Lifeless by Alexandria E. (icecream ebook reader txt) 📕

One drop was all it took for my life to fade,but mother nature sent a flood. It rained and rained, I cried and cried,then thought,crying will not help,but couldn't stop myself,and I started to think. One drop was all it took for you to die. One drop was all it took for my world to enclose. One drop was all it took for me to cry. I wonder if you are in heaven or hell,and start to think what if neither is real, what if we all go to hell and you are searching for a way out,what if you are just burried in the dirt for all eternity. The knowing of your death has my life trapped. I can not beleive I can not breathe that you are not here with me. It hurts to think about you. Too much pain comes from remembering all of the good moments we had together. This cruel,cruel place that we know to be the world lets me know that life is not perfect. Especialy mine. I've learned that everybody is hiding behind there smile. So don't let it fool you,for I know it will never fool me,what I've gone through helps me see through everybodys lies. If all this has come from one drop there is no way I will survive the flood. I've already lost my soul. all this pain,torture,loss,the meaningless purpose in this cruel,cruel world is because of one of the deepest,darkest things. What some people call hope,trust,life,and happiness,but what is truly called a drop of love. This has all caused me so much pain and torture,I'm not surviving the flood, and I will be ready to die and be burried at your side and go where ever it is that our death takes,and to think that all this came out of one drop

The air seems colder, my life seems duller, life seems like a usefull waste of gods presence. Yes all these things are seeming. But what do we really know? We all know we will find out our answers someday living or death, We all know that there is a seperation between heaven and hell. We all say we can't wait till we find our seemings but what will you go through too find out the worlds most difficult answers. For some it's too late they speak from the knowleges they found in seemings now we all dream. Of what life could be, what it should be like. We don't deserve what is that we already know, things like knowing we are born just to die. That we are drawn in this world, and time passed erased. I seem, I know, I dream many things. But what I know is not something you hear in school. Not something you hear on the street. This is what I wonder and think of things. But it was meaningless, just a thought. They were and are...meaningless thoughts.

Sometimes I sit and wonder why earth ws ever made, because I want to end my life right then and there at times, But I never do it somtimes we all wonder what it would be like to die, Sometimes we wonder who would miss us the most if we died. but we've never been close to doing it...until now I can't go on because sometimes we even wonder if hell is better than the life we all have. I'm testing it out to find lost loves that once were, but now are not. if this one mistake takes me down will it all be worth it? will I regret knowing that if I make one mistake of my doing that hell will be home for eternity? Or will I be in a better place like heaven? As an angel with my reunited loves? Soon the questions I ask will no longer be....because I am testing out me therese.

Publication Date: 02-04-2012

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