crazy love by Brianna Williams (ebook audio reader TXT) 📕

CRAZY LOVE
When your there…but not really there,
My heart cracks just a little more,
When you walk away…and say you love her,
My eyes begin to swell; my head begins to hurt,
When you say you have found the one for you,
I begin to cut…cut so very, very deep,
When you say stop I am not worth it then cry,
I think to myself… oh, but you are, are why would you care anyways!?!
When you scream at me and say I don’t care just don’t want to get the blame,
I say then leave; I don’t need you, and begin to cry,
Then you reply I do what I want, and scream don’t cry, don’t cry…
My lungs begin to fill with the little bit of air I take in, because I see you,
When you grab me by my sides and say I don’t want you, your no good for me,
I suck in the sent of you as you’re against me; I love you I scream,
Then you back away, I hate you, you’re...your nothing to me,
I scream back I know I am nothing, not even a word of your imagination,
Then you pull me in with your sweet sent and amazing eyes,
I let you because you’re the only thing in the world that has meaning to me,
You kiss me but it is not soft and sweet as I always imagined, it’s strong and cold,
But I pull you closer and you resist,
You scream you bitch burn in hell, because I am addicted to you and you know it,
I cry, I cry, your emotions no, I can not control them but you can,
You say I don’t know what to do anymore, but I know one things for sure
For sure. What’s for sure I ask you?
I…I… Love you,
Baby I have always loved you.
Death
I am on my knees pleading and disagreeing with the ones that say you’re gone.
But in my heart I know you are, I begin to shake and scream.
Then I just start to cry. I think to myself, why did you leave me? you left me alone.
Alone in a cold scary world. My heart thuds and feels like it’s going to fall out of place.
The earth begins to spin and I have the gun pointed ready for aim.
But then I see you standing there looking at me like I am insane.
How could you leave me I ask?
I am sorry it was not my choice.
Your voice makes my spine shiver.
My toes cruel.
My head spins.
Then my hands shake.
Your gone and I know that what I was about to do was a mistake
I run and run hoping to find you standing there waiting for me.
You disappear like a figment of my imagination
You left me again I don’t know what to do.
But remember always that I love you
I love you like my brother, then my thoughts go straight I have made up my mind.
Today I must lay there and wait.
I will sit there alone through the seasons waiting for you to come home.

-To my best friend Marcos!:( I love you

As we walk and as I cry I hear you everywhere from the inside.
I shut my eyes and hope your there
I open them to nothing but air.
I cross my fingers and hope you hiding.
I spin around I know you there *come out, come out* I say come out from anywhere
Nothing reply’s but my pain I hug my self and feel ashamed.
I kneel on the ground and pray to any god that you are around.
I whisper its ok he’s here in your heart forever he will stay.
I am left with the cool breeze coming from my window.
I shut it closed because I might try to escape from the inside of me
I cry, and cry but hold my self tight to make sure no screws become a little unite
I hold myself together and remember the day that you passed away.
I tell myself to not think about it, he’s still here forever don’t forget that
I promised him we were friends for ever until the world ends
I guess I kept that promise because his world did end
I try and try to pretend that it never did we were supposed to die together
The best of friends, yes we were, we were forever but forever is gone.
Now he sits in the middle of no where, in the sky, he tells me good bye
He says do not cry remember I am forever in your heart forever and ever.
Be happy my friend that’s all I want for you.
I replay all I want is you, I want to see you again, smell your sweet sent again
Why did you leave me alone you promised friends forever?
Yes, I did and you see we were now please just move on with your forever.
For me he asks, I say ok but only for you I whisper I love you forever and ever.
He says I know that’s true, you were a true friend, and Bree I love you too
I smile in delight the sound of my name coming from his lips one last time.
My spine shivers and I know he now has left me alone and behind.
But he says never behind in my eyes darling I love you good bye.
The breeze is now gone forever, and so is he I try no to cry as he told me.
I lie in my bed and try to forget but never forget him…
Because he was MY BEST FRIEND!
-Brianna Williams

