She is the one by Asheslove (book recommendations for young adults txt) 📕

Maybe because I had past the stage of that fear already with him long ago. By living with him one thing I realized is that some people like him won't deserve to survive, is this why my guilt is tripping down of killing someone after seeing him taking lives mercilessly or maybe I believe my body and mind both suffered enough pain, fear and torture and gone too far now.

I took my pills after dinner and went to the library involving my mind in the book for sometime but when the clock passed 10, I got up and came to his room drifting off to sleep. 

I was waken up when cold water drops hit my face. I tried to brush it off but my eyes snapped open when I heard grunting sound and pain surged in my neck when Nicolas harshly bite and suck the point in my neck. He was lying down on me wearing only boxers. 

'Nicolas -

His hand came up in my scalp roughly and he captured my lips in a hard rough kiss.

His mouth came down nd latched on my Jaw, his hands roaming over my dress longingly and soon he shred the cloth apart from my body roughly tearing it. 

He never woke me up if I would be sleeping already not even when he tortured me in that one month stay. I stayed still, giving in to him already knowing fight will only take things downhill for me and he will not even think twice before hurting and beating me like earlier again. Tonight is going to be rough for me.

His hands pinched my nipples and mouth sucked; biting my jaw and neck skin making me shut my eyes and cry in pain.

'Open your fucking eyes Elena' his fuming deadly voice came and my heart sank down a bit when heard his raged tone. 

I obeyed and my eyes met with his blazing fire orbs, red in anger, void to hold any emotions frozen blue like ice and I am like how should I still be alive and living with this man.

'How many times I warned you for obeying me' he hissed and grabbed my hairs tightly in fist.

'How. Many. Fuckin. Times' he roared, his grip tightening, yanking my hairs more roughly making me cry out loud when pain surged in my scalp.

'Answer me damn it' he shouted on my face.

'Many times' I was able to say in a low voice squeezing my eyes in pain.

'Then why? why don't you fucking understand it in your fuckin head'.

'Nicolas pleases' I pleaded looking in his eyes.

'Then why don't you do as I say' he screamed, his loud fuming voice like raging bull scaring me nd the next second the back of his hand landed on cheek.

'Didn't I warned you not to left my side' he barked giving another slap to my other cheek. I whined, my lips trembled but didn't said anything, tears burning my eyes.

His grip started losing, lifting my head a little up from my hairs he captured my lips once again for a hard brushing kiss and he kept kissing, sucking and biting my lips till I become breathless.

He released my hairs giving a hard tug with my lips and when he did, I was panting hard.

His hand came down and clutched my neck tightly.

'From now onwards in any situation if I ever found you disobeying me again.' his hold on my neck tightening, choking my breath. I blinked twice to remove the water which was blurring my vision. 

His face came closer to mine, his hot raged breath fanning my face.

'If. I. Ever. Found. You. Disobeying. Me. Again. Elena. I will make you suck the dicks of my men in your pretty big mouth and after that cut each one of them in small pieces in front of your fucking eyes. This is a promise sweetheart'. His nails digging in my waist showing how serious he is. The water in my eyes become too much to control nd silent tears roll down my cheeks at the sides due to both choking and hearing his words. His each word sink like sharp draggers deep inside me piercing every fiber of my body, making me tremble in pure fear. 

'Do you understand?' He asked.

'Yes' I manage to speak in a low voice from my quaking lips.

'Yes what?' He shouted hitting my head on the pillow.

'Yes, I understand' I screamed loudly and my hands came up trying to release my neck by pulling and scratching his deadly grip.

'Good' he said releasing me with a wide smirk. I coughed and sucked the air to my lungs rubbing my burning neck.

He bites my earlobe. His hands travelled down squeezing my breasts and pinching my nipples before travelling more down and slipped inside my soaked panty. He pinched my clit and rubbing it mercilessly started fucking me furiously with his fingers. I let out a shameless moan when came hard on his fingers.

He removed my panty before his own boxers and flipped me around. Pulling my hips up he parted my legs more open as I was barely able to put my weight on my knees and pushing my head down on pillow he thrusted his full length inside me in one go. I gripped the sheets and cried loudly.

Holding my waist he started fucking me hard and rough sinking deeper in me. The pleasure started overbuilding inside me with his every hard thrust. My moans and cries turned louder which simply fulled him. 

He pulled his full length out of me abruptly and turned me around. Pulling my body lower he plunged himself inside me again and started moving.

I clutched the pillow from the sides and looked in his soulless orbs. I hate myself for liking this physical pleasure given by this monster. Its ridiculous that he fuck me roughly but still my body enjoys it. 

'Tell me you are mine' his voice came out calm but with hint of anger.

I ignored his request and closed my eyes enjoying the pleasure he was giving me nd also biting my lower lip trying to control my moans from arising.

'Open your fucking eyes and say you are mine' he said wrapping his hand around my neck and his movement stop instantly above me. I opened my eyes and with frustration looked at him.

'Just for once. Say you are mine Elena, just say it' he said giving a light squeeze to my neck but his voice sound desperate.