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looked at the orator, his eyes nearly starting out of his head. Though he did not clearly understand what was said, he had caught something in this rigmarole, and stood, looking like a man who has just hit his head against a wall. Fyodor Pavlovitch emptied his glass and went off into his shrill laugh.

โ€œAlyosha! Alyosha! What do you say to that! Ah, you casuist! He must have been with the Jesuits, somewhere, Ivan. Oh, you stinking Jesuit, who taught you? But youโ€™re talking nonsense, you casuist, nonsense, nonsense, nonsense. Donโ€™t cry, Grigory, weโ€™ll reduce him to smoke and ashes in a moment. Tell me this, O ass; you may be right before your enemies, but you have renounced your faith all the same in your own heart, and you say yourself that in that very hour you became anathema accursed. And if once youโ€™re anathema they wonโ€™t pat you on the head for it in hell. What do you say to that, my fine Jesuit?โ€

โ€œThere is no doubt that I have renounced it in my own heart, but there was no special sin in that. Or if there was sin, it was the most ordinary.โ€

โ€œHowโ€™s that the most ordinary?โ€

โ€œYou lie, accursed one!โ€ hissed Grigory.

โ€œConsider yourself, Grigory Vassilyevitch,โ€ Smerdyakov went on, staid and unruffled, conscious of his triumph, but, as it were, generous to the vanquished foe. โ€œConsider yourself, Grigory Vassilyevitch; it is said in the Scripture that if you have faith, even as a mustard seed, and bid a mountain move into the sea, it will move without the least delay at your bidding. Well, Grigory Vassilyevitch, if Iโ€™m without faith and you have so great a faith that you are continually swearing at me, you try yourself telling this mountain, not to move into the sea for thatโ€™s a long way off, but even to our stinking little river which runs at the bottom of the garden. Youโ€™ll see for yourself that it wonโ€™t budge, but will remain just where it is however much you shout at it, and that shows, Grigory Vassilyevitch, that you havenโ€™t faith in the proper manner, and only abuse others about it. Again, taking into consideration that no one in our day, not only you, but actually no one, from the highest person to the lowest peasant, can shove mountains into the seaโ โ€”except perhaps some one man in the world, or, at most, two, and they most likely are saving their souls in secret somewhere in the Egyptian desert, so you wouldnโ€™t find themโ โ€”if so it be, if all the rest have no faith, will God curse all the rest? that is, the population of the whole earth, except about two hermits in the desert, and in His well-known mercy will He not forgive one of them? And so Iโ€™m persuaded that though I may once have doubted I shall be forgiven if I shed tears of repentance.โ€

โ€œStay!โ€ cried Fyodor Pavlovitch, in a transport of delight. โ€œSo you do suppose there are two who can move mountains? Ivan, make a note of it, write it down. There you have the Russian all over!โ€

โ€œYouโ€™re quite right in saying itโ€™s characteristic of the peopleโ€™s faith,โ€ Ivan assented, with an approving smile.

โ€œYou agree. Then it must be so, if you agree. Itโ€™s true, isnโ€™t it, Alyosha? Thatโ€™s the Russian faith all over, isnโ€™t it?โ€

โ€œNo, Smerdyakov has not the Russian faith at all,โ€ said Alyosha firmly and gravely.

โ€œIโ€™m not talking about his faith. I mean those two in the desert, only that idea. Surely thatโ€™s Russian, isnโ€™t it?โ€

โ€œYes, thatโ€™s purely Russian,โ€ said Alyosha smiling.

โ€œYour words are worth a gold piece, O ass, and Iโ€™ll give it to you today. But as to the rest you talk nonsense, nonsense, nonsense. Let me tell you, stupid, that we here are all of little faith, only from carelessness, because we havenโ€™t time; things are too much for us, and, in the second place, the Lord God has given us so little time, only twenty-four hours in the day, so that one hasnโ€™t even time to get sleep enough, much less to repent of oneโ€™s sins. While you have denied your faith to your enemies when youโ€™d nothing else to think about but to show your faith! So I consider, brother, that it constitutes a sin.โ€

โ€œConstitute a sin it may, but consider yourself, Grigory Vassilyevitch, that it only extenuates it, if it does constitute. If I had believed then in very truth, as I ought to have believed, then it really would have been sinful if I had not faced tortures for my faith, and had gone over to the pagan Mohammedan faith. But, of course, it wouldnโ€™t have come to torture then, because I should only have had to say at that instant to the mountain, โ€˜Move and crush the tormentor,โ€™ and it would have moved and at the very instant have crushed him like a black-beetle, and I should have walked away as though nothing had happened, praising and glorifying God. But, suppose at that very moment I had tried all that, and cried to that mountain, โ€˜Crush these tormentors,โ€™ and it hadnโ€™t crushed them, how could I have helped doubting, pray, at such a time, and at such a dread hour of mortal terror? And apart from that, I should know already that I could not attain to the fullness of the Kingdom of Heaven (for since the mountain had not moved at my word, they could not think very much of my faith up aloft, and there could be no very great reward awaiting me in the world to come). So why should I let them flay the skin off me as well, and to no good purpose? For, even though they had flayed my skin half off my back, even then the mountain would not have moved at my word or at my cry. And at such a moment not only doubt might come over one but one might lose oneโ€™s reason from fear, so that

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