Free by Lucia Morosanu (english books to improve english TXT) 📕

I wonder what is really real 

I wonder whether I’m a bitch, or the world is crap

I wonder what others see when I appear 

Sometimes I am proud, sometimes I am awkward

Sometimes I am witty and oh so charming

Sometimes all the wrong words fall out my mouth

Alone I can reach untouchable picks of wisdom

Outside I just cannot pretend to be socially acceptable

I seam to be trapped in a mediocre neutral zone

Between soulless stares and sparks of brilliance

I refuse to play obnoxious social games 

I am unable to hide my disgust towards idiocy 

I am unable to pretend to be fascinated and moved

By pseudo-intellectual meaningless conversations

At times I think I am missing a little screw, 

Which keeps together my socially friendly mask 

Somehow I feel unease when I have to please 

But I always refuse to change to fit the mold

My shape has no place in this enormous puzzle

No way back

Do you remember that time before freedom?

When everything was offered to you on a poisonous platter

When there was no need for such sinful words as

Logic and thinking, truth and searching 

I remember I was doubtful and a bit reserved 

I recall I was not true to myself

I recollect a period of mist and doubt 

A time long gone, deemed to be forgotten, 

To be buried in garden of futile memories 

Now I give an honest goodbye to the past

I abandoned the familiar for the dazzling unknown 

“I can’t relate to you” were the most honestly liberating words 

Once the veil was burned down, there is no way back

YOU

Your green eyes, enchanting and engulfing

Ever changing, never lying or deceiving 

With one glance you get my undying attention

Powerful voice, caring yet commanding

Making every other noise become instantly futile

Every small touch brings shivers up, down and all over

You make me want to, you make me have to never let go

You are my constant source of confidence 

My undying river of happiness and joy

You sometimes make me forget there is a world outside

You sometimes make me hate your every breath 

We fight, we shout, we say what we really do not mean

We get it out, we pick up the pieces and rebuild better

You give me something I refuse to lose

You make me feel;you shake me out of my numbness 

With every push you just come closer

With every whisper every tie gets stronger

I love you for what you are

I love you for what I am 

When I am with you

Publication Date: 07-24-2011

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