Poems by Ally Mew (digital ebook reader .txt) 📕

1…..these struggles that break open my bleeding back
the lies keep reigning down on bruised knees
tears leak from hopeless black eyes
this maze of humanity swallows whole

the pretty disguised influence destroys innocent lives
the vapid words flow from hypnotic mouths
whispers of a void song contaminate defiled souls
the pain of being trapped between hidden knives

upon thought your memory haunts after the bleeding sun dies
the sickening loneliness takes the air from gray lungs
crimson secrets buried beneath scarred legs
in this confusion--laying in waste--wait for you

hide the brutal lies behind this inviting picture
shatter the pieces, reveal the harmful truth
the reflection in the mirror pierces your stone heart
down on begging knees to restore what’s left of sanity.


2……Do you see these windows shattered black?
This deathly lullaby I sing to flatter
blindly suffocating in your dark eyes
Intoxication---flowing through my crimson veins
your poison filters through my hollow lips.


3…….Do you see this picture breaking on the mirror?
Is my heart the only one that fears?
I can’t understand the muted words that fall
this demented confusion shadows your love.
My heart lost inside this deep abyss-bound
with steel lace and the keys dead
Wake up to another not so bitter fight

Do you see this lurid descent, surround pale skin?
Waiting in silence for you to begin
the iron bands tied around gray fingers
this fear penetrates beneath closed wounds
I’m still dying for your embrace.

Do you see the painting that erased scarlet stains?
Give you all of these fatal songs portrayed as if wrong
The violence of your touch desecrate these lips
This distance cuts open my lifeless heart
Revealing doubts hidden within scarred memories
This burgundy heart so bruised black only for you


4………if I could just explain the deafening pain
maybe their stone hearts would break
this deep suffering in this dark hole
in this crimson abyss no light gets through

I can breathe when I’m with you
the black tears simply fade in your embrace
all the secrets lay entwined
still, deep inside, my heart longs for dark wings

the tears still come with the sting of memories
the music whispers sorrow into my ears
the loneliness the bitter thoughts dwell
they tore us apart, the lies weaved cold


I’m still yours alone
ill stay in this coma till I wake to you
lay me down by your side
kiss my hesitant lips before the shadows
the thought of your touch keeps gray blood pumping
my addiction, my obsession----hidden
your the air that keeps my distant heart beating.
The scars open memories flood scarlet veins
Pretty signs read your name on this gray hearts
this addiction flows through paled flesh
Sorrow provokes the moments of bliss to fade


5…….I had you with me forever
The floor broke those nights exposed again
The pain of separation weakens my knees
The confusion of the continual waiting prayers

This forbidden romance lies in wasted state
This erotic sense beats in my dying pulse
The numbness covers my body in tears
To long we lay in agonizing time-------but ill wait
6………The loneliness plays with our delicate souls
Interlace your hand in mine, never let go
Your gentle gaze enslaves me
Your smile breaks my heart
These erratic thoughts stray to our bittersweet days

Behind a coffin of silver and lace
A mountain engulfed in a dark cloud
Shadows dance silently steal away
Eyes glazed over, echoes of your voice

