Thinking Out Loud by Maha Hassan (classic novels .txt) 📕

Goosebumps pricked on my skin,
A shudder ran through my spine,
As a cold gush of wind,
Pierced through my mind,
A smile tugged on the corners of my lips,
As water droplets poured on me,
I blamed Him for all the causes,
For all the wrongs that happened to me,
I asked Him to show me a sign,
Telling that He's still holding onto me,
And this sudden change was a delightful moment,
As I whispered out loud, "yes, He has answered me"...

 Words be said but words be never said,
So much to talk, so much wrapped around my head,
It hurts to speak, it hurts to tell
Better be it written, but my hand is dead,
So I smile like nothing's wrong,
Concealing my problems and my face can't be read,
It's easy that way, it's easy to look happy,
It's better to not show, it's better this way instead.. 

 Faint voices could be heard,
But I never bothered,
As I got lost into the pages
And all the world faltered,
Picturing the perfect moments,
That could never happen to me ,
I smile in those fantasies,
That here can never be gathered..

He stared at her for the last time,
As he ripped his arm away from her,
She never wanted to let go,
He still turned around hearing her wimper,
As the boat sailed away far from the storm,
He stayed at the ship knowing he'll live no long,
Yes, he wanted to get rid of her,
But he never wanted to let go of her,
Now he knew it's the only way to save her,
To let himself sacrifice, in the storm and silence.

 He stared at her for the last time,
As he ripped his arm away from her,
She never wanted to let go,
He still turned around hearing her wimper,
As the boat sailed away far from the storm,
He stayed at the ship knowing he'll live no long,
Yes, he wanted to get rid of her,
But he never wanted to let her go,
As now was when he fell in love with her,
Now he was supposed to tell her what she needed to know
That all in this silence all he did was love her,
But now she was told to forget him, when he had her.

 He told her that he loves her
But the same feelings she had to deny,
He knew that's not true,
Everytime he sees her he asks 'why?',
She was a bold one who could rip the river half,
But deep down she's a scared little girl who's shy,
She could turn things upside down,
But love's the only thing that chokes her die.
For everytime she sees love, she sees the hurt,
And then hatred for the one who gave all the joy,
Breaking down to pieces everytime she sees love,
As all of them end up in nothing but cry.

 Things I could never say...
Always stay in my heart...
They hover on top of me...
Never knew they'd hurt that hard...
Feels like I'll lose my world...
Let lose my mind a bit...
Like a twisted knot released for a curl...
Bouncing up n down, lookin as Beautiful as ever...
But after a certain time, becomes a knot again...
Saying I'll stay here forever...

 Cold gush of wind, hitting my mind...
There's something pleasant I really can't find...
Staring at the greens admiring their beauty...
Wondering anything as beautiful as they could be...
Then here it was I never thought I would see today...
Just one glance and took my breath away...

 Up all night...
Think of how we fight...
Like it's the end of our thread...
Like one of us will be dead...
But this is how it goes...
At the end, one of us bows...
Knowing can't live like this..
Knowing that we'll miss...
Guilt washes over...
Puts on a clean cover...
And it all starts again...
Like those rough times were drained in the rain...

 I don't have a story to describe...
All the scenarios which were a part of it...
They beg for it, give me a bribe...
But I don't have a tongue to start it with...

 I am a heartless soul...
Don't know how can I breathe...
It's not that I'm not pained...
To see pain in a heartbeat...
But something I can't tell in the eyes...
Something that I try to, but the glory dies...