Book of death by Hazel Grace (ebook reader library txt) 📕

Since you ask, most days I cannot remember.

I walk in my clothing, unmarked by that voyage.

Then the almost unnameable lust returns.

Even then I have nothing against life. I know well the grass blades you mention, the furniture you have placed under the sun.

But suicides have a special language. Like carpenters they want to know which tools. They never ask why build. Twice I have so simply declared myself, have possessed the enemy, eaten the enemy, have taken on his craft, his magic.

In this way, heavy and thoughtful, warmer than oil or water, I have rested, drooling at the mouth-hole. I did not think of my body at needle point. Even the cornea and the leftover urine were gone. Suicides have already betrayed the body.

Still-born, they don’t always die, but dazzled, they can’t forget a drug so sweet that even children would look on and smile. To thrust all that life under your tongue!-- that, all by itself, becomes a passion. Death’s a sad Bone; bruised, you’d say, and yet she waits for me, year after year, to so delicately undo an old wound, to empty my breath from its bad prison.

Balanced there, suicides sometimes meet, raging at the fruit, a pumped-up moon, leaving the bread they mistook for a kiss, leaving the page of the book carelessly open, something unsaid, the phone off the hook and the love, whatever it was, an infection.

 I'm sorry I like death.

I'm always told to be me but when I say I want to die I get told to let nature kill me

no bitch I'ma die when I want to. 

Why can't I kill myself and put myself out of missery 

we all know that eventually we'll  all die 

If you were living in my shoes you'd want to die too

Always told I have worth 

What is that huh?

Where it at though?

I am an emo bitch and you can't change that so if you try and fail there is a reason why you failed

Emo bitches like me don't change for people like you 

I can die and will die

not now obviously 

but soon  very soon

This death note is the way I feel about life

and the way others view life

why don't you see it this way?

Emo life is better than the normal life just join it

 Parents always hated Rock music 

generally heavy rock and heavy metal music

Parents try to talk you out of it but 

How's it working for you?

Parents don't understand that their 

child don't like listening to that slow bullshit of music

they listen to 

Everyone is different to parents like this

Our music you call bullshit 

but really it's your music thats bullshit

Your artist 

for example  Fetty Wap

can't sing worth a shit but the beat makes them sound better

Just take some time and figure out what type of music is better for you to listeb ti 

sit donw for once and compare the music 

Which one is bullshit?

Yours or mine?

I wear dark colors only

you wear dark and light colors in a mix

I like the color black

you like any color but black

I like Rock music

you like pop and the new music

 I like to not talk

you like to talk 

I like to stay alone

you like to stay with your friends

I don't bully people for being gay or bisexual

you bully people for being gay or bisexual

I'm a personal person

your a publical person

This shows that we are not the same 

not in any part of our life

not ever are we going to be the same 

Nobody is perfect 

and nobody is the same 

take this into your head and think about this before you go and judge an emo person

I'm not like you 

I'm a totalk different person than you are 

you should understand that

 As an emo person I like to wear dark colors

As a normal person you like to wear light colors

As emo people do anything out in the public there's always that one person watching

as emo people do any publical activities there's always that one person talking shit

As an emo person I deal with a lot of oh your bisexual bullshit

you don' thear us emo people talking shit about you 

The way people look at emo people is totally not the way we are supposed to look at everyone

The world isn't how we expect and people aren't how we want them to be

Text: Hazel Grace
Images: Hazel Grace
Editing: Hazel Grace
Translation: Hazel Grace
Publication Date: 02-28-2017

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