Aptavani-9 by Dada Bhagwan (i can read with my eyes shut txt) 📕

ourselves free from our obstinacies (aadayee), adamancy towards non-communication (risavu), and tragu (manipulative tantrums), or we can escape from people who are obstinate, upset and non-communicative, or do tragu. Through the Science of Akram, the Gnani Purush gives us the understanding of the art and the knowledge to become free from our relative self and to not get entangled in the relative self of others; this becomes extremely helpful to remove the obstacles in the path to our final liberation!

2. Emotional agitation (udvega) : suspicion (shanka) : intense mental note (nondha)

In order to make others do what one wants, one starts with obstinacy, then becomes upset and non-communicative and if he is not successful, he starts to do tragu (manipulative tantrum). And still if things do not happen according to his wishes, he develops extreme emotional agitation (udvega). If the tendency to make others do what one wants is eroded, he gets freedom from the pain and suffering of emotional agitation (udvega).

Emotional agitation is created when attachment (moha)with ego reaches extremes. In a state of extreme emotional agitation, terrible new karmas are bound.

Only the Gnani Purush can show the subtle clarity of the speed and force of the prakruti and of emotional agitation! And it is from the Gnani Purush that the keys to becoming free from causes that become instrumental in causing emotional agitation can be easily obtained to tackle the problem.

In order to become free from emotional agitation, one should find its causes and stay away from them or leave the issue altogether, no matter how priceless. But one must remove the root causes of emotional agitation, because as long as there is slightest emotional agitation, the path to liberation is not there at all.

In Akram Vignan, one enjoys the freedom as a result of simply ‘seeing’ the relative self (prakruti) that is caught in emotional agitation. However, because of ignorance he takes it upon himself by claiming, ‘I am caught in this emotional agitation.’ And as a consequence he actually becomes trapped!

What causes emotional agitation? It is the intellect (buddhi). It is the intellect that brings one from vega towards aavega and ultimately towards udvega, meaning it is the intellect that takes one from non-consequential motion or a neutral state (vega), into emotional force (aavega) and ultimately emotional agitation (udvega) and it is the intellect that gives rise to suspicions (shanka).

When the power of intellect does not bring about a solution, one gets puzzled and then suspicions are created. Suspicion means one has deep ignorance.

In Akram Vignan, in order to save one’s self from the ravages of suspicion, by understanding the scientific knowledge of vyavasthit (this is the subtle coming together and functioning of ‘scientific circumstantial evidences’ in all actions), as given in the form of Agna (spiritual directives) by the Gnani Purush, one can remain in a steady suspicion-less state (nihshank).

If suspicion enters into the mind as a result of seeing a snake entering the house; that suspicion will not go away until the snake is seen leaving the house. Suspicion will not be born at all if the knowledge of ‘scientific circumstantial evidence’ (vyavasthit) is understood.

The Vignan (science) that has manifested through the divine words of the Gnani is the extract of his analysis of his experiences of countless past lives. The original knowledge of freedom attained as a result of going through every phase of numerous innate natures (prakrutis), is the research of the Gnani Purush!

Many incidents occur in the lives of men, wherein they don’t have any suspicion (they accept their circumstances) about what is taking place, then why should there be suspicion where everything is happening as a natural order? In the matter of digesting food, is there any suspicion whether digestion will occur or not?

What benefit is there from being laden with suspicion? The condition of an intensely suspicious person is that of a corpse even though he may be alive! What happens when there is suspicion about the daughters when they go off to college? That suspicion creates constant restlessness. It only creates pain and hurts one’s own self.

It is a tremendous risk to have suspicion about someone’s character. How can such a risk be taken? One can remain suspicion-free as long as he does not happen to see anything. But does that mean it was not there before? Did it happen overnight? No. Therefore, if there is suspicion, one should conciliate that it was there before. This world is only an illusion. The Soul has no wife and no daughter. Those who don’t want to miss out on their progress in the path towards their final liberation should not dwell deeper in any place other than the Soul.

In the effect of Kaliyug, the current bad times, where morality and sincerity have broken down between husband and wife, where lies any meaningful pleasure? In Kaliyug, the wife will not be your own. There are tendencies for sheer deceit and fraud flowing in this aspect! So, where is the ground for suspicion? The best way to conduct oneself in this respect is to take the vow of having only one spouse; otherwise it can only be called a ‘toilet’, is that not so? The toilet is where everyone goes!! Is it not true that the insatiable desire and lure for sex gives rise to suspicion? Once there is freedom from sex, freedom from suspicion will be there. If one does not become free from suspicion that arises as a consequence of his sexual indulgences, not only this life, but his infinite lives to come will be ruined! The one on the path of liberation should be without suspicion.

