Pieces of Me by Pua Ramona (small books to read txt) 📕

deserve her. I feel so fucking stupid and embarrassed. I mean after all this time I thought I was his first, but I was never his anything.

“Sina, I am so sorry. I have regretted it ever since and I’m sorry” he cries.

My tears are non-stop at this point and I just sit there. I look at him and ask “Why couldn’t you just let me go before you did any of it? Michael, you made me feel like I was the problem all those years. Why? How long were you and Becca together before I found out?”

He doesn’t answer me so I push him, “There’s no need to lie now, it’s all out.”

He looks at me, “Beginning of our senior year.”

I let out a slightly manic little laugh, not because it’s funny but because my heart was young and blind to all the signs. If I only knew then what I know now I could have saved myself so much betrayal and hurt.

“All you had to do was just let me go, but you were too selfish to give a shit about me.”

“Sina” he cries.

“I’m done Michael. I honestly didn’t expect any of this at all, but I’m glad that I know now.” I open the door to get out of his car, but he grabs my wrist.

“Please I want to fix things between us. I want you, I’m still in love with you” he says.

I pull away from him and get out of the car. “I’ll call you so we can schedule a day so that you can spend some time with Emma, and I’ll be civil with you for my baby. Know that I am done with the past. I didn’t deserve any of it, you knew you were breaking me but you were too damn selfish to give a shit Michael. I am done. We are done.”

“I’m so sorry” he whispers.

I start walking back to where everyone is, and come to a complete stop. I’m pretty much over everything right now. I’m not sure how much bullshit a person can take, but I’m sure that I’ve met my quota and surpassed it. I close my eyes and say a quick prayer. I take a deep breath and make sure to wipe the rest of the tears off my wet face. I have to hold my shit together just for today, so that’s what I’ll do. I find a smile but my heart is numb in more ways than one.

Michael

Seeing Sina made me angry and sad all over again. But if I had to choose which emotion was stronger I’d go with sad now that I know why she ran eight years ago. I’ve asked myself repeatedly why I did what I did but there’s no excuse for any of it. I never wanted to choose Becca, but I was young and made a stupid mistake. That’s my one biggest regret in life. Sina was supposed to be my first everything but I fucked that all up the second I looked at Becca and started sneaking around behind my relationship with Sina. I fucked that all up when I ended up in bed with Becca. I tried staying away from Becca, but I didn’t try hard enough. I thought I loved Becca because she was my first. I thought I loved her because Sina and I started fighting more and more but I know now that it was my own fault. I thought I was in love with Becca until I found out Sina had left. It kills me to know that I was the reason she ran. It kills me to know that she’s now right here and I can’t even hold her. I regret every decision that I made the day I chose Becca over Sina. Eight years without Sina hasn’t been the easiest but I understand now why she stayed away for so long. Knowing that she had Emma all alone broke my heart. If anything, I will pray every damn day that she heals from every heartache that she’s been through. I will pray every day that Sina never loses her spirit and that she never stops loving the world the way she always has.

Chapter Twenty-Seven

Eli

By the time Mama and I made it to the park it was ten-thirty in the morning. We pulled in the same time Reese and Lei did. I wasn’t sure if they were upset with me, because I haven’t heard from either of them for a couple of days. I don’t want today to be awkward so I made sure to set my bullshit to the side and enjoy today, even if my heart was aching for her.

Mama takes a deep breath. “Eli, whatever you do please don’t make things harder than they already are for her. If she doesn’t want to talk to you, respect it and leave her alone” she says.

“Okay Mama.” I say with a sigh.

She grabs my hand and says, “Please Son, she’s been hurt enough. Just let her enjoy this time with her family before she leaves.” I feel my chest get tighter.

“Why does it hurt so bad Mama?” I ask.

“Because she's someone special to you, and your heart is in love with her” she says.

I look at her and say, “I don’t know if I can let her go though.”

“But that’s not your choice Son. You have other things you need to take care of, and if you’re thinking that you want her to wait around for you then, you’re selfish. She deserves to have a good life, a happy one at that Elijah. Let her find her happiness, she deserves it just as much as you do” she says.

I nod my head and see that Reese and Lei are already grabbing things from the trunk. Before I can say anything to Mama, she gets out of the truck and starts grabbing boxes of the pies that she baked.

“Hey Mama Hunter'' Lei smiles and