My One Night: An On My Own Novel by Carrie Ryan (life books to read .txt) 📕

And my boyfriend was getting a blowjob from a girl who wasn’t me.

She hummed, and Sanders let out a grown. I knew what was coming next. I’d given that man enough blowjobs in my life to know exactly what he looked like when he came.

He came hard, his whole body practically vibrating, and the girl lapped him up, the two of them not even realizing I was there.

Was I supposed to say something? Was I supposed to run out and yell and do something?

This wasn’t happening. I had plans. Everything was in place. I was going to marry him, we were going to have careers and a family. Those were the plans we had discussed. It wasn’t just me. We may joke that I was an anal-retentive bitch who liked things in order, but Sanders had been there right alongside me, making those promises, those plans.

We were supposed to get engaged next year. He’d told me so.

And now some girl was sucking him off.

I must have made a sound because the girl looked up, her eyes wide. She scrambled back immediately. Oh, this one knew what she had done. She wouldn’t be so scared if she didn’t know who I was. Even if I didn’t know who the fuck she was.

Sanders looked at me then, tucked his now flaccid penis into his boxer briefs, and cringed. “Hey there, hon. I didn’t know you were coming up here.”

I just blinked. His words echoed in my head, and I tried to keep up. “Are you kidding me right now? You’re getting a blowjob from a girl, and now you’re blaming me for walking into the room that I have spent every night in this past week? Our friend died last week, Paul. We’re still mourning, even if we pretend what’s going on downstairs is a party.”

Paul Sanders swallowed hard. “Hey, you know it’s just for fun. It’s only a blowjob. I mean, really, don’t freak the fuck out. I’m just trying it out, babe. We’re going to be together for the rest of our lives. I don’t want to be with just you, though. I’m sure you’ve gotten off with some other guy or given a blowjob. I mean, it’s what we do, right?”

My mouth filled with bile, and I felt like I surely couldn’t be hearing what I thought I was. This was not happening. This couldn’t be happening.

Instead of saying anything, instead of standing up for myself as I should, I nearly fell backward as I started to run. I ran right into Pacey’s chest. Tanner was at his side, both of them glowering. Tanner fisted his hands at his sides as Pacey wrapped his hands around my arms, keeping me steady. Sanders finally stood up and zipped his fly.

“Hey, guys, can you give us some privacy? It’s just that me and my girl have a few things to discuss.”

“I...I need to go...” I whispered. I wasn’t even sure I’d spoken aloud, but Pacey’s hold tightened slightly.

“Oh, we’re going to have this out right now,” Tanner growled. “What the fuck do you think you’re doing? I should kick your fucking ass for hurting her.”

I looked up at Sanders then, not even recognizing him. But the boy I had loved with every inch of my soul sneered at Tanner. “Hey, this isn’t any of your business.”

I noticed that the girl who had been on her knees before now stood behind Sanders as if she were afraid I might hurt her.

How could I hurt her when I didn’t even feel like I was inside my body at the moment? I felt like I was watching things from afar, wondering what the fuck I was supposed to do. And I should be doing something. I shouldn’t just be standing here.

“Raise your chin,” Pacey whispered in my ear, and I swallowed hard. “What?” I asked, barely breathing the word.

“Don’t let him see you in pain. Don’t let the world know. Don’t let the others know. Don’t break. Don’t do this. Walk with me. Everything’s going to be fine.”

“No, it’s not.” My voice sounded hollow and tinny to my ears.

“Let the world see you’re better than this. Don’t let them see your pain. Don’t let Sanders win.”

And yet, Paul had won...hadn’t he?

As Tanner began to growl at Sanders, and the two talked about whatever the hell they were talking about, Pacey put his arm around my waist and led me towards the stairs.

I didn’t know what I was supposed to do, what I was supposed to say.

Because nothing was the same. Everything had changed.

My future lay behind me, the promises that I’d thought had been made broken and scattered in a heap of tattered remains.

If I wasn’t Mackenzie, Paul Sanders’ girlfriend and future...then who was I?

Who could I possibly be?

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Next in the ON MY OWN series?

Mackenzie and Pacey pretend they don’t need each other in My Rebound.

Want to read a special BONUS EPILOGUE featuring DILLON & ELISE? CLICK HERE!

A Note from Carrie Ann Ryan

Thank you so much for reading MY ONE NIGHT!

This book was about second chances, making mistakes, and finding your path. I hope you loved their story as much as I do.

Next up in the ON MY OWN series?

Mackenzie and Pacey pretend they don’t need each other in My Rebound. Their romance starts off with heartbreak and ends with…well you’ll just have to see. Pacey has secrets and Mackenzie has ambitions. And their love is explosive!

And if you’re new to my books, you can start anywhere within the my interconnected series and catch up! Each book is a stand alone, so jump around!

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