It's Your Baby by Belén Domínguez (book recommendations for teens .TXT) 📕

truth, b-but. . .It's just so hard, it will be so hard to look into her eyes and say something like this, and-and to tell her that I was the one that lied and said that I wasn't the father. She will feel awful”

 

Just like I am feeling right now. . .

 

“Finn—”

 

I heard a knock on my door, so I quickly stood up. “I-I have to go” I said and ended the call. I walked towards my door, and opened it slowly, revealing my beautiful Gwen.

 

“I really have to go” she said.

 

“Y-yeah, I'll-I'll take you, alright?” I offered, she smiled and nodded, grabbing my hand. I placed a kiss on the top of her head.

 

Gwen's P.O.V

 

“Thanks for dropping me off. . .” I said. He smiled sweetly, and grabbed my hand delicately. We stayed in silence for s couple minutes, I glanced out the window from time to time, he was caressing my hand with his thumb. The only thing to be heard in this car, was the peaceful melody of a song in the radio.

 

“You know I would do anything for you, right?” he had a weird look on his face. Somehow, when he said that, he just couldn't look at me. He've been acting so weirdly lately, I wonder why? 

 

“Finn?”

 

He slowly looked up at me, he had his eyebrows knitted together, his lips in a tight line. “Are you okay?”

 

“Yeah, why wouldn't I be?”

 

“You've been acting strange lately. . .If you want to talk about anything, you know that you can tell me anything”

“All I know is that I can be such an asshole, and I-I'm glad that you're still here with me, judging by this entire situation. I can't believe what a jerk I was when I first found out about this baby, God”

 

“Finn, is fine—”

 

“Is not fine, Gwen, is not fine at all. . .I can be an idiot”

 

“But you're not being an idiot now, and that's all it matters. You're here, with me. You've been so good to me, you've been taking this entire situation with maturity, with responsibility, you care for me”

 

“I haven't been good at all” he muttered under his breath, but I heard quite right. I furrowed my eyebrows in confusion as he places his free hand in the steering wheel, looking out the window. Silence again.

 

“Excuse me? Why do you think you haven't been good at all?” I asked, confused. He've been so kind, so thoughtful. He was fine when we were at his apartment. Why is he acting like this?

 

“Finn, you need to tell me what is going on? What is happening to you? Why are you talking like this? What in the world is bothering you?” I asked. He let go a heavy sigh, and locked gazes with mine, finally. He was silent for a moment to take a deep breath. He was still holding my hand, but his grip started getting tighter, and he was looking at me with such intensity. He've been acting so weird when we left his apartment, I'm worried. . .I want to know why is he acting this way, ever since he got into that room, and then opened the door for me, everything seemed off.

 

Finn's P.O.V

 

I have to tell her. . .

 

Dammit, I know I have to. . .Things will get worse if I don't. But if I do, she will be so pissed, so fucking pissed. I lied. I lied about us, about the baby, about everything. . .Just because I wanted them to think that I was single and that I was totally fine. That is all wrong, she doesn't deserve that. . .This is all my fault.

 

“Well?” she pushed. Her big eyes I came to love so much were filled with confusion and worry. I closed my eyes for a brief moment before opening them again.

 

“Gwen, I have to tell you something very important”

 

“I'm listening. . .” she said. My grip in her hand got tighter. With my free hand, I took one strand of her hair and placed it behind her ear. God, she's gorgeous.

 

“I, well. . .I just—”

 

Her phone started buzzing, making her stop looking at me, and retrieving it from her purse. “Finn, I'm so sorry, but I truly have to go. My mom needs me right now” she said and kissed my cheek. She unbuckled herself and went out the door. “But, we will talk, and you will tell me what is bothering you so much, alright? Bye” she said, and started walking away, and I'm afraid. . .That when she finds out, she will walk away just like that, but when that time comes. . .It will be permanently.

 

I hit the steering wheel with all I have. I stared at myself in the rear view mirror. My eyes are glassy, I glanced back at her, she already walked inside the house. Several tears started rolling freely down my cheeks. This time, I just couldn't hold it any longer, and I literally started bawling my eyes out, in my car. I wiped them away, but more kept going down. Just the thought of losing Gwen makes me be this way, I don't want it to happen. . .That's my biggest fear.  

 

Losing her. . .

 

Making her hate me. . .

 

Nothing mattered months ago, before meeting her. But now that she's in my life, I don't want her to leave now. She crawled to my heart in a way that every time I think of her being hurt or being disappointed, makes my heart ache, makes me want to keep crying.

 

She's beautiful. She's sweet. She's innocent. She doesn't like me for my fame, she likes me for who I am. . .She actually knows me.

