What's hidden within me by Ameera Butt (heaven official's blessing novel english txt) 📕

he still didn't respond and kept dragging me out of the hotel. We rushed out of the hotel’s entrance and he dragged me onto the beach. No one was around; it was just him and me. The only witness we had around us was the birds flying around and the smooth water beside us.

“Lilly listen to me clearly, you get your stuff and you get out of this place and go back home! Do I make myself clear?” Lionel demanded.
“But Lio I can’t just leave and go!” I expressed.
“No Lilly, you leave. You leave right this instant!”
“What about Mass?”
“Don’t worry, I’ll find him and send him to you. I won’t let anything happen to him or you.”
“Lionel...”
“Lilly please we don’t have enough time.”
“That girl killed my sister Lionel. She killed Max and now she is probably somewhere near Mass. She was looking for Sherry, Logan, you and me. I’m not going to leave without revenge.”

He took a deep breath and brought himself close to me holding me against him as he spoke “I'm sorry for putting you into this Lilly. I’m sorry for all of this. If we hadn’t of met then you would of never been involved.”
I looked up into his eyes as I felt him being very remorseful as I replied back to him “Lionel I’m in this now. So please just tell me and take me out of this confusion.”
“Us three were once best friends. Nothing could separate us not even god. But I guess we were wrong. Something could separate us. Life brought us to certain circumstances where all we ever did when seeing each other as fight. Fight until we couldn‘t move anymore. Logan and me were always one, our friendship wasn’t breakable but ours and Sherry’s friendship was breakable as it broke due to misunderstanding and death.”
“Misunderstanding and deaths?” I asked with a tension in my voice.
“On the day of when Sherry was going to get married his fiancee Elizabeth was murdered. Stabbed to death is what they said. In that moment Logan was there when it all happened and was found with Elizabeth which made Sherry think that Logan killed her. Logan denied so many times as well as I did but Sherry didn’t listen to neither of us. I got into a fight with Sherry but eventually gave up but Logan didn’t give up.”
“What did you lot do then?”
“Well, for revenge one night Sherry got into Logan's fiancée's house and murdered her stabbing her to death just like how his fiancee was murdered. From that day the pair of them have been taking revenge on each other. Whenever they come in front of each other its like two big flames being built. They fight until their energies run out thankfully no one dies.”
“How does this involve me and who was that girl who killed my friend and sister?”

He took a step away from me and turned around facing towards the sea. He didn’t really want to answer that question because it would mean he would have to express his feelings but I didn’t care. I wanted my answers!

“You know the day we met you asked me if I liked or loved someone.” He spoke out as my mind went into a quick flashback and remembered the exact words I asked when collecting our luggage. I nodded and he continued speaking “ the moment I saw you I knew I was stuck. Stuck in love because something like you I would never let go off. At first your character came out very different. You came out to be a girl who was so self involved you didn't know what to do or what was happening around you. Stubborn, impatient, always in anger, whatever you had in you Lilly I loved it and I always used to try to make those things appear in you when I was with you because it was fun seeing you like that. You always showed the real you. The time I got to spend with you was so amazing. Remember how I wanted something pure and I said I wouldn’t be able to find that because I live in reality. After finding you I didn't want any of that, it was just a dream now. I wanted you because in all the people I've ever met I couldn't accept all of them for how they were but I could accept you. It wasn’t just your beauty, it was something way beyond that which attracted me towards you. Spending time with and your friends made me realise how wrong I was in life and it made me realise how I wanted to spend the rest of my life. When I landed off that plane I came off as someone else Lillian.”

I looked at him as a tear dropped out of my eyes. It was something I wanted to hear but wasn’t sure how I wanted to hear those words. He said it so perfectly that for a minute I had forgotten what had previously just happened. I wiped the small tear of my cheek and managed to take out some words.

