I can't Breathe by Jay Cruson (read me like a book .txt) 📕

A New Chapter

I thought moving around would give me a new chapter,

A new beginning.

I was wrong,

All that came was the same old story,

But a different song,

All my life was hated,

I was full of hatred,

I had no one to talk to,

No one except you.

You were my new chapter.

L.O.V.E

L is for losing some one you thougt you needed,

O is for owning a broken heart,

V is for vicariously living through his girlfriend,

E is for everlasting love for him

 

Escape

 Escape,

And don't look back,

For the only memories that would flood,

Are bad.

I couldn't live there,

Depressed and supressed,

I needed to leave.

To evacuate.

To fly.

But my wings sprouted from my heart,

Black and cold,

I flew too close to the sun,

So my wings melted,

And I fell back down to Earth.

I ended where I started

If I Could Have One Thing

 If I could have one thing,

It would be you.

It would be us living happily together,

It wouldn't be this lonely heartbreak,

It wouldn't be past the point of breaking,

It would be me and you,

But that would never happen,

Because if you could have one thing,

It would be her,

It would be you and her living happily together,

I wouldn't be part of it.

When I Saw You

When I saw you,

I loved you.

But you loved some one else.

I went home and cried.

Later that night,

I died.

Not physically,

Emotionally.

I knew I wasn't going to be happy without you.

My cuts hurt,

But I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all.

That's what happened when I saw you.

Making Mistakes

Mistakes are made everyday,

From a liar,

A cheater,

Or even a charmer.

I usually make the most mistakes,

Trusting her,

Loving you,

Being true,

If I could pretend to go with the flow,

No one would have to know,

Any of my secrets,

My mistakes,

I have never learned to speak openly,

I hoped that I would be your only,

That was a mistake,

You cheating on me and my friends,

That was a mistake,

You will never make again.

It's hard to make mistakes if you're dead.

Happiness

 There is no U in happiness,

Which is terrible,

Because for me to be happy,

You have to be there with me

C.U.T.S

 C is for cold and cruel people,

U is for undying hatred,

T is for the target parts of my wrists,

S is for seeing the blood, but not feeling the pain.

M.U.S.I.C

 M is for my hatred for the world,

U is for the underdog power in me,

S is for the stupidity that is in this world,

I is for ignorant people

C is for counting the measures.

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Publication Date: 12-24-2015

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