Gloomy Sunday Peoms by Ivy Bernet (book club suggestions .txt) π
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Why are you so afraid of being hurt?
You would never let anyone get close to you.
You wonβt let anyone hold your hand,
And they will never even touch your heart.
Is it because you fear the cold sting of loneliness,
Or the desolation in the words of rejection.
Oh but I know pain,
And I welcome it.
I know the sting of the wind against my heart once it has been ripped from my chest.
And I know how a few small words can completely destroy me.
So my dear, when you are alone tonight, Basking in your self-hatred.
Remember that you are the one who pushed us away,
You are the one who cut ties with everyone.
You will not cry,
you will not speak,
You will sit and feel nothing but emptiness.
Tonight I will also be alone,
And I will wallow in all my broken hearts.
I will cry over ever kiss and touch,
I will feel the heartbreak as if for the first time.
But I think it is better this way,
For I would much rather re-live every miserable moment,
Then feel nothing at all, like you.
On Worthlessness
On most days I donβt feel anything
On better days I feel tired
I feel absent of my ability to love
I feel blockaded into my body
But this is how I have been made
I wasnβt always this broken
But then again neither were you
I know how fragile you feel
I know to what thinness others have pulled you
How you stand behind your sins
How you cling to yourself just for something to hold on to
We are both the product and the cause
We are two different breeds of the same monster
Both mutated in dissimilar ways
However while you grasp for anything
I let go of everything that ever might have mattered to me
And unfortunately that is how I know what will become of us
For you my dear friend are searching for acceptance
And when no one cares about you anymore
You will be left with nothing else but me
And because in my nature I am unable to love anything, even you
You will be forced to love and appreciate yourself
Which we both know goes against your nature
And eventually your feelings of helplessness will overcome you
And unfortunately for you
I find wholeness in is destroying everything I should love
And you will be pulled so thin you disappear entirely
On Self-Hatred
I know my issues are all in my head
The hatred I have for every word I utter
The imperfections I see staring at me in the mirror
The judgments I pass on my behavior
I am sure that you feel the same way about me.
You hate me the way I hate me
You see my ugliness that is covered with heavy makeup
You ridicule my every action.
I know my self-hatred is in my head
But that doesnβt mean it isnβt true.
On Walls
We build walls around our souls
Everyoneβs wall is unique
Some are to protect against heartbreak
Some stave off our loneliness
And some guard us from our own self destructive nature
Unfortunately all our walls share the same flaw
Yes they do defend us from all pain
But they also blockade all joys we would otherwise experience
Fret not for one day every wall we have set will crumble
Yes it will hurt and we will know pain like never before
We will scream and thrash in our bed
Plead with our unknown maker to deliver us
And we will find new devices to keep our pain away
On You
Hello
If you are reading this
we have probably never met
I wish I had met you,
I wish I will still meet you
I hope we couldβve had inside jokes
That we would laugh at endlessly
I hope we could have cried together
Knowing that someone had the same pain
I hoped we could have shared our darkest dreams
Confiding our biggest fears to someone trustworthy
Sharing a bond far stronger than any sibling
I wish I could spend endless hours learning about you
Knowing exactly how you feel;
When the first tear drops form your eye
When you are reunited with a loved one
When the moment you realize your heart is broken
When you turn to face the demons you created
I wish I know;
The turn in your voice giving away your true emotions
Your favorite part of the sunset
What you would name your daughter
How you feel about dancing in the rain
However Form the moment you started reading this
Nothing you have ever done before matters
And anything you will do after is meaningless to me
Form the second your eyes laid upon this
I have loved, I will always love you
In my eyes you are the person I have written about;
You are the Boy I think is beautiful
You are the person Feeling pain and frustration
You are the one who teases and longs for Death
You are the knight I love and have created
And these poems are for you;
You are the one is pain
These are my hopes for you
You are the one who sees the villain in themselves
Who you are is irrelevant
What you have done is a throwaway
For I shall never know you
And this saddens me greatly
Knowing that the only connection we will ever share
Is this one small poem
But I wish more than the best for you
I wish everything for you
I would pull down the moon if it was in my power
For I will always love you.
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