Once there is suspicion about a person, there is separation from that person. The echoes of suspicion will inevitably reach the other person. Therefore, there should be no suspicion, and as soon as suspicion occurs, it should be removed with awareness.

What happens when the daughters go off to college and parents begin to suspect their character? It only creates unhappiness! Children try to look for love from outsiders because they do not receive any at home, and consequently slip. This can be avoided by living with them as their friends and having love for them. However, if the daughter takes a wrong step, can you kick her out of the house? One must give protection with love and avoid losses! Caution in the beginning is welcome, but one should never be suspicious!

Where there is no suspicion, there is no unhappiness of any kind.

To have suspicion is the result of past karma, but to keep suspicion is not a result of past karma. That will cause worsening of one’s inner intent.

Suspicion is the greatest weakness; it kills the self.

If someone has suspicion about the Gnani Purush, the Gnani Purush will know everything and yet behave in a natural way as if nothing has happened. The Gnani does not have the slightest separation from the person who is suspicious about him. His inseparability, his oneness will only make the other person become free from suspicion.

It is better to slap someone than to suspect him, at least this way there is an instant solution but to suspect someone will eat you up day and night all the way to death.

Suspicious people can never succeed in any task. Success selects those who do not harbor suspicion. Suspicion is removed by remaining in a suspicion-less state, in the state of the Self.

Does anyone ever become suspicious about death? One quickly removes any suspicion there.

As long as the Gnani Purush is there to help, all kinds of suspicions can be resolved completely and thereafter there will be no obstacles in the path to liberation.

Having suspicion is double the loss. First, there is the direct suffering and secondly there is a loss (karmic) of seeing faults in the other person.

Akram Vignan says ‘You’ tell the one (your relative-self) who harbors suspicion ‘don’t suspect anyone’. The one who does the telling is separate from the one who has suspicions!

Can one give a car to a driver who has suspicions about getting into an accident? You should not be in the company of a suspicion-laden person at all; otherwise he will engulf you in suspicions too.

Those with suspicion get into trouble, that is the law of nature and those who do not listen to suspicion have no difficulties at all.

Why should one be consumed by suspicion in a world where even what is witnessed with one’s own eyes is proven wrong?

A single seed of suspicion will grow into an entire jungle! As we do in Algebra, we should just cross out suspicions. Finally, one should remove all suspicions by separating one’s Self from the one (relative-self) who suspects, by employing Gnan and by scolding and threatening the relative self.

When one suspects, suffering occurs right away. But, at the same time, a new seed is sown that will bring suffering even in the next life!

Suspicion is removed by doing proper pratikraman. One has to repent against suspicion. One should not become careless about it. The one who did the suspecting, the one who was in violation, should be made the doer of repenting.

After becoming the Self, if the mind shows disorderly things inside, how can we listen to it? All feelings of attachment are the qualities of the innate self, they are inanimate qualities, relative qualities; they are not the qualities of the pure Soul at all. You are the owner of infinite powers, how can anyone do anything to You? This fearlessness results in a state that is free of all suspicion.

It is necessary only to raise awareness against suspicion. The knower-seer state can only be maintained if there is awareness and consequently all suspicion is eradicated.

When someone suspects you, it is not unfounded. There is some fault on your part there. The fault may not have occurred now; it may be from the past, but only then would this happen. The world has never been outside the law of nature, not even for one second.

Only the Gnani Purush can create suspicion over illusory wrong knowledge (mithya-gnan). And that knowledge will be gone once there is suspicion about it. There is never any suspicion about real knowledge.

“Who am I?” One has never suspected or questioned his real identity or his state of being the owner of the name in any past lives. That is where one has to have suspicion. If suspicion is created about one’s own deep-rooted wrong beliefs, it is called the beginning of realization of the Self.

What is the Soul? What is it like? This kind of suspicion is most difficult to get rid of without the help of a Gnani Purush. Who is the owner of anger, pride, deceit, and greed? How is one to understand this? Only the Gnani can make us understand and help us be rid of them.

What is the Soul? What is it like? Life is to be spent thinking about this, not in the bedroom or cinema or hotels!!

When do all the different types of suspicions go away? They go away, when one becomes free from attachments (vitarag) and free from all fears.

Who has suspicion about the Soul? The Self does not have suspicions at all. Actually, the ‘relative self’ suspects the existence of the Self.

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