Lady of Hay by Barbara Erskine (reading an ebook TXT) 📕

you still understood me. " Wendy stood up and threw her notes down on the table. "It is extraordinary. Quite extraordinary!" She swung around to face Carl. "Could it be some kind of possession? Or even a case of multiple personality?"

"There is no question of it, " Carl said swiftly. "Jo came to me with no history whatsoever of mental or personality problems. Whatever this is, I am certain in my own mind that it is from her own past. "

"And it has now become part of her present, " Sam put in quietly. "I suspect that the past was unresolved. Perhaps resolution can only come in this life. "

Jo shivered violently. "Sam! That's horrible! What are you saying?"

"People are not reborn without a purpose, Jo. They return to progress or to expiate their sins. "

"Rubbish, man!" Jim Paxman gave Sam a look of undisguised dislike. "I have never heard such arrant nonsense. If this is an echo from the past, then that is all it is, an echo. With no more meaning or purpose than the accidental replaying of an old record. This woman is in some way acting as an instrument, a... a... " He groped for the right word.

"A medium?" Wendy put in thoughtfully.

"If you like, but that has psychic connotations which I don't accept. We are not dealing with ectoplasm or crystal balls here. That is not what we are talking about at all. "

"Aren't we?" Nick said.

Everyone looked at him. There was an expectant silence. Behind them Sarah pushed open the door. On her tray were eight cups of coffee.

Sam and Nick both went back to Cornwall Gardens with Jo. They were all silent in the taxi, and once they were in the apartment Nick went straight to the cabinet in search of the bottle of Scotch.

Jo threw herself down on the sofa. "I feel as if I've been through a mental mincer, " she said. She put her arm across her eyes. "Isn't it funny? I thought today would prove something—either that I'm hallucinating or inventing things or that it is all real and I am the reincarnation of Matilda de Braose, and yet, with all that talk and all that argument and all those experts, it has proved nothing. In fact, now it is worse. All they have done is make me terribly aware of the fact that there are a whole lot more theories to account for my condition than I had ever thought of and I am more muddled than ever. "

"Forget it all, Jo. " Nick sat down near her with a sigh. "Why the hell should you turn yourself into a specimen under a microscope for that lot? Or me, for that matter. " He frowned. "We know what we believe. That is what is important. "

"And what do we believe?" Sam put in.

"That's the point!" Jo sat up. The Scotch had brought the color back to her cheeks. "I don't know anymore. Except that it's not just me. We are all three involved. We are, aren't we?" She looked from one to the other.

"Perhaps. " Sam walked out onto the balcony and stood looking down at the square. A group of children were playing on the grass behind the railings with a huge striped plastic ball. He turned to lean on the balustrade. "We must all experience with an open mind and record meticulously and with unbiased comment what happens. Particularly you, Jo, if you still intend to write a book on all this. The book will be of enormous scientific—or occult or historical or linguistic or whatever—significance. Let those experts of Bennet's with their analytical minds tear that apart. From now on we'll leave them out of it. We don't need them. The man himself is, of course, a fool. You do realize that, don't you? For all his expensive offices and the panoply of medical props he is not a qualified psychiatrist. "

Nick raised an eyebrow. "He couldn't call himself doctor, surely, if he weren't qualified. "

"He qualified as a physician in Vienna just after the war, but he never practiced as far as I can see, either in general practice or as a specialist, until he came to England, when he did a minimal training in hypnotherapy and launched himself as an expert on some decidedly fringe activities. "

Nick gave a lazy smile. "It struck me he didn't think much of you either. "

"Shut up, both of you. " Jo stood up. "Why don't I get us all a salad. I want to think about something else for a change. My mind is so tired, so terribly tired of all this—" Her voice trembled slightly.

With a glance at Sam, Nick followed her into the kitchen. "Jo, what happened to me at Bennet's?" he asked in an undertone. "Did I go into some sort of trance as well?"

She looked at him, astonished. "You?"

"Yes, me, Jo. " He glanced over his shoulder hurriedly. "I am beginning to think Sam may have given me some sort of posthypnotic suggestion—"

"Sam?" Jo stared. "You haven't let Sam hypnotize you?"

"Now, who is taking my name in vain?" Sam had brought the bottle of Scotch with him into the kitchen.

"No one. " Jo glanced at him uncomfortably. She turned hastily to the refrigerator and took out a plate of cold meats and a bowl of salad, then she reached into the door for a bottle of wine. "Sam, the corkscrew is in the drawer behind you. Leave my Scotch alone and pour us all some wine instead, will you? When did you say your plane was tomorrow, Nick?" she went on hastily.

Nick was watching his brother expertly insert the tip of the corkscrew into the center of the cork. He was frowning.

"Eleven. I'm going to have to go as soon as we've eaten, Jo. There are things I must do at the office before I go back to the apartment to pack. "

Jo looked down at the bottle of olive oil