Making Circles by Vanessa Gilbert (summer beach reads .txt) 📕

dumped me,” he said.
“Aw I’m sorry,” I said smiling sincerely and sorrowfully.
He smiled and shrugged. “It’s not my fault that she couldn’t trust me,” he said.
I smiled and nodded. Wow this guy is…is…gorgeous…silver blue eyes…pale skin…red marks on his wrists? I starred at the marks for a minute or two before I heard him ask, “So, where are you heading?”
I looked up at him and blushed then said, “Um, I’m heading towards Enriched Language.”
“Mrs. Droison’s Enriched Language,” he asked.
“Um, yea,” I responded.
He smiled and asked, “Do you mind if I walk you over there?”
I blushed and smiled as I shook my head and said, “No I don’t mind.”
We began to make our way towards the class room, walking very close to each other and our hands sometimes touching. I looked over at him and was greeted by his bright silver blue eyes staring down at me. I blushed and looked at the ground feeling a smile tug at the corners of my mouth. “So, how has your day been,” He asked.
I looked up at him and felt the smile that tug at the corners of my mouth fade to just a distant memory that has long since past…do I have to tell him…can I lie…why do I feel the need to tell him? “Um, well to tell you the truth my day so far is…pretty…stupid,” I said.
“Why do you say that, what happened,” he asked.
With just those few words the memories of Carter and I last night…this morning raced through my mind…each one more painful than the last…each one more long lasting than the last. I sighed as I said, “My um…boyfriend…he dumped me.”
“Wow…that’s a coincidence,” he said.
I laughed and nodded…the laugh was a bit harsher than I wanted…and nod was a frantic one…maybe he didn’t notice. “I’m sorry, were you guys together for long,” he asked.
I nodded and said, “Yea actually we began to date kind of in the beginning of summer.”
“Wow, you and your ex are close to me and my ex’s time spent together,” he said.
“Really, how long where you guys together,” I asked.
“Oh about maybe…a year,” he said, looking up as if counting the days in his head.
“Wow…way longer than me and my ex,” I said.
He laughed and said, “Eh, close.”
I looked down at the ground and starred at the tile and then I looked up ahead and standing in a huge group was no one other than my ex best friends. I recognized each and every one of them…Susan, Vivian, Kasey, Katie, Maria, and Jessica. Each one of their faces played in my head…each one of their faces that night replayed in my head…each one…each one showed me how it was my fault…made me feel guilty. “Hey you okay,” I heard the guy ask.
I looked at him and nodded still a little stuck in the past as I said, “Uh yea just….thinking about something.”
He laughed and said, “Well how about we get in the class room before you start thinking so hard you stop everything. Hey what’s your name again?”
I cleared my throat and felt myself just wanting to run away and never look back. “Uh, Arien Fision,” I said.
As soon as I said it I regretted it. My group of “friends” looked back and each one of them had the face of it better not be that bitch. I could feel their burning hot, dagger eyes on me…burning me…hurting me. I wanted to scream and say, “It’s not my fault,” but I know they won’t believe me…they would never believe me.
“Look who it is, Miss Won’t save a friend in need,” Maria said turning fully around.
“You back stabber,” Katie and Kasey said.
I could feel the tears tugging at my eyes and I could feel the memories choking me…someone save me. “What the fuck is your deal,” the guy said.
I looked up at him in surprise just like the rest of the girls did. “You have nothing better to do than pick on some poor girl. Why don’t you girls go get a fucking life,” he said.
Jessica was the one to make a comment…something that I wasn’t surprised that she did but did make me want to hit her. Jessica walked a bit closer to him…close to me and said right to his face no hint of regret or thinking, “You know, whatever you’re sticking up for Arien for isn’t worth it…but maybe if you change now…we can make it worth your wild.”
Her hand had not only being on his chest…but now as trying to undo his pants pretty much. I glared at her and without even thinking the words slipped out, “Jessica stop being a whore and go fuck yourself like you do every night.”
Jessica snorted then just like that her and her friends circled back up and began to whisper, whisper….probably about me.
We went back to business making our way back to our first class. The door was close by so we really didn’t have to get angry over being distracted. We walked in and I could feel the same feeling I had last year when I walked into this classroom…joy…humor…sanctuary. We walked in and I picked my seat, sort of in the back kind of up front…mostly in the middle. The guy picked the seat right beside me and then sat down and patted the seat I choose inviting me to sit down and chill. I laughed and jumped over the seat he patted and sat on his desk. “Okay now I know you might not be used to the ways of the humans but we guys sometimes will use this opportunity to make a move.”
I laughed and whispered, “Maybe I want you to make a move.”
He smiled a devilish smile and said, “Maybe I will.”
I smiled and felt the blood rush to my cheeks…am I…dare I say it…flirting?
“So in any case what’s your name again,” I asked him.
He smiled and leaned in close, “Why should I tell you?”
“Maybe so I don’t keep wanting to say hey you,” I said.
He laughed a deep chuckle so deep I could feel it through the desk, and said, “Okay my name is Kyle.”
“Hi Kyle,” I laughed.

