The End by Julia Do Prado, - -, - -, - - (reading in the dark .txt) 📕

My phone rang. It was him again. We had just seen each other a couple hours ago in school but he insisted to bring me dinner. Bacon pizza; how could I say no? He knew my favorite toppings. On his way home he called me, “Hey baby, I have a surprise for you”. My heart beat fast; his surprises were always the best.

I loved him for exact 4 months , 2 weeks, 3 days and 4 hours; I was sure he was the love of my life. On typical Tuesday nights he skipped classes to  visit me , kiss me and be with me. My certainty was that he loved me and wanted our relationship to work. However  all I wanted was to be free , live life and party with my friends, but he did not know- and I had no choice but to tell him. Guilt had been consuming me since Jesse’s party last month. Andrew was traveling and I felt the need to go and have a good time.But why, why did I go? Alcohol took over my blood and the next thing I saw was Jesse kissing my mouth. I couldn’t have felt worst.  

Andrew arrived and my heart felt joy. His green eyes and brown hair consumed my vision.My hunger suddenly vanished and I no longer cared about the pizza he carried. All I was thinking was about his innocent and loving personality, all the things he had done for  me in the past months and how I ruined it all.

I looked into his eyes and tears fell from my eyes; that is when I knew I could not fool him any longer, he deserved someone better than me. He threw the pizza on the floor and rushed to hug me. “What happened?” “Are you alright?” “Answer me!” he said screaming, his mind full of confusion and misunderstandings.The rose he was about to give me fell on the floor. My heart stopped and words from my mouth stuttered “I- I kissed Jesse”. I could feel his heart beating faster on his chest, I wish I couldn’t. He leaned on my shoulder and I could hear his sobbings; he cried like a baby. What I thought would last forever finally came to an end. He swiped the tears from his eyes and said nothing but stared at me for exact 3 minutes and 24 seconds. That was enough to destroy me. I had never felt such guilt; His eyes penetrated mine as I whispered “sorry”. “I loved you”, he said nothing else, turned his back and left. I leaned on the floor and could not cry any longer. As I cleaned the  pizza on the floor I felt a pointy metal on my foot. There was a ring, the surprise he had been telling me was a ring, a compromise ring, with which he was going to officially ask me to date him.

After 4 months

It was prom night and I was ready to forget Andrew. Jesse and I had plans, but i felt like i was starting to love him, and that was not good. We danced and partied all night just like I wanted to. After a couple of drinks we sat on the stairs and I told him about Andrew; Jesse promised it was worth it and that now he wouldn't leave me. He excused himself and went to the restroom. That was the moment I got his phone to call my mom and saw things I wish I did not. Messages I saw from 8 different girls completely destroyed me. It was all a lie and I realized I felt just the way Andrew did at that Tuesday night four months ago. All the feelings in the world hit me like a wrecking ball. I still loved Andrew but it was way too late now. I grabbed the tip of my long dress and ran back home. I learned the lesson, and realized I threw a real love away in the trashcan. I never again heard about Andrew;he moved to another school and changed his number. The only thing I know is that he was dating, and the lucky girl was not me.

Publication Date: 04-26-2016

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Dedication:
Dedicated to the ones the ones who don't realize the person they have by their sides.