Our journey from engagement to marriage by Shipra Saini (surface ebook reader TXT) 📕

My life is become more miserable than before. Sometimes I thought that, Do I really not deserve to be happy. What bad I have done to someone that I'm being punished like this.

I have nothing to gain and which I had, I already lost it. I am living far away from my family, so that they could live in respect in society which they lost just because of me. My fiance broke engagement with me just a week before of wedding. I lost my love. Wherever I go to found peace, I got molested everywhere. Do I provoke them that way?

May be I was thinking negative but the incident take place in my life make me think like that in this way.

I am not a strong person like my elder sister Shivani di, I'm a fragile one. Who needs someone to protect. But I am trying my best to be strong, to show the world the I am a tough person but I know this isn't me and I am just faking it. This thing is suffocating me. Sometimes I feel I am going to die and can't able to see the next sun. I am broken soul. I can't pretend to be strong if I am not.
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Siddharth didn't came out whole day from his office and ignore me like a plague. He didn't even look at me after that day. I felt so much hurt.

It's been a seven days when I last saw him. My heart is crying not to seeing him. He didn't even tell me where he went. I just came to know of my colleague that he went out of the city for a important project and came after 7 days. I felt a ping of hurt. Is that how much he hates me that he didn't even inform me that where he was going?

My phone started ringing. I was sitting in my balcony watching the small rain drops. I picked it up looking at Neha's name (malhotra's uncle daughter) displaying on phone screen.

"Hello..." I said after picking up the call.

"Hello..Preeti..How are you?" Neha said in her cheery voice.

"I'm fine you tell..how Mumbai treats you. " I said.

"It's amazing here. You should come one day." Neha said.

"No thankyou, I'm fine here where I am." I said while getting up from balcony.

"Okey..Let's forget all these things. I called you to tell you something important." She said.

"Okey... what" I said.

"I'm getting married." She said cheerfully.

"Congratulations...whose the lucky guy..?" I asked while sitting on my bed.

"His name is Dhruv. We met in a club and fell in love after two meetings." She said. I can imagine her smile when she was talking about her love.

"When is your wedding?" I asked.

"After three months and you are coming 10 days before of my wedding." She ordered.

"But...I can't.." I said in low voice.

It's been two years when I attend any kind of function. I'm not ready to face anyone and their taunts towards me. They haunted me and put my family in shame.

"Why..?" She said in a disappoint tone.

"You know why?" I said.

"Preeti if you can't change your atmosphere you will not be able to move on . It's been two years and now it's time to move on. I can't hear anything. You are coming and I don't want hear any excuses. If you will not come then forget about me. I will never talk to you."she said and before I could say anything she hung up.

I already have few friends and I also don't want to loose them. One day I have to come out from shell and face the world and there taunts. I have to learn how to fight back. But I am still afraid to face anyone for my family sake. I can't give them more trouble.

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Siddharth came this morning in the office and asked me for some files and his coffee through vishal bhiya (peon). Today his mood is different then previous day when I last saw him. May be he went to Newyork to meet his family and wife. May be his wife is living with him in India. My heart ach when I am not the reason behind his happiness. But my mind know this is the best for us. I should not come close to him.

It's already 8.45 p.m when my work done. I turn my head towards Siddharth's cabin. His office light is still on which indicates that he is still working.

Monsoon is take place completely in whole north India. Rain is falling every after four five days . Today Small raindrops is falling but not enough to wet me. I can tell with the sound of thunder that heavily rain is going to fall.

I should be hurry before it fall cat and dogs. I got up from my seat, take my handbag and walk towards the elevator.

I came out from the building and walk towards the bus stand. Today I was so late than other days. No one is standing on the bus stand. It's already dark and rain make it look more scary to me.

I was standing here for 20 minutes now, waiting for bus. But there is no sign of any bus and auto rickshaw. People who are going on street with there vehicle gave me wired look which I don't like and make me uncomfortable. I clutched the strap of my hand bag tightly.

Suddenly a black Lamborghini veneno stop few feets away from me and Siddharth got out from it.

What he is doing here?

He started walking towards me. He looked handsome in his rolled sleeves upto elbow, slightly untucked shirt and loosely hanging tie on his neck. He look like a model walking on a ramp in rain.

I turn my head from him and look in front of me.

"Come, I will drop you." My heart beat increase suddenly hearing his voice after very long time.

"No, I can go by myself." I said still looking in front of me.

"Stop being a child Preeti. It's not your hometown. It's Delhi and it's dangerous to be out here at this time and standing alone in rain." He said while grabbing my hand by my wrist.

"I can manage. You don't have to worry." I said while looking at him. I take back my hand from his grip.

What did he think of himself. When he want to talk to me he can and when he feel not like to talk to me he can ignore me. Now why He suddenly decided to talk to me after more then a month of ignoring me. I am not a trash which he threw after using it.