Heart, Mind and Soul by Elinor Skinner (free novel 24 txt) 📕

I am still moving forward.

Although it hurts, I continue to smile.

Everyone tells me I don't understand, but

They never cared to ask- a single thing about me.

Can they even imagine my pain?

For I am denied my right to exist,

 Because of a sin.

That makes every part of me is so lifeless,

And yet I believe there is still happiness.

Maybe I've gone insane,

To hope I can be forgiven-

For being alive.

My memories that I've tried to fade

Still remains as fresh as yesterday.

And the fact I want to erase-

Is knowing that

"It is my fault."

No one knows me,

For all they do is make me feel responsible,

Just because I care.

I feel so pathetic,

For admitting my emotions, even though-

I am just as human.

I am the most disgraceful fake,

That I ever known, because

It seems to me that-

I can never do anything right.

Why should I be perfect?

Torn and weak, yet I stand-

Trying to runaway from the shadows,

Yet everytime I reach the light,

Just to end up collapsing,

And feeling surrounded,

Is there any escape for me?

 Eyes look upon me,

I sense so much hatred,

While walking down the street

My heart constricts.

I am falling fast,

No where to go,

All alone when I land.

The innocense is destoryed in me.

Those shadows,

Those shadows creeping around you,

And yet you don't know why.

You distaste them, they're after you,

They're after you.

They're after you, because

There is nothing left of me.

Maybe it's after you, cause

You're the one that broke my heart,

Shattered pieces scattered,

Leaving me so lost.

Those shadows contain-

All your spite, all your anger,

And your every fear.

Yet silence is all you hear.

They're after you, cause

There's nothing left of me to harm.

The light you want,

Want to shine on you,

But it won't,

No, it won't shine on you.

That light is full,

Full of my love, Full of my smiles,

And my courage.

It will shine on me,

Shine because it has

Everything to heal.

As I wake from a dream,

I let out a scream.

With so many fears,

As I tear through the years.

Everything I feel,

Is under a seal.

Yet sometimes I weep,

As I try to sleep.

It's half past nine,

And hoping for a sign.

Trying to find a key,

Cause I want to be set free.

Just to speak,

I feel so weak.

I stare at the floor,

Wanting to run to the door.

Inside I'm like ice,

Taking chances on the dice.

My heart starts to bleed.

Please, you are what I need.

So don't leave me on alone,

Cause I can't live on my own.

Text: Elinor Skinner
Images: Elinor Skinner
Publication Date: 10-26-2013

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Dedication:
To all the Authors out there: Quite a few of these song ideas, I pulled from thinking of your works and using it as inspiration. As well as all my friends and family who was kind enough to share some of their experencies and allowed me to put it into words.