Idylls of the King by Alfred Lord Tennyson (best books to read for self development txt) 📕

of the good,

Puts his own baseness in him by default

Of will and nature, so did Pelleas lend

All the young beauty of his own soul to hers,

Believing her; and when she spake to him,

Stammered, and could not make her a reply.

For out of the waste islands had he come,

Where saving his own sisters he had known

Scarce any but the women of his isles,

Rough wives, that laughed and screamed against the gulls,

Makers of nets, and living from the sea.

 

Then with a slow smile turned the lady round

And looked upon her people; and as when

A stone is flung into some sleeping tarn,

The circle widens till it lip the marge,

Spread the slow smile through all her company.

Three knights were thereamong; and they too smiled,

Scorning him; for the lady was Ettarre,

And she was a great lady in her land.

 

Again she said, ‘O wild and of the woods,

Knowest thou not the fashion of our speech?

Or have the Heavens but given thee a fair face,

Lacking a tongue?’

 

‘O damsel,’ answered he,

‘I woke from dreams; and coming out of gloom

Was dazzled by the sudden light, and crave

Pardon: but will ye to Caerleon? I

Go likewise: shall I lead you to the King?’

 

‘Lead then,’ she said; and through the woods they went.

And while they rode, the meaning in his eyes,

His tenderness of manner, and chaste awe,

His broken utterances and bashfulness,

Were all a burthen to her, and in her heart

She muttered, ‘I have lighted on a fool,

Raw, yet so stale!’ But since her mind was bent

On hearing, after trumpet blown, her name

And title, ‘Queen of Beauty,’ in the lists

Cried—and beholding him so strong, she thought

That peradventure he will fight for me,

And win the circlet: therefore flattered him,

Being so gracious, that he wellnigh deemed

His wish by hers was echoed; and her knights

And all her damsels too were gracious to him,

For she was a great lady.

 

And when they reached

Caerleon, ere they past to lodging, she,

Taking his hand, ‘O the strong hand,’ she said,

‘See! look at mine! but wilt thou fight for me,

And win me this fine circlet, Pelleas,

That I may love thee?’

 

Then his helpless heart

Leapt, and he cried, ‘Ay! wilt thou if I win?’

‘Ay, that will I,’ she answered, and she laughed,

And straitly nipt the hand, and flung it from her;

Then glanced askew at those three knights of hers,

Till all her ladies laughed along with her.

 

‘O happy world,’ thought Pelleas, ‘all, meseems,

Are happy; I the happiest of them all.’

Nor slept that night for pleasure in his blood,

And green wood-ways, and eyes among the leaves;

Then being on the morrow knighted, sware

To love one only. And as he came away,

The men who met him rounded on their heels

And wondered after him, because his face

Shone like the countenance of a priest of old

Against the flame about a sacrifice

Kindled by fire from heaven: so glad was he.

 

Then Arthur made vast banquets, and strange knights

From the four winds came in: and each one sat,

Though served with choice from air, land, stream, and sea,

Oft in mid-banquet measuring with his eyes

His neighbour’s make and might: and Pelleas looked

Noble among the noble, for he dreamed

His lady loved him, and he knew himself

Loved of the King: and him his new-made knight

Worshipt, whose lightest whisper moved him more

Than all the ranged reasons of the world.

 

Then blushed and brake the morning of the jousts,

And this was called ‘The Tournament of Youth:’

For Arthur, loving his young knight, withheld

His older and his mightier from the lists,

That Pelleas might obtain his lady’s love,

According to her promise, and remain

Lord of the tourney. And Arthur had the jousts

Down in the flat field by the shore of Usk

Holden: the gilded parapets were crowned

With faces, and the great tower filled with eyes

Up to the summit, and the trumpets blew.

There all day long Sir Pelleas kept the field

With honour: so by that strong hand of his

The sword and golden circlet were achieved.

 

Then rang the shout his lady loved: the heat

Of pride and glory fired her face; her eye

Sparkled; she caught the circlet from his lance,

And there before the people crowned herself:

So for the last time she was gracious to him.

 

Then at Caerleon for a space—her look

Bright for all others, cloudier on her knight—

Lingered Ettarre: and seeing Pelleas droop,

Said Guinevere, ‘We marvel at thee much,

O damsel, wearing this unsunny face

To him who won thee glory!’ And she said,

‘Had ye not held your Lancelot in your bower,

My Queen, he had not won.’ Whereat the Queen,

As one whose foot is bitten by an ant,

Glanced down upon her, turned and went her way.

 

But after, when her damsels, and herself,

And those three knights all set their faces home,

Sir Pelleas followed. She that saw him cried,

‘Damsels—and yet I should be shamed to say it—

I cannot bide Sir Baby. Keep him back

Among yourselves. Would rather that we had

Some rough old knight who knew the worldly way,

Albeit grizzlier than a bear, to ride

And jest with: take him to you, keep him off,

And pamper him with papmeat, if ye will,

Old milky fables of the wolf and sheep,

Such as the wholesome mothers tell their boys.

