Pieces of Me by Pua Ramona (small books to read txt) 📕

“That explains why they’ve been so close lately,” Luka says. “I didn’t know why he was all of a sudden team Becca. I wasn’t sure why she was over at the house everyday with him, now it all makes sense.” I look at Luka and don’t disagree because it all makes sense now.

Daniel clears his throat and says “Don’t say shit to the girls or anyone else E. Talk to Becca first before you rip her to pieces.” He throws his hands up and says,“You don’t want to stress her out E. Think of the baby.”

Reese and Luka agree with him so I say, “Right. No one says shit until I talk to Becca, okay?” The guys all agree and we make our way back into Micah’s room.

“Damn, I feel like shit because we left Sina out” Daniel says.

Luka leans over with his elbows on his knees and his face in his hands. “We should’ve fucking told her.”

“Has anyone heard from her yet?” Reese asks. Luka and Daniel both shake their heads no.

“I know Megan spoke to her, she said she’ll be here as soon as she finds a flight out.” Micah starts moving again and all we hear is him calling for Sina. I look over to Luka and Daniel, they both have tears running down their faces. Reese is wiping his face with his sleeve and trying to hold himself together. All I could think about is how I hope Sina makes it here before he passes, because I don’t think I’ll be able to live with myself if she doesn’t get the chance to say goodbye to him.

I’m not sure what time it is when Mama and Miss Rita come back, but when they do we all leave so we can take showers and sleep for a few hours before we head back to see Micah. We were walking out to the car when Luka asks, “E, do you want to stay over at our place?”

I was going to ask Reese, but I would rather stay at the Petersons because Lei will know something’s wrong as soon as she looks at me and she won’t stop asking until I tell her.

“Yeah, I’ll go with you guys,” I say and I head over to grab my gym bag out of Reese's car before throwing it into my truck.

“Are you going to be okay?” he asks

I shake my head and say, “I’m pissed as fuck, but I’ll get over it.”

“Are you going to tell Sina?” he says.

I’m not sure if it’s a good idea with everything that’s going on so I say, “I don’t know what I’m going to do man.”

Reese punches me in the arm and says with a dry laugh, “I’m so fucking glad I’m not you, man.”

I flip him the bird, “ Thanks. Asshole.”

“We’ll meet you at the house,” Daniel says. I give them a thumbs up then I get into my truck. I’m not ready to head over to the Petersons and I need to clear my head, so I drive to the lake. It’s the only place I go when I need to be close to Sina.

It takes me twenty minutes to get to the lake. I park my truck on autopilot because my emotions are all over the fucking place. I’d be a damn liar if I said I’m not pissed the fuck off at Becca for keeping this shit away from me. What I don’t understand is why she chose to keep it a secret if she and I weren’t together. Does she think that I’ll get mad? Or does she think that if I didn’t know that we’d get together? Because if that’s the case, then she’s got the shit all wrong. When I told her that I didn’t want to be in a relationship with her, I fucking meant it. Baby or no baby. I take a deep breath, get out of the truck and make my way to our spot.

Being here makes my heart ache, but at the same time I feel at peace because this lake is a piece of her. I stand there looking out at the water and move to sit down. I sit here asking myself repeatedly, how the fuck did my life get so fucking messy? I could easily blame it on her for coming back, but then that’ll make me feel like an asshole because it’s a lie. Why did life have to be so complicated? I mean fuck, how about a warning label or shit, even an instruction manual on how to make life easier? I shake my head and chuckle to myself. I must have done something fucked up for my life to be this much of a shit show right now. All I wish for right now is for Sina to be here with me. I fucking miss her so bad that sometimes I can feel pain in my chest. Okay, I can go out and hook up with other women, but it won’t be the fucking same as feeling Sina’s skin under my fingertips.

Wait a minute! Why am I sitting here thinking about Sina, when I still have no fucking clue how to deal with this Becca bullshit? I feel myself getting angry all over again and my whole body goes tight. I was hoping being here would somehow help ease some of the tension and stress that I’ve been feeling since Sina fucking left, but it’s a waste of time. I know that in order for me to not feel like this I need to talk to Becca. And I planned on doing just that later on today, since it’s four o’clock in the fucking morning right now. I know I need to get some type of sleep so I stand up. stretching out before I climb back into the truck to head to Luka’s. My phone starts buzzing and I