Love in heaven
I stand there under the light I wish you were here, but your no where in sight,
My eyes fell with tears and I start to cry, and I hear is the quite whispers,
I run and run as fast as I can, as the tune plays in my head over and over again,
I try to run from all my fears but I know they are always here,
As they cut me from the inside I fall, and lay there to die,
I shut my eyes and listen to the wind, scream over and over again,
I hear the screams of children below,
They scream for joy no, oh no they don’t want to cry they are happy as can be,
Like little butterflies they open there wings and swore,
Unlike there mother now laying on the floor,
I need him; I need him here if not I think I may disappear… my eyes open,
And now all I see is my reflection staring back at me,
In the mirror I see my self a thousand years from now,
I sit in the clouds and watch from above a million people all in love,
They found the one, the one they need and now they are all very happy,
I watch, and watch, day by day, sit here in shame,
Because there could have been something between him and me,
But I was a chicken and scared to tell him, how much I felt for him,
And all the love I had for him, but now I am dead, he will never know,
But I always see him running in my heave, maybe I should tell him here,
But I fear he will say I don’t feel the same, and walk away,
I die inside just because of that thought, but I lost him once,
Once on earth where he could have been forever mine, we would live together
And have a family be as happy as can be smiles on are face together a whole,
We would forever stay together, but now I will never know,
That is a sadness trapped inside of me, so now I leap off the cloud,
From heave you hear every sound; I run and run jump up and down off each cloud
I smile when I see his perfect shining teeth glimmer from the heavens above,
And I run to catch up; I meet up with him, and hug him so tight,
He hugs me back and smiles in delight,
I have been waiting for this moment all my life he sang in his beautiful voice,
You have I say, oh yes dear I saw you everyday from the corner of my eye,
You watch me like a secret spy, I saw you with your every move,
You ran from bush to bush, jumped from tree to tree like a pretty little fairy
I loved you, and I knew you were so pretty you would never love me, I loved you,
But never had the nerve to say and then I died in a very disgusting way,
I came to heaven, the heaven I always dreamed of, with you in my heaven love,
Now I need to tell you something from above, I love you, I love you,
Would you be mine, please take my hand and I will be by your side all the time,
When you cry, when your in pain, but we well always be frozen and the same,
No family no anything just you and me can that make you happy?
Dear oh dear I say I have always loved since the day, I meet you,
Your eyes so beautiful you smile so bright, my night and shining armor,
Oh so right, I love you forever, day through night, I will take you by the arm,
And smile forever and ever and ever I am with you because baby I love you,
I know you do but remember I always love you more than you can imagine,
Now we sit together forever in this heaven my love.:)
Death
Death is near; I can hear it jumping up trying to catch you,
Oh why do you run, why do you run I ask? Death is meant to be,
It has chosen the one, the one it wants,
Now let it suck its vain empty and then it will be full of energy
Death I swear its you, you kill and crave,
You watch people die,
Now it’s only fair they watch you die, your drained, and your nothing
Death will then be complete, happy, done with its deeds
It won’t mess with the small ones, it wants you,
We hear death from everywhere now watch as it takes you surprise
Now all I have to say is good night,
It won’t be painful and slow,
It will be horrendously painful and a bloody massacre
Now I lay there and watch you die bu-bye:D
I watch I cry I hold your hand and die inside,
DEAD AND GONE
Any minute now you could disappear, vanish like a ghost in thin air,
Poof, your there, poof you’re gone now they try to sing some happy songs,
It dose not work I scream nothing will unless you get him back to earth…
I will never love you, I will hate you tell the end until you bring him back again,
Why did you take him now I ask he’s so young, and so kind, he was my best friend,
But now he’s just forever gone to the “heavens” above,
But forever he will stay. And oh no one can ever change that feeling inside of me,
They can never burn it, break it, take it, you spot is saved in my heart forever,
I promise in this heart you there but the thought of you is driving