chanson d'amour by OldCrow (summer reads txt) 📕

little one caught in the middle of a struggle not wanted or chosen
Opposing sides held by an innocent heart
Ruled by an immature mind of willful doubt
For her my heart bleeds
Painful spasms hemorrhaging my will
Drowning my soul with worry and fear
That the demons scream in my head in the middle of the night
They attack when I am vulnerable
When my guards are down
Their art of war so precise and unfair
That I dread the night’s fall
And the pillows toll
Sometimes

Sometimes I just think about you…your eyes looking up in wonderment with that little mischievous smirk on you face and your hips and body gently swaying to the music and I just smile…you feel so good in my arms

Sometimes I just stare at you….your eyes so bright and hopeful, even in dismay they seem to shine like the flicker of sunlight on crystal baubles…and you give flight to my heart

Sometimes I just listen to you…I hear your song above the waves crashing on the rocks, over the sounding gale it carries to my heart and crumbles the turrets standing guard…you make me dream again

Sometimes I desire you…the soft touch of your skin, creamy alabaster silk that draws the fire in my soul and trembles my core to the very foundation of who I am…you incarnate my revenant soul

But always, just being with you…you make me happy

Lost

Tonight my heart is heavy
Tied down with stress
Sick with worry

I feel the weight on my shoulders
Alone, it seems, for me to bear
Why can’t I just set it down

The pressure I feel
Behind the sills
Of the windows that hide my soul

The empty solitude that fills my head
Oppressively crushing, suffocating
Unbearably there

I feel it in every fiber of my being
Dissolving me
Drawing me down, deeper and deeper

Adrift it seems in the doldrums expanse
No wind in my sails
The horizon cast to chance

Lost in myself, in my head I wander
With rum for a crutch and the gypsy’s prayer
No safe harbor to find, from way out here

Goodbye My Friend

A dear friend I lost this night

This sad and lonely night

The tarnished silver chain

I hadn’t the heart to break

Lies scattered all about

No casket for the wake

My heart so sad and heavy

Laden with doubt and guilt

At a loss so devastating

At ties now left to wilt

A friendship that was crushed

By love’s unpredictable hand

When new loves tempt to fate

Old ties not beard to stand

Our Light

From the ashes we grasped hands and rose above
We brought with us our light
And it shown above the unhappy valley
Illuminated the pass to climb
And guided the innocent followers
That meander in our wake
Though the path is treacherous
And riddled with memories of hurt
Disappointment and loss
Our light glimmers on it
Reflects off the stones
That span the crevices of fear and doubt
And together we can climb out of this valley
To the crest and beyond
To whatever truth that lies before us
And to the beautiful ending our hearts have sought

Reason

Ahhhhh! How the heart screams!
Screams in longing
Screams in angst
Angst for the Reason
The Reason in the head
The head that denies the longing
The longing to hold her
To hold her in my arms
To hold her and take her!
Take her and drive into her!
Into her with all the passion the heart can burn….
Cry!
Cry dear heart
Let the tears flow
The blood that pours over the soul
Cools the desire
Tempers the drive
Allows the Reason
- Cursed reason

Just Friends

Damn-It Girl!
I want you here
I want me there
The cling of you arms
The smell of your hair
I can’t stand the wait
The anxiety boils
Uncertainty taunts
Do you want me to
Do you feel the draw
That I feel for you
Is it there inside
Your heart you hide
Behind the walls
So buttressed high
Here I stand
I’m just outside
Be Damned! The guard
His foolish pride
That little boy
Who shackles you
Here I stand
Please look my way
Into my eyes
The truth to say
The song of my heart
True Love is there
Hear not my words
They are not fair
Lie down inside
My arms with me
Rest your heart
Breath deep, you’ll see
The love is there
To fill our lungs
To quench our thirst
And sate the soul
But a word from thee
Is all I need
A wink or a nod
To set me free
Free to lose
The mask I wear
That filters words
I cannot share
I hate the ruse
Your friend to be
I long so much
Your love for me
Dear sweet angel
Please come to me

Forbidden Love

Oh sweet love of God
And tears of Heaven
Fall to the Earth
To quench my soul
And calm my heart
That burns so bright
On cliff so high
Where the Goddess of doom
Sings her song so sweet
Over jagged rocks
And crashing waves

Sweet Angel mine
Her song to me
Carries over the gale
To ring in my heart
That cries so deep in my chest
That I feel I should drown
With each breath I take
A song so sweet
Sung just for me
A song of love
That should not be


For gossamer voice
And devilish smile
I step with care
On treacherous path
For want of love
And Sweet Angel’s touch
I brave the rocks
I’ve dared not climb
For one sweet smile
Place me on High
For my love to her
I would surly die.

Lies

I hurt