Our journey from engagement to marriage by Shipra Saini (surface ebook reader TXT) 📕

My eyes closed to the sudden kiss but I was shocked. My legs stumbled to the sudden kiss attack but he put his one hand on my waist to save me from falling and I clutched his shirt from sides to balance myself. He started moving his lips on me. I felt the same spark running my whole body and butterflies doing party in my stomach. my stomach churned in excitement but I don't wanted to feel it again. His touch is affecting my body and I am not supposed to feel that but for weird reason his touch affecting me.

I didn't kiss him back. My mind still in shock that it didn't recognize what is happening. He tilted his head and kissed me passionately.

Rain is started pouring heavily and making wet both of us. We both drenched in water in just a few seconds. My whole body is numb to push him back like someone tie my hands and injected me which make my whole body numb. He sucked drop on my lower lip. He take my lower lip between his teeth and pull them little and suck it to deep the kiss. It reminds me the night when he first time kiss me. It was raining that day too but the difference is that time he is only mine. My heart and mind accepted him wholeheartedly.

Light is shine in the sky and I heard a sound of clouds thunder which makes me come back to my senses. I raise my hand on his chest to push him but before I can push him he broke the kiss after giving me a last pack on my lips. We both breathing heavily try to catch up our breath.

"I miss this.." He caressed my cheek lovingly and looked at me with so much emotion like he want me with him emotionally. Tears welled up in my eyes but my mind still in shock. i can't process the whole thing what just happened here. After that he leave from there in his car.

I was standing there like a statue. Tears are falling from my eyes continuously. I don't understand why I didn't push him , why didn't I slap him when he kissed me. Should i be happy that he is not married or should I cry why he came back from my life after his betrayal. The clouds were thundering loudly then before and I came back to my senses. I turn and run from there tears are continuously falling from my eyes and I wiped them angrily because I know I still love him and I hate it.
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Whole night rain is pouring heavily and clouds were thundering dangerously. I can't sleep whole night and thinking about Siddharth. Why he didn't marry to that girl and if that was a lie then why he engaged to her? What happened to him two years back that he became like this.

Next day when I came to office, neither Siddharth nor I talked about last night.

We all are in a meeting room discussing about new project. Today I was sitting at the corner of the room at Siddharth's side. I don't want to go any close to him after yesterday's event. It's already hard to stay away from him and after yesterday's event it make my condition worst then before. I and Siddharth stealing gaze from eachother's in between the meeting.

I can't understand my own feelings. At one point I wanted to stay close to him and at the same time I wanted to run away from him, try to save myself from getting hurt again and again.

What Siddharth said yesterday is still echoing in my mind. Is that true I am always in his heart then what's the reason behind all the lies which he told me two years ago.

Siddharth got up from his sit after the meeting. He was discussing something to his manager while walking and I was following him behind, make a good distance between him and I.

I was sitting on desk summarizing some files when my phone start ringing.

Ring...ring

Ring...ring

"Hello.." I said after picking my call without looking at the caller I.d.

"Hello Preeti..are you busy?" I pulled my phone from my ear to check the caller I.d. and it's mummy.

"No mummy...I'm free. Tell me why you called." I said while still working on my computer.

"How are you..?" She asked me.

"I'm fine...how's everyone at home." I asked her.

"Everyone is fine here. I called you to ask you something important." She said.

"What..?" I said.

"Neha, malhotra's ji daughter is getting marry. So are you coming to attend her wedding." She asked me.

"I don't know mummy. I don't want to go anywhere." I said.

"Preeti..what is this. You didn't attend any family function from last two years. You didn't even attend Aditya's wedding. I didn't say anything because i can understand you need some time but this time I'm not gonna listen to you. Malhotra ji are closest friend and Neha is also your friend. You are coming, that's it." Mom yelled at me.

"Okey fine... fine..I'll come. Now stop yelling." I said try to calm her.

"There is something which I want to tell you." She said seriously.

"As you know Malhotra ji is also close to Kapoor's family. So Kapoor's are also there. Are you sure you will be Okey." She asked me concerned.

I know this is going to happened that's why I was avoiding Neha's wedding. How could i control myself in whole Kapoor's family. Many memories are attached to them. Is keerti still remember me. Meeting them in wedding is like rubbing a salt in fresh wound. But I have to do this. I have to be strong for my family.

"That's Okey..Now these things don't affect me much." I know i was telling a lie to mummy because every time I saw Siddharth, I realized, how hard to stay away from him. He affected me like he affected me two years back, may be more then before.

"Okey I will prepare your dress and everything for wedding." She said. After talking few more minutes we hung up.
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"Preeti didi, there are few mails for Siddharth sir." Vishal bhiya (peon) give me few envelopes for Siddharth.

"Okey I will give him when he will free. He is in meeting right now." I said while taking the envelopes from him.