 

"Please, forgive me, Gwen, for being such sn idiot" I said aloud. If I could just go and tell her the truth, but there's never the right time. How do you say something like this to someone? Especially when this person is pregnant? Like seriously, is already enough that she needs to give birth. Now, there's girls talking shit about her, when she doesn't even have the fault. Plus, she doesn't know that I'm the one who lied about me being the father, I bet she will be heartbroken. I'm crying harder by now, I stared at my reflection in the mirror. Eyes red and puffy, nose red as a tomato, my tear-stained cheeks were warm. My head starts hurting and pounding hard due to so much crying.

 

I hit the steering wheel one more time out of frustration. Why is this happening? Why didn't I think of this before!? Why am I such a dickhead?

 

“Idiot, idiot, idiot” I muttered. I stayed parked in front of her house for a while, to calm down. There's no way I'm driving like this. But as I waited, and I stared at her house, it makes me feel even worse. She's inside, totally clueless of what is happening, she doesn't know I'm still here, crying my eyes out, for her. . .

 

I don't know how long I've been here, I lost count. I wiped the few tears I had left and turned on the engine. I took a deep breath, and tried to calm down. I started driving out of the neighborhood, thinking of everything we've been together.

 

***

 

“I never met such a beautiful girl like you. . .” I said as I saw her blushing.

 

She scoffed for some reason towards my comment. “You have like a million fans, I suppose you meet thousands every day, and you tell me I'm the most beautiful girl you've ever met? C'mon, be more realistic” her giggle was so cute.

 

“I'm serious” I moved an inch closer. “What's your name, pretty face?”

 

“Gwen. . .Just Gwen” she said timidly.

 

“Well, Gwen, I'm Finn. . .Just Finn” I said and kissed the top of her hand.

 

***

 

"What do you want to talk about?" she asked and crossed her arms across her chest. Annoyance all over her face.

 

“When did you found out about this? And why didn't you tell me before?” I asked.

 

“I found out last week, the same day my brother went to look for you. That means I couldn't have told you before, since I figured it out the same time you did, and why would you care anyway, huh? Aren't you too busy caring about yourself?” she said, sending me a deathly glare.

 

“I'm not like that, Gwen” I said, trying to soften my voice.

 

“Oh really? You sure about that? I'm actually surprised you remember my name for starters. If you actually cared for me, you would've called me a month ago after that night. But no, I was just a one-time thing”

 

“That's what pisses me the most. You spend one night, just one night with girl and have sex, and then they think they're dating. You girls need a reality check” I said raising my voice a little.

 

“Do you realize how much of a jerk you're being right now?” she asked as she furrowed her eyebrows. I let go heavy sigh, shaking my head. I looked at her, our faces just mere inches from each other.

 

“I'm trying not to be. . .But you're so damn complicated” I said.

 

She huffed. “You know what? I don't care. . .I'm out of here. You got what you wanted and now look who's the one suffering. I'm just 17 Finn! I can't have a baby. I just can't”

 

“Don't you think you're overreacting?” I asked. She gasped in shock, hurt was plastered across her delicate face. Before I know it, she slapped me across my face with such force, I know her fingers will get marked.

 

***

 

“Finn, I—” I couldn't let her finish that sentence as I instantly crashed my lips with hers. She looked so beautiful and irresistible, it was hard not to, it was so hard to deny the fact that I truly wanted her lips on mine. But this time, we weren’t drunk. This time. . .I did felt this kiss.

 

***

I am such an idiot. . .

Chapter 46 - The Baby's Possible Future

Gwen's P.O.V

 

“Mom, I'm home!” I called out for her. No answer. I walked into the kitchen and grabbed an apple from the counter, taking a bit. I sat in one of the stools, when suddenly, I heard footsteps coming down the stairs. My mom entered the kitchen, wearing a white dress, her hair pulled back into a fancy ponytail, her typical red lipstick, her Gucci purse in one hand, and the car keys in the other.

 

“Hello, sweetie” she said with a sweet smile. I waved at her, biting my apple. “Shall we?”

 

“Where are we going?” I asked, furrowing my eyebrows in confusion.

 

“To the Doctor, I made an appointment for you right now, that's why I was worried that you weren't going to be here on time”

 

“Oh, alright, I was actually going to ask you to make me an appointment” I said as I got out of the stool.

 

“I'm your mother, honey, I know what you will ask for even before you have the time to ask me about it” she winked and patted my shoulder. I chuckled and nodded in agreement, she is right though.

 

I grabbed my jacket and purse from the counter and followed my mom to her car. I buckled in and turned on the radio, the new