Feelings by Butterfly Blues (electric book reader .txt) 📕

Moon on the Beach

my moon,

 

"your smile brightens up my day,

your sweet soft lips feels good on mine,

your eyes which see the best in me,

your hands warmtn my cold heart,

your hugs comfort me from within,

your touch caress my soul,

my moon, you are already tattooed on my mind,

which will never be forgotten."

 

* I'll always bear in mind that once in my life,

I dated with the moon on the beach,

under the black starry night...

 

 

your mi ^^

 

 

Noone, Someone, YOU

November 7, 2012

6:50 pm

  

I was OK before you come,

And then my world was messed by you.

Why do you need to came,

If you're just going to leave again.

And now, I'm here...

Where? I don't know what place is this.

Noone to trust.

Noone to talk.

Noone...

I feel left out,

In the middle of emptiness.

I feel so alone, ALONE.

I need someone to talk to,

I need someone to cry on,

I need someone.

I just need someone to be with me,

To listen and feel what I feel.

Maybe, I just need YOU..

...here in my life AGAIN.

 

                                              

 

 

Agony in Silence

November 17, 2012

 

I wanna scream!

I wanna scream!

I wanna scream!

ARRGHHHHHHHHH!

My heart has been torn out into pieces,

Little by little, I'm breaking.

I wanna cry,

To release the pain.

But the question is,..

to whom?

I really don't know.

Yeah, I'm smilling in front of you,

But deep inside I'm dying.

I wanna say I love you

Then again I don't wanna hurt her.

I love you both.

I don't wanna lose you two.

So I must remain quiet

And let my AGONY IN SILENCE.

 

 * It's very diificult to hide your feelings especially when you are already hurting too much.

 

 

 

Again...

December 12, 2012

10:15 pm

 

After a long time,

I see your face again,

Hold your hands again,

Hug you again,

Touch you again,

Kiss you again.

And then suddenly,

I woke up...

Realizing that its was just a Dream...

 

A Dream that  I'm hoping will come true, Again.

Coz I am really missing you...

 

 

Free from ME

December 16, 2012

3:00 PM

 

Maybe it's time for me to really let go.

I hate being hurt for a long time.

It's time to give up,

And let other be happy.

You're now free from me.

I will forget what happened between us.

Continue my life without you.

And lets this be done...

Why just now..?

May 12, 2013

1:51pm

 

I like you, too much...

...why just now?

 

I give up,

Coz I don't know.

I runaway,

Coz I don't have any idea.

I let you go,

Coz I thought you're happy.

I moved on,

Coz I was too hurt.

Now that I have new,

You're telling me..

You like me, too much.

Why just now?

After all this time of being hurt and broken,

Knowing that you just dont care at all.

Why just now?

 

Happy and Scared...

October 20, 2015

4:30 pm

 

 

Happy going out of my comfort zone...

Scared that someone might notice.

 

Happy breaking rules...

Scared that someone might caught.

 

Happy being with others...

Scared that someone may knew.

 

Happy trying new things...

Scared that someone may find out.

 

Yeah, I'm happy but hell scared too

 

 

I thought.. but I'm not!

November 2, 2017

12:40 nn

 Quezon

 

mm,

 

I thought I was ok,

I thought I am already happy,

I thought I am already contented, 

I thought I am already strong.

but then...

 

...I see you,

...I hear you,

...I smell you,

...I feel you.

 

That thought diminished..

And I realized, it is just THOUGHTS!

 

Thoughts that now giving me confusion,

Between "What I want?" and" What I Like?"

 

I want you but confessing might scare you away.

I want you but spending more time with you letting me more attached to you.

I want you but little by little I'm Falling for you.

I want you because I like you and scared of losing you, AGAIN...

 

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mm

 

 

The Real Thing~~

February 9, 2018

1:15 PM

Quezon

 

 

The Real Thing~~

 

Before I fall deeper,

I should stop.

Or else…

I would be hurt, deeper.

Coz this time,

I know it’s more than like.

It’s at the edge of becoming love.

As much as I want to stay and enjoy your company,

I’d rather choose to leave and ignore this feeling.

Knowing that you’re just happy with this little thing,

And not the real thing called RELATIONSHIP.

 

 

 

 

if there will be next TIME

February 19, 2018

5:30pm

Quezon

 

I’m happy on what we are having at the moment,

But as they say everything will come to an end…

So again this is the end.

The end of our bubble relationship.

It’s very hard that every time we meet,

We always end up separating.

Why do people meet and just split ways?

Why do people need get attached and just be detached?

Why do people need to love and just get hurt?

Why? I’m asking why?

I wish and pray that the next time,

If there will be a next time.

You and Me will be together for a longer,

A much happier, freer, and fearless.

Fearless of the world and just be proud of the connection we have.