Wishing to brush my scarred lips to yours
Your embrace takes away remorseful shame
Crawling on bruised knees, silent prayers lift
Beauty slain turn to ashes
This bleeding confession to be only yours
7…………I’m in a coma but my eyes are open
I can see you standing by my side
they’re saying I’m dying
they’re deaf to my silent cries
I cant breathe your presence suffocates me
I’m watching them bury me alive
there you stood crying in the cold
you’re watching them close my lifeless eyes
underneath the wounded skin, my heart beats quietly
I’m trying to piece back what’s left of me
a fading tear runs down my face
a breath rushes through my body
I woke up from this nightmare of Christmas
my broken hand was in your sweet embrace.
they ask me to take a step away from the pain
I wish I could, but I’m nailed to the floor where I was with you
I gave you my heart so broken, hoping you could piece it back,
I guess I was wrong because here I stand alone in the cold
I'm trying to mask the hurt, they say your to blame I'm still attached though your pulling away,
my senses failed me then, and my hearts dying again...
I wish I could just tell if you still loved me one more time
with my blind eyes open I’m looking your way.
This perfect cruel reaction you placed on my broken body.
8……………she’s weeping tears of desperation
she’s taking up a broken blade again
this blood it spells your name
she has all her pain scratched into her skin
does he see her scarred pretty flesh
this addictive bliss agony loves so much awaits
her heart she gave him in now red on her legs.
what was I thinking, I was too caught up in your sweet smile
everything was dark I couldn’t see the warning signs
your just like all of the other guys
all of those disguised promises you wrote
all of the songs you said you cried over
they were the happy lies that filled my life.
I thought you were different, what’s to care
I guess I was wrong you just keep breaking my heart
id let you do it all over again, this mass conformity that wins
I’m waiting to sever these ties but I cant do it yet
this blade just isn’t sharp enough, I’m still dying for what I thought was your love.
9………….what are these words he’s speaking now
I should of known this would never work out
did you break my heart cause I cant tell
it was already shattered so you aren’t doing much damage
I told everyone you were different
I guess it shows just how much I knew you
I’m still so caught up in this foggy confusion
I still cry over you, my tears still write your name
do you still feel the same way?
or was this all just some pretty picture I made?
this empty bliss with this pain has darkened my life.
10…………..why am I not healing from this wound
they said id be okay without you
I’m searching for you in my restless sleep
hoping to find you in this dim fading darkness
your not there though you claimed this embittered heart
you’re the only one who saw through this veil of sorrow
you saw the painful core of my soul
you opened my closed eyes to be drawn from the shadows
and now I’m overcome, they say I’ve changed since I met you
they say you caused me this polite sorrow
this secluded world I’ve entered since they exiled you
I’m praying on bruised knees every night for you
if God would just answer my cries before
This faint light is disappearing...
11………….these pretty little scenes they have created
desperation causes the hopeless tears to fall in question
these broken stairs I’m running down
I’ve given my heart to you but they’ve torn it away
resentment smiles politely as the accusations stare
this cruelty they aren’t aware of pressures disguised anger
I’m begging every moment for silent perseverance
this cunning bondage they have spun their webs around us
were waiting for the minute we have to escape
were praying for the faith to confront this sin were in
for a miracle to happen and wipe the sorrows away.
until your sweet kiss meets my cold lips
I’m fading from this sorrowful existence
your touch rips from deaths grip on me
it gives me one morbid chance to breathe
this seething brokenness of silent cries
this falling loneliness when you’re not here
I need your embrace this suffocation pumps through me
my stitched heart seared with pain starts to pant
you’re the only one who hears my desperate pleas
miseries business comes my way when your not here
give me another chance to hold your hand.
12…………who knew pain could be so deep
these cuts can wound more than the broken flesh we see
this insensitive love we feed off is killing us
but we don’t see were blinded by the sweet smiles
this panic fills our torn hearts seething hopes
what can we do were so alone
we know your there, were trying to escape this fate
we wear masks to fake these hateful smiles
were holding back all our crying pain.
We want them to see these dying screams
in the captivated silence we hide away.
I’ve been bleeding inside so much
staring out of this broken window
I’m caught up in this captured silence
waiting for a pleasant nightmare to come along
its dreary patience that I lack
so many insecurities that darken this crevice
they covered this piece of me they ripped away
your not there to hold me anymore
what happened, these tears don’t answer painful questions
why, why me this misery business I run
I’m so scared as the lights go on and off.
Why aren’t you there?
it feels like you have disappeared
your not answering my desperate cries
I feel like they have taken everything from me
they keep tearing us apart
I’m screaming now, laying dying
they cant see this pain, where are you!?
I know there's a reason we haven’t talked in days
it’s so unlike you, I’m crying in your absence.
Why aren’t you there?
it feels like you have disappeared
your not answering my desperate cries
I feel like they have taken everything from me
they keep tearing us apart
I’m screaming now, laying dying
they cant see this pain, where are you!?
I know there's a reason we haven’t talked in days
it’s so unlike you, I’m crying in your absence.
13…………these tears of her fears spill down
eyeliner streaking down her pretty face
she’s staring in horror at the voice she heard
she doesn’t know what to say she, sits and cries
thought the pain of these lies she’s spoken
’’what can I do but pray to You!?
Why is this worse? I can’t do this anymore
I’m cut off from you I’m bleeding
I don’t know how to stop these beatings on my broken heart
Lord I’m screaming up to You!?
Why do you not hear my dying whispers?
I can’t handle this I’m so scared inside!’’