HARAI by Lucia Morosanu (ebook reader below 3000 TXT) 📕

PUNK

Why do you have to make me feel this way?
You keep taking me on this mental carousel
Why do you have to bring my hopes up?
I know I’ll never find anyone better than you
Every time I convince myself that I’ll be fine
The memory of you drags me down again
Why do you keep reminding me I lost all my happiness
In a corner of my soul, I always knew something was amiss
The sick pleasure was just a ghost of my perfect life
Sometimes I think I’m better off on my own
You were perfect in my eyes, you could make me lose my grip
A bleak thought was the only thing keeping me awake

How could I’ve been so fucking dumb
You were never under my control
I was caught up in your storm of dark lies
But in my heart, I always had a grain of doubt
Where you real or just a figment of my desire?

I never understood what the hell I felt for you
You were nothing of what I wanted from my better half
I needed security, instead you gave me pure adrenalin
You were a bitter cocktail of innocence and destruction
When you got on that cold stage, playing that big guitar
You brought my heart to a standstill and made it beg for mercy
That spark in your eyes mesmerize my trusting soul
I was young and dumb, and I believed in your empty promises
I knew it was never meant to be, we were dead from the beginning
But I wanted that false happiness to make me feel alive
What was I to do?
I fell for you like a fucking fool
Now I laugh,
Because I know I’ll never be happy with you

Now I look at the pictures of you on my wall
That once used to mean the world to me, but now
They remember me of the bitter taste of the past
I hope you’re happy, I hope I’ll be too
So goodbye, I have nothing else to say to you …

The voice of silence

When you’re hit, do you fall down?

When you’re mocked, do you shut up? 

When you’re hurt, do you brake down?

When you’re pushed, do you fall back? 

Do you believe the lies you’re fed, 

Or do you read between the lines?

Can your mind be molded with big words,

Or do you stand your ground till you’re shot?

Are you a soldier, in your one-man army,

Or do you give your life for a piece of cloth? 

Do you wish for more or laugh at the future?

Have you got the guts to stand up and shout,

Or do you sit and cry and feel sorry for the past?

Are the rules that you go by yours or God’s? 

Do you blend in, or do you stick out,

Like a rat in a field of greedy cats? 

When you’re hit, do you fall down?

When you’re mocked, do you shut up? 

When you’re hurt, do you brake down?

When you’re pushed, do you fall back? 

Are you a minority or part of the majority?

Do you believe the words I just said

Or do you know I’m just full of shit?

Do you speak your mind, or do you

Tell them what they want to hear? 

Are you yourself, or what they think you should be?

Do you walk on bleeding corpses to get your way

Or does a pebble stop you from running away?

Do you face your fears that dwell inside 

Or do you keep and let them rule your life? 

Are you prepared to face this filthy world

Or is the mist too thick for you to breath? 

When you’re hit, don't fall down

When you’re mocked, don't shut up 

When you’re hurt, don't brake down

When you’re pushed, don't fall back 

Unchangeable

Now it’s to late, close the door and say good night

You were told to change, but you’re too old to fight

In your head you kept hope that everything will be alright

But in just one flash, you lost it all in a bright light 

 Don’t open your ears to the bad outside, listen to your own beat

Have the guts and pull down the mask to see the raw piece of meat

Lock yourself into that golden volt, where everything is stacked so neat 

Beg for mercy from your master, roll down, play dead and sit 

You thought this world was full of happiness and good 

But everyone was so mean to you, they were so rude 

Deep inside, you always knew you could change something

You saw a big mistake that always stayed the same 

But it turned out that your actions didn’t mean a thing

You knew your enemies were so dumb and so easy to tame

Your eyes are closed again, listen to me because I’m right

Now it’s to late, close the door and say good night

You tried to fit in a world of shit, lies and fake hope

Two faced people aimed to sale you dreams and dope

You were fresh and with ideas that were much too bold

Your mind was set, and no one could make you change

But your words of magic were bought but never sold

You left your mark, but you were out of their range 

The warm blood on the tip of your tongue must be a delight 

You were told to change, but you’re too old to fight

The train of thoughts left you when you needed it the most

Don’t believe the posters that sell you happiness, it’s just a ghost

You’ve dragged your dignity through the mud for the last time

Down in those filthy dumps, the stars seam so very far away

So many poets put there grief and sorrow in just one white rime

Everything you did, you just rubbed God up the wrong way

Leaflets and billboards made innocent urchins give up the fight

In your head you kept hope that everything will be alright

You can’t fight the wind, but you can set your sails

Prides are bent and destroyed by a bunch of rusty nails

Nothing ever made any sense in this storm of smutty lies 

You can’t make the world spin the other way, but you can try

So many childish dreams and hopes, in a blink drown and die

Your last resort will always and forever be to brake down and cry

Your future could have been so fucking bright 

But in just one flash, you lost it all in a bright light 

Angels with dirty hands made you live your life in a crystal bubble

Happiness and riches were your friends, there was no sight of trouble

But when it was broken by the knife that stabbed you in your sleep 

The real world scourged you and now it's your time to get even

The past and the future are just scares of wounds, which ran so deep 

Close your eyes and hold your breath, let out that tarnished demon

You've got to fight until the battle is lost, never accept defeat 

Don’t open your ears to the bad outside, listen to your own beat

You always thought bigger was better, yet good is such a small word

You’ve burned your fucking bridges, and now the only way to go is downward

Reality is a concentrated mix of your favorite nightmare and weird dream 

The coke that pumps through our veins and the smoke that we draw in 

Mutated us into the creature we are today, working for steam 

We’re all born in a vicious circle, which we can’t escape or believe 

One option hasn’t left you yet, try it once and then repeat 

Have the guts and pull down the mask to see the raw piece of meat

You had a knack for creating perfect chaos from the calmest storm 

Try as you might, you’ll only end up submitting to their fucking norm

Be a good puppet and obey, blend in the meek and become that shade of grey 

They cloned our reality and no one can see through the bullshit we are given every day

Let’s burn the building and hang the priests, we have something to say

We’ll bring anarchy to the world, every day from June to bloody May

Believe it or not, you have a choice, you can be a robot or you can be a cheat 

Lock yourself into that golden volt, where everything is placed so neat 

We were abandoned in the dark, with a thorny hands on our eyes

But we found our way back, and now it’s time he pays the price for his lies 

Have we missed the signs, because our race is damned to self destruction

We do nothing anymore, computers tell us what we have to do

Our humanity has been lost in the trances of that dreadful war of seduction 

We ended up all the same, like soulless clone, every me and every you

Bar codes, broken promises, fake realities and a nation of misfits 

Beg for mercy from your master, here's your treat, now sit 

Beg for mercy from your master, here's your treat, now sit 

Lock yourself into that golden volt, where everything is put so neat 

Have the guts and pull down the mask to sit see the raw piece of meat

Don’t open your ears to the bad outside, listen to your own beat

But in just one flash you lost it all in a bright light 

In your head you kept hope that everything will be alright

You were told to change but you’re too old to fight

Now it’s to late, close the door and say good night

Never