of satisfaction. I didnt like the stare his caramel eyes were giving me so i covered up. He slid under the sheets with me and fell asleep. "Hey get up" I shook Jayden. "Why man?" "CAUSE! Im changing the sheets. Do you wanna lay around in our juices?" He raised up. I snatched the covers off the bed and threw them in the dirty clothes hamper. I slipped into my robe then had Jayden help me spread the new sheets on the bed. They were adventure time sheets(Im a huge kid).

Jayden crawled back into bed and i began to feel uncomfterable and needed someone to talk to. Lasiren still wasnt home so i was completely lonely. I sat there for about 20 minuets then called Leanna. "Boo. I did something really bad" I hesataited before speaking.