21 Days of Solitude by Asekho Toto (top android ebook reader TXT) 📕

What broke us?
Is it the lockdown?
Is it me?
Yes I'm admitting all my feelings for you
I even trust you with the secrets
I never told anyone
But I think you doubting me.

Maybe if you want to leave
You can leave me
But all I know is that you are the one for me
And if you leave me now
It'll be hard for me to accept it
Because I didn't come to you
With dirty intentions like most of guys
I came with good ones.

You are the one in my heart
I know that is hard to believe
What can I do to convince you?

Just take a chance on me
And you won't regret it babe
Please don't give up on us
Because of the miscommunication.

The truth is I love you
And I don't want to lose you
But I'll lose you If you don't trust me

The truth is you always on my mind
Every day and there is no day that passes by of not thinking about you
I miss you.

The truth is I keep you in my prayers
Even when you call me selfish
When I'm clearly the good guy in the story
Now I truly know you are the only one for me.

The truth is I can't let of you
As I vowed to be right by your side.

Remember that time I asked you
"How much does my career mean to you?"
You gave me an undesirable answer
It wasn't satisfying answer
I thought you would say
It means over my love
It means over the dreams you have about me
Maybe you loved me too much
And you didn't see what matters to me.

Sorry for being that guy
Who only chases that pussy
Not what you truly have
Which is a good heart.

Sorry for being that guy
Who cares too much about you
More than himself.

I'm sorry for loving you too much
And being afraid of letting you go
Sorry for this.

They don't satisfy me anymore
Even though they are not control freaks
I thought they would attack me
Since I turned them into my lovers
I had a great time in the beginning.

My girlfriend would kill me after reading this poem
This affair has been going on for so long
And I even decided to end it
It won't be easy to get out
But it is the sake of my relationship.

Depression and anxiety it's over
I'm sorry to tell you this
I know I'm the one who invited you
To my life this time around
I thought you'd bring more pain than before
Because love is something I don't
Maybe it's because I fetched you from your place
But it's over now.

This may be a little religious
It's not
And some of you may not like this poem
But I don't need your validation.

God gave up his only son for me
Just to be forgiven
No matter how many times you discourage me
I'll always remember, I'm a child of God
He has plans for me
He has protected me from all these years
I have through ups and downs in life
But God keeps on telling me
The best is yet to come and never allow the devil to win.

Because of Jesus I'm able to be forgiven
Jesus is the perfect of God-
He is kind
He is forgiving
He is perfect
And never sinned.

God, thank you for being here
God, thank you for protecting my family and friends
God, thank you for allowing me to learn about your word.

On this day God woke up
To meet his Father
He was the one who gave me grace
I keep saying I don't deserve it
But he keep saying I clearly do
Today, I'm redeemed because of Jesus.

His love
His grace
And kindness
Made me feel special.

There is redemption for you too
He doesn't care about your past
If you killed
If you stole
To me it might not be fair
But Him it's fair because he loves you
And you deserve redemption.

All the fights
All the drama
And all the disappointments
But whenever I try to convince you to smile
My mind relinquishes the things you said
And focuses on your smile
Because it keeps reminding me
I'll always love you
Whenever you do to me
This is the way I show the affection of my love.

Dear my love

This lockdown has taught me a lot. Yes, I love you but recently I had doubts about you. I was afraid you would love me the way I love you. My insecurities are bigger than I thought and I know you keep saying you love me . But I don't see the proof if you could be kind and show me where do you love me. If you ask me for the proof of my love, I would say I have compromised for you a lot and dedicated poems for you even though you would say you don't deserve them.

I have never been in love this way because my last lover or more like a fling loved me but I think she was afraid to commit to the love I had to offer. Are you prepared to love me and commit to our love like never before. This lockdown has messed me up and it's not like me to confess my feelings this way but it is already done.

Yours sincerely
Poetry.