My Writings by BriannaLea Dvorak (grave mercy txt) 📕

Tests

Sadness filled her heart, 

as her eyes filled with tears.

 

How could life be so cruel?

How could her perfect life be destroyed so fast?

 

She slowly looked down at her arms-

Which are now covered in red.

 

"I lived a perfect life- being a nice person- helping those in need. Why do I deserve this pain?" She cried. 

 

After a life of perfection-

God decided to test her-

And she failed.

 

Paramedics rush into her apartment-

attempting to stop the bleeding.

 

She is rushed to the hospital- 

Where unfortunately- she dies.

 

God tested her-

And she failed his trials-

Resulting in her own death. 

 

He tests us all- 

Yet many fail in time of hardship. 

 

God gives us tests-

To determine our strength. 

 

When your time comes- 

Will you pass or fail?

 

The Last Goodbye

 He kisses his wife and kids goodbye,

As he leaves for another night shift. 

 

For the first time he has a bad feeling-

His stomach begins to turn. 

 

His instincts tell him to go home,

But he continues his way to work. 

 

The night sky is only lit up by a few stars-

It's too quiet out.

 

Footsteps approach from behind him-

His heart begins to race.

 

Within seconds- someone is now behind him-

Then a sharp pain fills his back.

 

Laying on the ground- 

He knows he's bleeding out-

This is the end.

 

As his last few breaths are now close-

He pulls his phone out. 

 

I love you and the kids, he types to his wife-

As he takes his final breath.

 

He never knew-

It was going to be his last goodbye.

 

Another innocent person unaware-

It would be their last goodbye,

To their loved ones.

Reflection

 Everyday I wake up,

Trying to avoid my biggest enemy-

The mirror.

When I look into it-

I can't stand the reflection that's looking back at me.

My fat-

Yes it's proof I brought a life into the world,

But society doesn't accept someone with a little fat.

The scars hiding on my body-

Just a reminder of my past,

And all my mistakes. 

Yes my mistakes were a learning experience-

But it came with a cost,

Pain. 

I see a mom-

That doesn't have the means to get all "dolled up".

Someone who is just broken out-

Face covered in acne.

Guess what-

Society doesn't accept you if you aren't pretty,

Or wearing 10 lbs of make-up!

When I look in the mirror-

The first thing I notice is my skin condition.

One that consumes almost my entire body,

But my arms and legs got the worst of it.

When I go in public, 

People stare like I have some contagious disease.

In all reality-

It's a skin condition;

It's nothing someone can catch by even touching me.

It's a medical issue-

That people glare at,

And whisper about. 

Thanks to societys' stereotypes-

I can't look in the mirror without seeing anything but flaws.

Because of society's "standards"-

I can never see myself as beautiful.

Everyone's so quick to judge-

Without any idea of the persons' story!

Thanks to this,

Many women and men are like me-

Unable to stand the reflection they see in the mirror!

We should all love ourselves;

God made us the way we are (even if we are different)-

But society makes us hate ourselves!

Ask yourself-

Are you like me?

Do you hate the reflection you see in the mirror?

Has society broken YOUR self love and confidence? 

For some of us-

Our reflection IS our biggest enemy!

To My Husband

 Before I met you, my life was a shit show.

My relationship was severely toxic, and my decisions were dumb.

I was an addict- my life slowly being destroyed.

Being around the wrong people, lead to me destroying myself.

However you took me in, and got me out of a horrible situation. 

The process was long, but you stayed by me. 

You held me- as I suffered from withdrawals.

You were there- forcing me to eat when I had starved for days; sometimes even a week.

You saved me from myself- saving my life.

Starting off as a friendship with cuddles- it turned into me finding the love of my life.

I was told I could never have kids- but we got a nice surprise.

The pregnancy was tough and stressful- but you stayed by my side. 

When I was told I had to be hospitalised- I was scared and almost in tears.

You showed up as fast as you could, and even slept uncomfortably in a place you hate- for me and our son.

The start of parenthood put some strain on us, but you still stayed by my side. 

April 17, 2018 our blessing was born.

On September 1, 2018 I got to marry the love of my life- a hardworking father. 

The wedding was beautiful- perfect for what we wanted.

You have made my life amazing- bringing me to see the positivity in life again. 

Thanks to you- I have my family, and will forever be happy. 

You are my world- my reason for being here.

I will forever love you with all my heart.

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Publication Date: 02-13-2019

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