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him loose once and for all. Tell him itโ€™s different now, Iโ€™m different now.

I could even, I think, see over the brow of the hill marked death. Spy what it would look like, be like. Feel enough life stir within me to stay alive. Start to believe that I might look back, over my shoulder, to the barren brown land where Iโ€™d just stood. And maybe Iโ€™d feel sorry for the person I left behind, when sheโ€™s both everything and nothing to me.

She is the person I leave far behind on the September day I finally leave New York. As the cab speeds towards JFK, she stays, stuck in the shadows of the city. It was either her or me. And it had to be me.

Sixteen hours later, I wake up in a flat in an ex-council block in Bethnal Green. There is woodchip wallpaper, painted white. No furniture other than a bed, one set of drawers and a sofa. As the sun charges in through the branches that tap against the bedroom window, I feel it hit my face. I smile.

Some nights, in my dreams, I stand stock-still in tight city streets. The buildings, the avenues, the windows are black. Silence surrounds me. Iโ€™m screaming at the sky but no noise leaves my mouth; the vapours that leave me collect amongst the clouds, filling the lid over my head. I open my eyes. It was just a dream. And now itโ€™s over.

ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS

The process of writing this book, of revisiting the very worst of times, was long and often bruising and something I had to undertake entirely alone. Thank you, Daniel, for providing the space, safety and love for me to do so. Iโ€™m sorry for all the times I didnโ€™t make it to the pub.

I will always be grateful to New York for gifting me you, Lindsey. You helped me save myself, more than once. Thank God for us (but mainly, thank God for you).

To Phil and Karen for the flowers and every single moment of unconditional support and friendship in the kitchen and beyond. To Mandy and Charli, who kept the faith for the best part of two decades, even when theyโ€™d have been entirely forgiven for not doing so.

I canโ€™t fully express my gratitude for my agent Anna Pallai โ€“ the smartest, funniest and most patient ally I could have hoped for. Without you, there likely wouldnโ€™t be a book. And certainly not the exact one I wanted and needed to write.

To the entire big-hearted Canongate family but particularly Anna Frame, Leila Cruickshank and my wonderful editor Hannah Knowles for treating my story with such care and consideration. Iโ€™ve been in the very best of hands.

Pamela and Bob โ€“ for a house that was so often a refuge, unfettered access to brilliant bookshelves when I needed them the most and for telling me twenty-four years ago that one day Iโ€™d write a book.

To my very good pals Ted and Sali for endless encouragement and telling me just to write the bloody thing.

To Rachael for the scribbled receipt that kept me going.

Dave, Iโ€™m still so sorry about your party. Thank you for being such a generous, beautiful human being.

To Katie, Simps, Joely, Caz, Wiggy, Ellie, Chris, Scar, Matt G, Matt W, Dor and Annie โ€“ architects of the good times and navigators of the bad.

To my Empire family โ€“ you guys complete me.

And my actual family: Nana, for making me the woman I am today. I hope youโ€™d be proud. Sue, for being so supportive. But lastly and mostly to Roxanne and Graham, who taught me the meaning of family and love. Who were my reason to get better, to be better.

โ€˜Extremely affecting . . . caring, inquisitiveโ€™

Scotsman

โ€˜Unusually brave . . . sublimeโ€™

The Times

โ€˜An exhilarating memoirโ€™

Cathy Rentzenbrink

Table of Contents

Title Page

Copyright

Dedication

Contents

Chapter 1

Chapter 2

Chapter 3

Chapter 4

Chapter 5

Chapter 6

Chapter 7

Chapter 8

Chapter 9

Chapter 10

Chapter 11

Chapter 12

Chapter 13

Chapter 14

Chapter 15

Chapter 16

Chapter 17

Chapter 18

Chapter 19

Chapter 20

Chapter 21

Chapter 22

Chapter 23

Chapter 24

Chapter 25

Chapter 26

Chapter 27

Chapter 28

Chapter 29

Chapter 30

Acknowledgements

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