The Small House at Allington by Anthony Trollope (the kiss of deception read online txt) 📕

young men to try, there couldn’t be anything more of that kind, could there? I know it hasn’t all been just as it should have been;⁠—that is as regards you; but I should like to hear you say that you’ve found me honest before you went. I have tried to be honest, I have indeed.”

Eames assured her that he was convinced of her honesty, and that he had never thought of impugning her character either in regard to those unfortunate people, the Lupexes, or in reference to other matters. “He did not think,” he said, “that any young men would consult him as to their lodgings; but if he could be of any service to her, he would.” Then he bade her goodbye, and having bestowed half-a-sovereign on the faithful Jemima, he took a long farewell of Burton Crescent. Amelia had told him not to come and see her when she should be married, and he had resolved that he would take her at her word. So he walked off from the Crescent, not exactly shaking the dust from his feet, but resolving that he would know no more either of its dust or of its dirt. Dirt enough he had encountered there certainly, and he was now old enough to feel that the inmates of Mrs. Roper’s house had not been those among whom a resting-place for his early years should judiciously have been sought. But he had come out of the fire comparatively unharmed, and I regret to say that he felt but little for the terrible scorchings to which his friend had been subjected and was about to subject himself. He was quite content to look at the matter exactly as it was looked at by Mrs. Roper. Amelia was good enough for Joseph Cradell⁠—any day of the week. Poor Cradell, of whom in these pages after this notice no more will be heard! I cannot but think that a hard measure of justice was meted out to him, in proportion to the extent of his sins. More weak and foolish than our friend and hero he had been, but not to my knowledge more wicked. But it is to the vain and foolish that the punishments fall;⁠—and to them they fall so thickly and constantly that the thinker is driven to think that vanity and folly are of all sins those which may be the least forgiven. As for Cradell I may declare that he did marry Amelia, that he did, with some pride, take the place of master of the house at the bottom of Mrs. Roper’s table, and that he did make himself responsible for all Mrs. Roper’s debts. Of his future fortunes there is not space to speak in these pages.

Going away from the Crescent Eames had himself driven to his office, which he reached just as the men were leaving it, at four o’clock. Cradell was gone, so that he did not see him on that afternoon; but he had an opportunity of shaking hands with Mr. Love, who treated him with all the smiling courtesy due to an official bigwig⁠—for a private secretary, if not absolutely a bigwig, is semi-big, and entitled to a certain amount of reverence;⁠—and he passed Mr. Kissing in the passage, hurrying along as usual with a huge book under his arm. Mr. Kissing, hurried as he was, stopped his shuffling feet; but Eames only looked at him, hardly honouring him with the acknowledgment of a nod of his head. Mr. Kissing, however, was not offended; he knew that the private secretary of the First Commissioner had been the guest of an earl; and what more than a nod could be expected from him? After that John made his way into the august presence of Sir Raffle, and found that great man putting on his shoes in the presence of FitzHoward. FitzHoward blushed; but the shoes had not been touched by him, as he took occasion afterwards to inform John Eames.

Sir Raffle was all smiles and civility. “Delighted to see you back, Eames: am, upon my word; though I and FitzHoward have got on capitally in your absence; haven’t we, FitzHoward?”

“Oh, yes,” drawled FitzHoward. “I haven’t minded it for a time, just while Eames has been away.”

“You’re much too idle to keep at it, I know; but your bread will be buttered for you elsewhere, so it doesn’t signify. My compliments to the duchess when you see her.” Then FitzHoward went. “And how’s my dear old friend?” asked Sir Raffle, as though of all men living Lord De Guest were the one for whom he had the strongest and the oldest love. And yet he must have known that John Eames knew as much about it as he did himself. But there are men who have the most lively gratification in calling lords and marquises their friends, though they know that nobody believes a word of what they say⁠—even though they know how great is the odium they incur, and how lasting is the ridicule which their vanity produces. It is a gentle insanity which prevails in the outer courts of every aristocracy; and as it brings with itself considerable annoyance and but a lukewarm pleasure, it should not be treated with too keen a severity.

“And how’s my dear old friend?” Eames assured him that his dear old friend was all right, that Lady Julia was all right, that the dear old place was all right. Sir Raffle now spoke as though the “dear old place” were quite well known to him. “Was the game doing pretty well? Was there a promise of birds?” Sir Raffle’s anxiety was quite intense, and expressed with almost familiar affection. “And, by the by, Eames, where are you living at present?”

“Well, I’m not settled. I’m at the Great Western Railway Hotel at this moment.”

“Capital house, very; only it’s expensive if you stay there the whole season.” Johnny had no idea of remaining there beyond one night, but he said nothing as to this. “By the by, you might as