I AM ME by Jerilynn Bates (acx book reading TXT) 📕

I walk a path you can not take

I speak a language you can not speak

I'm different

Everybody knows

I don't do what everybody does

I do my own thing

and for that I am saved

for being myself

and not being a slave

I don't drink and I don't do drugs

I dn't smoke and I don't tease

I look to the sky

and spread my wings to fly

In being myself

I AM ME

Nobody understands me

this hole I'm falling into

deeper and deeper

Until I disapear

People arn't saints

and I know it isn't fair

That they pass by

and just seem to stare

Love life
Or hate life
either way you've got to live it
because you
you can't die
unti you've had a chance to live

One

for

all

and

all

for

one

this

day

today

weighs

a

ton

my

self

esteem

now

weighs

none

this

day

today

I

can

not

shone

Am I crazy?
The walls are screaming at me.
Who is she?, Who is she?

Who is that girl in the reflection?
Some one familiar? I ask
in the walls direction.

It's not me. It's not me.
Time changes people......
For a long time, it has not been me.

The walls scream at me.
Is it only I who can here?
Who do I want to be?
Is it that girl in the mirror?

So I ask again.
Am I crazy?
Or is my perception.........
just a little bit hazy?

When the walls are screaming at me.


Dreams hold all the beauty,
all the lives unlived,
and the release of all duty.
Dreams hold all the fun,
all the nights,
but with the sun,
Dreams hold all of me,
except for the forgotten. . .
which is all but three.


SIGNATURES IN RED
rest in peace on the bed,
love and hate,
life and death,
we are all one,
and in one are we all,
to live on this earth,
as something so small. . .

SIGNATURES IN RED
our skin we shall shed,
for once and for all,
and for all and at once,
no more can we fall,
from a building so tall. . .

SIGNATURES IN RED
as liberty once said,
for the land of the free,
and the home of the brave,
won't take the slave,
for now it's one for all,
and all for one,
this battle that was never won. . .




Your spirit is lost
Your friends disapear
Your love goes away
Your never okay
Your head starts to ache
Your tears start to burn
Your emotions get tangled
and your ready to die

Your mind goes numb
Your hands start to shake
Your heart starts to thrum
Your skin starts to break
Your burns start to burn
and your ready to die

Your locked up in jail
Your brain starts to work
Your mind starts to think
Your crazy goes sane
as the realization hits

Was drugs worth all this?

Kiss me lets never part,
Hold me close,
My survival depends on that part.

Kiss me lets never part,
I love you,
You make me smart.

Kiss me lets never part,
Forget the fight,
Put down the dart.

Kiss me lets never part,
You’re my life,
My soul and heart.

Kiss me lets never part,
We are painters,
Love is art.


Depression hurts,
but only when not wanted.
only when you're sad,
or unconditionally unwarned.
Depression hurts,
and worsens when your hurting.
it keeps your eyes wet,
and chases smiles away.
Depression hurts,
and makes your heart sag.
it burns your soul,
and scares your family.
Depression hurts,
you'll never be the same.
it doesn’t need to be spelled,
`cause we all know the name.
Depression hurts,
SAD, MAD, ANGRY, UNHAPPY.
JEALOUS, NEGLECTED, PILLS.
SUICIDE, HOMICIDE.
SAD.
DEPRESSED.


Once upon a midnight dream,
When memories collided,
Like an open stream. . .
When night broke to day,
and when we were still,
a loving team?
Remember the times,
Way back when,
when we were so close?
And you could still be seen?


I know it makes no sense,
This love,
Be it sane,
Or dense,

But if this is how I should feel when I fall,
I'd rather feel this flame,
Than nothing at all.

And in the end I'll be glad,
Even if I am mad,
No matter the cost,
I'll be glad to have
LOVED AND THEN LOST.


THANKS FOR READING!!

Imprint

Text: I own every word, and every word I don't, belongs to someone else. Copyright laws do apply.
Publication Date: 07-30-2011

All Rights Reserved

Dedication:
Everyone who believes that lifes not worth living, if your trying to be someone else.