Nay, should ye try him with a merry one

To find his mettle, good: and if he fly us,

Small matter! let him.’ This her damsels heard,

And mindful of her small and cruel hand,

They, closing round him through the journey home,

Acted her hest, and always from her side

Restrained him with all manner of device,

So that he could not come to speech with her.

And when she gained her castle, upsprang the bridge,

Down rang the grate of iron through the groove,

And he was left alone in open field.

 

‘These be the ways of ladies,’ Pelleas thought,

‘To those who love them, trials of our faith.

Yea, let her prove me to the uttermost,

For loyal to the uttermost am I.’

So made his moan; and darkness falling, sought

A priory not far off, there lodged, but rose

With morning every day, and, moist or dry,

Full-armed upon his charger all day long

Sat by the walls, and no one opened to him.

 

And this persistence turned her scorn to wrath.

Then calling her three knights, she charged them, ‘Out!

And drive him from the walls.’ And out they came

But Pelleas overthrew them as they dashed

Against him one by one; and these returned,

But still he kept his watch beneath the wall.

 

Thereon her wrath became a hate; and once,

A week beyond, while walking on the walls

With her three knights, she pointed downward, ‘Look,

He haunts me—I cannot breathe—besieges me;

Down! strike him! put my hate into your strokes,

And drive him from my walls.’ And down they went,

And Pelleas overthrew them one by one;

And from the tower above him cried Ettarre,

‘Bind him, and bring him in.’

 

He heard her voice;

Then let the strong hand, which had overthrown

Her minion-knights, by those he overthrew

Be bounden straight, and so they brought him in.

 

Then when he came before Ettarre, the sight

Of her rich beauty made him at one glance

More bondsman in his heart than in his bonds.

Yet with good cheer he spake, ‘Behold me, Lady,

A prisoner, and the vassal of thy will;

And if thou keep me in thy donjon here,

Content am I so that I see thy face

But once a day: for I have sworn my vows,

And thou hast given thy promise, and I know

That all these pains are trials of my faith,

And that thyself, when thou hast seen me strained

And sifted to the utmost, wilt at length

Yield me thy love and know me for thy knight.’

 

Then she began to rail so bitterly,

With all her damsels, he was stricken mute;

But when she mocked his vows and the great King,

Lighted on words: ‘For pity of thine own self,

Peace, Lady, peace: is he not thine and mine?’

‘Thou fool,’ she said, ‘I never heard his voice

But longed to break away. Unbind him now,

And thrust him out of doors; for save he be

Fool to the midmost marrow of his bones,

He will return no more.’ And those, her three,

Laughed, and unbound, and thrust him from the gate.

 

And after this, a week beyond, again

She called them, saying, ‘There he watches yet,

There like a dog before his master’s door!

Kicked, he returns: do ye not hate him, ye?

Ye know yourselves: how can ye bide at peace,

Affronted with his fulsome innocence?

Are ye but creatures of the board and bed,

No men to strike? Fall on him all at once,

And if ye slay him I reck not: if ye fail,

Give ye the slave mine order to be bound,

Bind him as heretofore, and bring him in:

It may be ye shall slay him in his bonds.’

 

She spake; and at her will they couched their spears,

Three against one: and Gawain passing by,

Bound upon solitary adventure, saw

Low down beneath the shadow of those towers

A villainy, three to one: and through his heart

The fire of honour and all noble deeds

Flashed, and he called, ‘I strike upon thy side—

The caitiffs!’ ‘Nay,’ said Pelleas, ‘but forbear;

He needs no aid who doth his lady’s will.’

 

So Gawain, looking at the villainy done,

Forbore, but in his heat and eagerness

Trembled and quivered, as the dog, withheld

A moment from the vermin that he sees

Before him, shivers, ere he springs and kills.

 

And Pelleas overthrew them, one to three;

And they rose up, and bound, and brought him in.

Then first her anger, leaving Pelleas, burned

Full on her knights in many an evil name

Of craven, weakling, and thrice-beaten hound:

‘Yet, take him, ye that scarce are fit to touch,

Far less to bind, your victor, and thrust him out,

And let who will release him from his bonds.

And if he comes again’—there she brake short;

And Pelleas answered, ‘Lady, for indeed

I loved you and I deemed you beautiful,

I cannot brook to see your beauty marred

Through evil spite: and if ye love me not,

I cannot bear to dream you so forsworn:

I had liefer ye were worthy of my love,

Than to be loved again of you—farewell;

And though ye kill my hope, not yet my love,

Vex not yourself: ye will not see me more.’

 

While thus he spake, she gazed upon the man

Of princely bearing, though in bonds, and thought,

‘Why have I pushed him from me? this man loves,

If love there be: yet him I loved not. Why?

I deemed him fool? yea, so? or that in him

A something—was it nobler than myself?

Seemed my reproach? He is not of my kind.

He could not love me, did he know me well.

Nay, let him go—and quickly.’ And her knights

Laughed not, but thrust him bounden out of door.

 

Forth sprang Gawain, and loosed him from his bonds,

And flung them o’er the walls; and afterward,

Shaking his hands, as from a lazar’s rag,

‘Faith of my body,’ he said, ‘and art thou not—

Yea thou art he, whom late our Arthur made

Knight of his table; yea and he that won

The circlet? wherefore hast thou