My poems by Tanaya Smith (positive books to read TXT) 📕

The happy days

I remember the happy days

I remember those days when I would just sit in the sun

when I would just think about nothing

enjoying the peace

I would remember when I would relax in the grass

looking at the sky

smelling the flowers

finding images in the clouds

I would remember when there would be those sunny days that made me feel warm inside

I would smile like there was no tomorrow

there would be no darkness

no cloud to darken my day

I would feel Invincible

nothing could drag me down

I can remember when you were there

then I was invincible

when there was nothing that could bring me down


But that was the past

just mere memories

still there just out of reach

I am no longer invincible

I am no longer as carefree

those were the happy days...

of the past

what is love?

is it the devotion you feel to another?
is it that warm fuzzy feeling in your stomach?
is it the fact that you cant live with out that special guy/girl?
or is it that pure, raw energy that keeps us human

for with out love we would be like the earth without the sun
the stars without a night

love can come in many shapes and forms
it can be the love of a mother
the love of a brother
the love you have for a pet
the love for that special someone
the love that makes you whole
for without love really, what is there in life to live for

it could be in the form of a hug or kiss
a bunch of roses
a comforting friend
just someone showing that they care for you

love comes and goes
but it is always there in our life
whether you know it or not

love is painful and it takes time
but...
its completely worth it

I know I know
I know you don't like me
I know that I'm not the nicest person
I know that i can be a bit cruel
but you guys are supposed to be my friends

or are you?

do you really like me or am i just a nuisance?
I am sorry for everything
I hope these words will put me in a better light,
not the dark room i am in

I know I'm not perfect,
heck I'm far from it but please just understand me and hang on for a bit
my life is in a bit of a mess right now and i need to sort it out

please be there for me in my bad times
you probably don't even know what is going on in this time of my life
but i listen to you i try to understand
i know i probably fail at it but i try

but i need to know that your there for me
because I'm most likely to fall of this bridge I'm on and i don't think it will be on the right side
catch me please or teach me how to swim
either will do just your support please
that's all i need to get out of this dark whole i am in

i need that light

i need that hope

because its not my dreams crashing around me
but my nightmares coming to life

so i know I'm not the nicest
i know I'm not perfect
but i need your help
so I'm going to end this with just a sorry

sorry

I want to be a tree

I want to feel the wind in my branches

reach out to the soil below me and feed on it

I want to become still and observe everything around me

I want to share secret moments with people

I want to watch people grow up

have kids

grow old

I want to fall asleep with every fall and winter

and I want to grow strong in spring in summer

I want to be a swing, a thing to climb on, a thing to have fun on

I want to watch many seasons pass and watch the world around me mature

I want to be a tree

I'm scared
I'm scared of the outcome
I'm scared of what you will do to me
I hope you understand
For it was a mistake
I'm petrified of what you will think of me
I'm hoping you will understand

For I have a secret
It’s a bit disastrous
It could ruin me
All that I have worked for
Everything I had gained
The respect
The happiness
Could all disappear
In the blink of an eye
My life
Gone
Never a smile again
No laughter in this life
The pain will run deep
Twisting my every thought
Making me long for the light in my life

I knew there would be consequences
And I now have them
I'm scared of what will happen
If my life could ever go to the way it was before
Or is it gone?
Will my life become a dark shell?
Only seeing
Never participating
Gone in a blur
Never gaining
Always loosing

Someone help me please
I need to get out of this dark hole
To find the light again
Start gaining again
Smiling
Laughing
Being happy
But it will not happen
I see that now
It is irreparable
Broken
Just a long gone past
Shrouded in darkness will be my life
No more joy
No more happiness
Just a darker version of my life
Never living life
Just watching

So I have now accepted my fate
My life will just be a dark shell
Shrouded in darkness
Never to see the light of day again
Just darkness
Maybe there will be hope someday
But not now
Hope slipped out of my grasp a long time ago
And now I am submissive to life
It has taken away my spirit
Never to come back
My life
Shrouded
In darkness
Never to see the light of day again

Why do you hate me?
Did I hurt you?
If I did I am sorry
Is it just natural hate
If so it is unjust
Your hate for me may be petty
Or something serious
I do not know
Did I hurt you physically
Or did I hurt you mentally
I am deeply sorry
I hope this hate for me can go away
And we can be the friends we once were

We were the best of friends
No friendship was like ours
We would take the world
But then you ignored me
Like I was common scum

Did you know how that hurt me?
Our friendship was gone
Never to be seen again
You forgot me
You forgot our friendship
But I still wonder late at night,
While I am staring at my ceiling on the brink of sleep
Why do you hate me?