HARAI by Lucia Morosanu (ebook reader below 3000 TXT) 📕

My entire life I have been told

I couldn’t do but wrong

Always in the shadow of the better child

Good job and nice try

But try it one more time

And this time do it right

Because you’re never good enough

Why should I even try?

When I know it’s all in vain

My victories are always compared

With my brother’s flops 

And I never seam to win

Because I’m just a stupid kid

Who doesn’t know jack shit

Just a little girl

Who should have stayed home

Good job and nice try

But try it one more time

And this time do it right

Cause you’re never good enough

Never going be someone

Just the little sister

Of that brilliant man

So I never seam to win

So I’ll never try again.

I’m so sorry 

I know I was always a bad kid

I know I was never polite

I know we spent our time Fitting in World War 3 

I know we never saw eye to eye

And for that, I apologize

I’m sorry for what I did

I’m sorry for what I said

I’m sorry for everything wrong

I’m sorry, even though it is too late

I know you only wanted

What was best for me

I know you only wanted to see me happy

I know I never listened

And I did everything my way

I know all that, and for that I apologize

I’m sorry for what I did

I’m sorry for what I said

I’m sorry for everything wrong

I’m sorry, even though it is too late

I know I wasn’t perfect

And we never really talked

Only now I know how wrong I was

I know I should have said

All these things years ago

And for that I now apologize 

I’m sorry for what I did

I’m sorry for what I said

I’m sorry for everything wrong

I’m sorry, even though it is too late

I know time has been wasted 

Words that should have been said

Have been bottled up till now 

Between us there was a concrete wall

That should have been destroyed many years ago

Only now I know, and I apologize for that 

What happened

I used to have blind faith in you

But now you give me no reason to

We’re two different girls, who endure a painful silence

Two distinct worlds that fight without violence

Nothing can change what we had

Then why has our future become so sad?

The times when you were what I needed the most

Are long gone, why have you become a ghost?

Let us close the door without making a sound

Guess it’s all over, guess I’ll see you around

How can everything vanish so fast?

Maybe we were never meant to last

How could our tower be demolished so easily?

Maybe our foundation was built too foolishly

What have we become, when have we gone bad?

We were so close, now we are strangers

We read each other, now our words are empty

We did it all together, but now our roads don’t cross

Was it all my fault, maybe it was yours

We could feel without speaking, now we speak without feeling

We’ve grown apart, who let this happen?

Have I let go too soon, or was your grip too weak?

I look at us now, I cry for us then

How can everything vanish so fast?

Maybe we were never meant to last

How could our tower be demolished so easily?

Maybe our foundation was built too foolishly

GRab me

GRab me and hold me tight, because

I can sense my earth shaking

I can see my dreadful demise

Every sacred second seams to

Sacrifice my scarred soul

You are my serenity, you are my balance

You are the only one who can

Calm my panic, destroy my abyss

Absorb my hate, release my bloody wings

My senses yearn for one more

kiss before my eyes close

touch before I break 

hug before I fall

Please tell me you are prepared

to tame my monster

not scared to see me bare

willing to face the storm

not aware of my pernicious perfume

I feel it in my bones you can

draw our castle with both hands

bluntly paint our future to be colorfully unique

sculpt our sky to have no shadows of shades

So please don’t be shy, give me your hand

My skin is aching for your fingers

My lips crave your breath

My eyes won’t stop searching for your light

My soul burns to hear your soothing voice

My hand feels incomplete without yours

Every piece of me needs

Every piece of you, my dear Come a little closer so I can whisper

The words that carved memories inside

And I have one thing to ask of you 

GRab me before I hit the GRound

The final minute

My glasses are on,

I can see clearly

We can both sense something is amiss

It was fun, I can admit

But the past cannot replace the future

I’m sick and tired of feeling low

Of blaming myself

Of waiting for you to call

I’m fed up of being angry

Of pretending not to care

Of wondering what went wrong

I don’t want to change for you

You don’t need to better yourself for me

Let’s stop searching for Eldorado

Let’s quit imagining we’re fine

The colorful masks have faded to gray

You’re not fit to play my saving sun

The garden décor is slowly routing 

I can see it coming, I can sense it dying 

Here is your trust, give me back my insanity

Let's call it a night and take a bow

The show has ended, the curtains will soon close

There is no need for a pitiful encore

Publication Date: 11-04-2008

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