Making Circles by Vanessa Gilbert (summer beach reads .txt) 📕

my music. It was the tune from “Love is a Battlefield” by Pat Benatar. I smiled at the cute horse couple and as if my smile had open a door in my mind it hit me…Apple and Pie have to be in the barn when no one is home. I quickly unbuckled then threw myself out of the vehicle and ran up towards the barn. “Arien, what the hell,” I heard Carter yell after me.

I ran inside the barn then quickly walked over towards Pie and Apple’s stable, carefully slid in, unhooked the back door in their stable that leads out into the training arena, and then whistled for them to come over towards me. Apple starred at me with her beautiful diamond like eyes and began to make her way slowly over to me. Apple is a pure white Mustang with brown, red, and black mixed color strands of hair. Pie on the other hand is a brownish red Shire horse. His hair is pure black and his eyes are as brown as milk chocolate. Apple walked into the stable and not too far away from her was Pie. As soon as they were in the stable I shut the back door of the stable and locked it up tight. “Okay guys talk all you want,” I said as I squeezed out of the stable and locked everything up.

“What the hell Arien,” I heard Carter call as I completely locked the stable up.

I looked at Carter that was now stomping towards me in anger. “Carter, I had to-,” I began but was interrupted by Carter with a, “You had to ditch me, you had to run away.”

I sighed and glared at him as I said, “No, I had to lock up Apple and Pie so they don’t try and run away again like they did last time.”

Carter starred at me mouth hanging open as I pushed past him and walked out of the barn. I sighed in anger, who the hell does he think he is?! God, as if I’d need to just run away to ditch his sorry ass! All I’d have to say is, “I’m feeling sick,” or, “I don’t feel like it.” I opened the SUV passenger side door then threw myself inside and buckled myself up. Even though I’m still pissed at him and will be for a while now but that doesn’t mean I have to ignore Rose to. I watched as Carter walked slowly back over to the SUV. I hope when he sees that I’m still going even after he made an ass of himself he’ll apologize. Carter stopped walking and starred at the SUV in surprise. I glared at him for a few more moments then turned my head so I stared straight ahead out of the windshield. I’m still pissed so I’ll show him that. I kept starring out straight ahead ignoring my surroundings that is until I heard a knock on my window. I looked and not only did Carter tap on my window but now he was opening my door. “Carter, what the hell, shut my door and let’s get-,” before I could finish the sentence Carter leaned in and planted a kiss right on my lips.

I tensed up and tried to pull myself away from him but felt his arms tighten around my waist. I wanted to scream...to shout for help…to yell at him to stop kissing me but if I open my mouth he might stick his tongue down my throat. I raised my arms and began to push his body away from mine but all it did was weaken me more and made him tighten his grip on me. Why the hell can’t I fight back? I mean I don’t want this; I don’t want him kissing me, and touching me. I tightened my hand into a fist and hit his chest as hard as I could but that did nothing. I felt his hand graze my thigh and my hip and just like that I heard the click of my seat belt being unlocked. Fear crept up inside me and soon pure terror filled my every being when I felt the belt move off of my body and a cold hand begin to touch me….in places I’d reserved for after high school or marriage. “Carter stop,” I said against Carter’s lips.

Carter didn’t hear me or wasn’t listening and began to touch me more and more. I began to struggle kicking and moving forcing his grip to slip and his hand to retreat back around my waist. Okay well got him to stop touching me there now I have to get him to just stop holding and kissing me and just to drive me to where ever Rose is meeting up with us. I raised my hands again and pressed them against his chest then lifted one of my legs and began to push against his body. I pushed harder and harder till finally Carter lost his grip and fell backwards onto my door. Carter glared down at me, his jaw tensed up, and his eyes filled with anger. “You said you loved me,” Carter said bitterly.

“I do love you Carter but I’m not going to lose my virginity out in the opening, in your car, and barely a few feet from my house,” I said strongly.

“No, if you did love me you wouldn’t care where we are just that we’re together,” Carter said.

I sighed in frustration and threw my head into my hands. “Carter, you can’t keep doing this. When I’m ready we will but until then you can’t push me to do anything,” I said to Carter, my face still covered by my hands.

Carter keeps doing this, keeps saying that if I love him then we will…do it but….I’m not ready and I don’t think I will be anytime soon. Carter sighed in frustration as well and said, “Fine.”

