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words of Eternal Life!โ€

But Jesus was gazing somewhere in silence. And when they followed his glance they saw Judas in the doorway rigid, open-mouthed and with staring eyes. And not knowing what it was about, they laughed. But Matthew, learned in the Scriptures, touched Judasโ€™ shoulder and remarked in Solomonโ€™s words:

โ€œHe who has a gentle look will be shown mercy, but he who is met in the gate will oppress others.โ€

Judas shuddered and even uttered a faint hoarse cry of fear, and all of his bodyโ โ€”eyes, arms and legs seemed to flee in different directions. So a beast might look when suddenly facing the eyes of man. Jesus walked straight against Judas, seemingly bearing some word on His lips, and he walked past Judas through the door which was now open and free.

Long after midnight Thomas, becoming worried, approached Judasโ€™ sleeping place and bending over him inquired:

โ€œThou weepest, Judas?โ€

โ€œNo, go away, Thomas.โ€

โ€œThen why groanest thou and gnashest thy teeth? Art thou ill?โ€

Judas was silent for a space of time, and then from his lips poured forth one after another heavy words, throbbing with yearning and wrath.

โ€œWhy does He not love me? Why does He love them? Am I not more beautiful, am I not better, am I not stronger than they? Did I not save His life while the others were running away cringing like cowardly curs?โ€

โ€œMy poor friend, thou art not entirely in the right. Thou are not at all beautiful and thy tongue is as disagreeable as thy face. Thou art forever lying and speaking ill of others. How dost thou expect that Jesus should love thee?โ€

But Judas heard him not and continued: โ€œWhy is He with those who do not love Him, instead of with Judas? John brought Him a lizard, I would have brought Him a venomous snake. Peter cast stones, I would have turned the mountain around for Him. But what is a snake? Draw its tooth and it will cling about thy neck like a necklace. What is a mountain which one can dig with his hands and trample under foot? I would have given Him Judas, daring, beautiful Judas. But now He will perish and Judas will perish with Him.โ€

โ€œThou sayest strange things, Judas.โ€

โ€œThe withered fig tree which is to be hewn down! Why, that is I, He said it of me! Why does He not hew? He dare not, Thomas. I know Him. He fears Judas! He hides before the daring, the beautiful Judas! He loves the fools, the traitors, the liars! Thou art a liar, Thomas, hast thou heard me?โ€

Thomas was greatly surprised, and thought of protesting, but he decided that Judas was merely brawling, and contented himself by shaking his head. But Judasโ€™ agony increased: he moaned, gnashed his teeth, and one could hear his huge body shifting restlessly under the blanket.

โ€œWhat is it that pains Judas so? Who has set fire to his body? He gives his son unto the dogs, he yields his daughter into the hands of robbers for defilement. But is not the heart of Judas tender? Go away, Thomas, go away, thou fool. Leave Judas alone, strong, daring, beautiful Judas.โ€

IV

Judas purloined a few pieces of silver and the theft was discovered by Thomas who had chanced to note the exact sum of money given him. It was thought likely that he had stolen on previous occasions, and the indignation of the disciples knew no bounds. Bristling with wrath Peter seized Judas by the neck and half dragged him to Jesus. The pale and frightened culprit offered no resistance.

โ€œTeacher, look. Our jester! Just look at him, the thief. Thou trustest him, but he steals our money. The rogue! If thou wilt but say the word, I shall.โ โ€Šโ โ€ฆโ€

But Jesus was silent. Peter looked up curiously scanning the Teacherโ€™s expression, and with flushed face relaxed his hold on Judas. The latter smoothed his garments with a sheepish mien and assumed the downcast appearance of a penitent sinner.

โ€œWhat do you think of that!โ€ growled Peter, and walked out of the room banging the door. Everybody was annoyed, and the disciples declared that on no account would they remain together with Judas. John, however, with a sudden inspiration quietly slipped into the room whence through the open doorway was now heard the gentle and apparently cordial voice of Jesus.

When John returned, his face was pale and his eyes were red with recent tears.

โ€œThe Teacher saysโ โ€Šโ โ€ฆ The Teacher says that Judas may take all the money he likes.โ€

Peter laughed angrily. Swiftly and reproachfully John glanced at the impetuous disciple, and suddenly, all aglow, his tears mingling with his wrath, his joy mingling with his tears, he exclaimed with a ringing voice:

โ€œAnd none shall keep count of the money which Judas receives. He is our brother and all the money is his as well as ours, and if he needs much let him take much, telling no one nor taking counsel with any. Judas is our brother and you have deeply offended against him,โ€ thus sayeth our Teacher. โ€œShame on us, brethren!โ€

In the doorway stood Judas, pale and with a sickly smile. John with a quick movement approached him and kissed him thrice on the cheek. And after him, exchanging glances and awkwardly, came the others, James, Philip, and the rest. After each kiss Judas wiped his mouth, though he received the kiss with a resounding smack as if the sound afforded him much pleasure. The last to kiss him was Peter.

โ€œWe are all fools, Judas. We are all blind. One alone is seeing, One alone is wise. May I kiss thee?โ€

โ€œWhy not? Kiss,โ€ assented Judas.

Peter cordially kissed him and whispered into his ear:

โ€œAnd I almost choked thee. The others were gentler, but I seized thee by the throat. Did it pain thee?โ€

โ€œA little.โ€

โ€œI shall go to Him and tell Him. I was even angry with Him,โ€ gloomily remarked Peter striving to open the door without noise.

โ€œAnd how about thee, Thomas?โ€ sternly inquired John who was watching the

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