After several minutes of talking the bell rang and kids began to pile into the class room one by one. I watched the faces, putting a name to each face and remember what I put them under for my social life. Sasha, a girl that I talked to once in a while, Kasey, my ex best friend, Daisy, the prep of the class, people kept piling in one by one…I could barely keep up. I sighed and rested my head on the table waiting in loneliness while Kyle went up to the teacher and began to talk to her. “Arien,” I heard someone squeal. I looked up and running towards me was my friend Rose. Rose and I became friends around the time I became friends with everyone else, the seventh grade, and we became closer and closer every year. Rose has bleach blonde hair with raspberry pink highlights that, at the moment, was tied back up in a pony tail. She has bright green eyes, tan skin, and a perfect smile.
Rose has on her favorite grey shirt that has three hearts on it, the first one at the bottom and then the rest rising up, her favorite light blue skinny jeans, her green and white high tops, her grey hoodie, and around her neck was a silver locket. “Rose,” I called back.
Rose ran over to my side of the desk, wrapped her thin arms around me and squeezed me half to death. “Oh my god I missed you! How’s you and Carter,” she asked.
I felt the tears want to roll down. I could tell now that today wasn’t going to be my day. “We uh, broke up,” I said.
“When!?” Rose Screamed.
“Um, this morning,” I said remembering the event.
“Oh I’m so sorry,” she said squeezing me against her body again.
I shrugged, once I was free and could breathe again, and said, “its fine.”
Rose smiled once again and began to talk…and talk…and talk. I miss Rose yes and I missed talking to her…but now I remember why we kept in constant contact. Rose talked about her and her boyfriend Jeremy’s last fight, how he made it up to her, what their last date was, how things were going with them, how she wants to take their relationship to the next level…just on and on and on. Soon I wanted the talking to end…because soon I know…I know the dreaded question would come…the question of-“So what’s new with you,” Rose asked.
Spoke to late, I thought. “Um well you already know what’s new with me…Carter and I broke up and that’s the end of it.”
“There has to be more…what happened to make you guys break up,” she asked.
I blushed and said, “Well we…wanted to…you know…have…the commitment and well…we backed out and then…he got mad I forgot about what…and then he said something about if I loved him enough I’d stop him from walking out the door.”
The memory flashed back…brighter and cleaner than ever. I could feel everything…his hands…our bodies…the heat. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath, stop thinking about it…forget it. I opened my eyes and it was like reliving the nightmare…only thing was he wasn’t on me and we weren’t in a moment…also it wasn’t just us. Carter was leaning across my desk and looked me straight in the eyes. “Hey babe,” he said.
He leaned in and as he did I leaned back. “Why do you have to do that sweetie,” he asked.
“Oh now I’m your sweetie, your baby, what happened to you hating me and lying to me,” I asked.
“That was just words babe, you know I didn’t mean it,” He said.
“Those were some hurtful words,” I said.
“Babe I was just blowing smoke, you know how I am,” he said.
Of course I do, I thought.
Carter leaned back in and I still wouldn’t allow what he wanted…a kiss. He then caught me by surprise, acted like he was going to go one way then went the other way and got me right square on the lips. Carter grabbed my face as soon as our lips meet and held me there like a prisoner. I hit his chest and made sounds of disapproval and grunts letting who ever could hear know that I didn’t want this. Rose smiled and called out, “Aw you two.”
As soon as our lips weren’t touching I could feel the anger rush through my being…I wanted to hit him but before I could he laid another kiss on me. I blushed and let it go…maybe he was just joking…maybe he was just blowing steam and I need to let it go. Carter smiled at me then said, “We’ll talk about that stupid fight over lunch okay? Love you.”
And with that Carter left the class room and made his way to his class room. As soon as he left realization hit me…I had just brought back in the man that had ruined my life…what the hell was I thinking…what did I just get myself back into?

Chapter Five: Big Mistakes...No Resolutions