Carter shut my door in anger then walked in front of the SUV to the driver side door looking more pissed off than anything. I sighed, re-buckled myself back in and sat there in silence and waited for Carter to start driving. I heard Carter open the driver side and get in and let out a sigh. I kept my gaze straight ahead, not moving an inch at his sigh or at his slamming his car side door in anger. I heard him plug in his key in the ignition and not even a minute later the car roared to life. I nestled back in my seat, my gaze still straight ahead, and my eyes fluttering to stay open. Can’t sleep, can’t sleep, I told myself. Who knows what Carter will do to me if I’m asleep. I felt my eyes close and then the sound of a car door opening made me jump awake. Carter was suddenly not in his seat and was over on my side of the car and opening my door.

I opened my eyes wide and looked to see where we were. I saw the sign for the skate park pointing to a vet’s business building, and beside the vet’s business is a fire station, and on the other side of the road next to the vet’s business was bunches and bunches of houses. I stared out the windshield at the surroundings and jump when I heard Carter say, “Hey sleepy you’re awake.”

I looked at him confused and still dazed from sleep. I fell asleep…and he did nothing…thank god. “Um, yea,” I said to Carter.

Carter leaned over me, clicked the red button for my seat belt, and then redrew it across my body. I starred at Carter remembering what he did to me before we even left the driveway of my house. Carter wrapped one of his arms around my waist and the other under my knees and gentle pulled out of my seat and away from the car. I wrapped my arms around Carter’s neck and starred at him, waiting for this sweet Carter to disappear and for the sex crazed Carter to reappear and destroy this moment. Carter walked me over to one of the benches in front of the Vet business and gently sat me down. The Vet business on the outside was pretty old looking. It had a moral of the dessert painted on its walls and at the very top writing in gold paint it read, “Sandy’s Pets.”

My mom actually went to school with Sandy and I actually sold Sandy a pig when I was showing. I sighed at the building remember all the stuff I went through each time I walked through those stupid wood doors. “Arien, I’m gonna go park the car okay? You just stay here and I’ll be back as soon as I can,” Carter said slowly.

I stared at him for a moment then nodded slowly. Does he think I’m retarded or something? He’s baby talking me again. Carter slowly backed away from me as if though I was going to fallow him like a obedient little dog. I sighed and got comfortable on the bench waiting for him to just hurry up and get in the car. Carter finally made it to the car and slowly pulled away and made his way towards where he can park his car no problem. I sat and starred at the freeway across the paved road and watched as cars buzzed by. I pushed off of the bench then went behind the building towards the park. As soon as I turned the corner I saw something fishy. There was a huge group at the very back of the skate park where the benches are. I starred at the group and watched as each one of the huddled together and talked very low. I slowly made my way down towards the benches moving by baby steps making sure that they didn’t notice me.

I kept walking then stopped half way down realizing that my grandma, my mom, my dad, my grandpa, my uncle, and a few of our friends were all down there. I starred at them questioning their reasons to be here and saw Carter walk in the skate park through the gate entrance and towards the group. This is why he babied me, he didn’t want me to see! Oh god, he looks like his coming back over to the front of the building. I quickly turned around and made a mad dash back to the bench then sat back down and waited for him to come get me. I wonder what the occasion is. I mean nothing big has happened recently, well besides the whole me and Carter getting back together thing. I sighed and looked up at the sky and watched as the clouds slowly floated by. The clouds look so fake to me now, when I was younger they looked realer and better now they look like someone just painted them there or something they look so fake.

“Uh, Arien babe, will you come with me,” I heard Carter’s voice say.

I looked and Carter had half of his body sticking out by the corner of the building and he had a “I’m not hiding anything” smile. I sighed and rolled my eyes at his “calm” exterior.  Well if I hadn’t looked then I would have known either way from his smile. I plastered on a fake smile, got up from my seat and walked over towards Carter. Carter outstretched one of his hands waiting for my hand to slowly fall into his. I gentle placed my hand into his and moved my feet as he began to lead me down towards the benches. Okay Arien, take a deep breath and get ready to do some series acting. The big group was still huddling and still looking deep in thought. We approached slowly and as soon as we got down to them they spun around and called out, “Surprise!”

I quickly threw my “Oh my gosh” face and yelled out, “Oh, wow this is a