“You’re in love Lionel.”
“The problem is Lilly, I’m not the only on in love with you.” He said feeling a little more down than before.
I gave a little sniff and replied saying “Mass, I know.”
“He isn't the only one after me Lilly.”
“Who else?” I asked hoping the names running in my mind isn't true.
“The day you first met Sherry in the nightclub was the day he found out I had some sort of feelings for you. He didn’t want to kill you because I wasn’t Logan, but he wanted to know you.”
“If Logan liked me instead would he have killed me that night?”
“I won’t lie to you Lilly; there would have been a strong chance.” I looked down as he continued speaking “he got to know you a bit and he realised killing someone like you wouldn't be fair since I had done nothing to him anyways. The day Logan met you his eyes didn’t leave off you. I know you noticed that as well as I did that's why that day you held onto me so tightly. Sherry found out that Logan was very fond off you and the night you went to the beach party he caught up with you.”
“He got me drunk and wanted to kill me then?” I questioned in horror.
“That was his plan until a strange thing happened. You don’t remember much from that night do you Lilly.”
“No I don’t, not clearly anyways.”
“He spent that evening with you getting to see that real you Lilly. Instead of killing you he fell in love with you. His weakness is love Lilly and out of the blue you became his weakness as well as Mass’s, Logan’s and mine.”

The shock that appeared to me was just not describable. Four different guys were in love with me at once. What was I supposed to do. I was clueless on what to say and what to do. I didn’t want to focus on this. Now I was just confused on who I even loved. My heart said Lionel but my mind played stupid games. For a second I tried to forget about what Lionel had just told me and focused on my sister and friend.

“Who was the girl that killed my Kat and Max?” I asked.
“Aiste Jones, sister of Elizabeth Jones. It was more of her own revenge. Her mind was full of revenge just how yours is right now. She would kill anyone that came in her way. The only person she had in her life was Elizabeth and she was taken away from her. I understood her at first but then she truly became insane starting to murder innocent people for no reason.”
“Innocent people such as Max and Kat.”
“Correct, just like Max and Kat. She either dies or continues killing people.”
“She must die Lionel, no matter what she must die!” I demanded.
“She will Lilly, she will.” Lionel agreed wiping a small tear of my face.
“But Lionel we need to go back and stop Logan and Sherry from fighting. They need to stop this!”
“They will never stop Lilly.”
“We will make them stop.” I held onto his hand so tight and continued speaking “We’ll do everything together.” He held me hand tighter.

We rushed back to the hotel room but there was no one there. We looked around everywhere in the hotels round floor and out near the pool but Logan and Sherry were nowhere to be seen. I was worried if one of them was seriously harmed or what if one killed the other. At the same time my mind was focusing on Mass as well. I hoped he was ok, everyone was running around my mind that I didn’t know who to specifically concentrate on. We came out of the hotel and looked around as the rain appeared all a sudden and I looked up towards it finding what Lionel and me were searching for it.

“Lio look!” I yelled pointing up. He followed up where my hand was directing as he saw Logan and Sherry on the hotel terrace not being alone. With them were Abi, Mass and Aiste. We ran back into the hotel and rushed up the stairs since the lift was overloaded already. Running up a five floor building would seem so easy when thinking about it but actually being there running was one of the most hardest thing s to do especially when there was other people surrounding you. We hurried up and getting there in time.

“Ah Lionel, I was hoping to meet you up here soon and you brought a guest, perfect.” Aiste spoke out with a crazy laugh.
“Let them go Aiste.” I came in front of Lionel and spoke out to her as her eyes focused on me.
“Let go of them? So easily, just like that. You must kidding me!”
“Let’s make a deal Aiste.” She looked at me whilst I spoke out slowly to her and then I continued talking “you leave them and you take me and do whatever you want to do with me.”
“Lilly have you gone insane!” Lionel shouted out holding me back.
“No, I’m pretty sane compared to you lot.” I yelled back to him and then looked towards Aiste and spoke to her “take me and leave the four boys. Everyone one of them loves me. You kill me means you’ve killed them. Let them live in their regret and guilt.”
“Not a bad idea Lilly.” Aiste agreed.

I walked slowly towards her going pass Logan, Sherry and Mass. I looked at Mass deeply and very quickly before reaching Aiste. I saw that look he gave me that he always gave me. That wasn’t a friendship look that was a love look. I wish I could stop and apologise to him but I couldn’t. She grabbed onto my by my neck as all the guys took a step forward and stop. She held a gun towards my head and walked through them taking me away from them, down the lift and out of the hotel, putting me into a car and making me drive off. The guys couldn’t wait they all tried to rush out of the place together all fighting against each other to get out through the door first. Not caring about anything they all pushed Mass back as he hit his head against the wall and falls down being unconscious. Abi let the three of them run and stayed back with Mass. The other three ran down and got into a car following behind me.

“You have no idea