Our journey from engagement to marriage by Shipra Saini (surface ebook reader TXT) 📕

I don't what happened in future with us, we become one or not but i will only be his.

I also know i don't deserve him. He deserves batter than me. With whom he will share his sorrows, happiness. Who can love him more then anything in this world.

Our gaze broke with a round of applause.

Siddharth and I looked here and there except each other. He run his finger in his perfectly gelled hair. I also took a deep breath to control my unshed tears.

If I stay here one more minute my tears will betray me. I put the mice on nearest table and leave from there.
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When People thinks that their love us just one step away from them but when they cover that step to reach their love, their love take one step back and this is same is happening with me.

I was at a terrace sitting on a couch looking at the halfmoon in the sky. I don't know how long i was sitting here looking at the sky. But i know it's past midnight now.

Life is such a player and fate is her best friend. If a person disappoint any of them they will ruin you. This is happening same with me. When i think I can be happy with my love my fate played a game with me and push me far to my love and i don't know what o have done to disappoint them.

Are they try to telling me that i don't deserve to be love. It is true though, i don't deserve him. His love his pity, nothing.

I lowered my head and looked at henna mehndi in my hand. His name is written at the below of my ring finger which i write myself hiding from everyone. I don't know why i did this but i wanted to write his name on my hand. A lone tear fell from my right eye and drop into my hand. My vision get blurry due to my unshed tears. I sniffed and wiped my tears with the back of my hand.

"It's beautiful.." i turned to the voice. Siddharth is sitting beside me on the couch and he is looking at the moon.
He changed into black t-shirt with dark jeans.

He turned his face to me and looked at me. Our eyes met and he is looking at me with concern. Our gaze locked to each other and we both can see into each other's souls.

I averted my gaze back to moon. He shifted little and sit closed to me. We both sit there silently for sometime. None of us said anything.

"I know something is bothering you and it hurt you from inside." He said while breaking the silence between us. I can feel his gaze on me.

I slowly put my head on his shoulder while looking at in front of me. How could he know me so well. I put his hand around my shoulder and pull me closer to me.

"When you leave me two years ago there is always a heaviness in my heart like someone put a heavy stone on it. Today i am feeling the same." I said while looking at the front exactly nowhere.

"I am here now baby..and i am not going leave your side this time. Never..ever.." he said and kissed on my head. I closed my eyes and lean to his kiss.

I opened my eyes and he rest his cheek on my head.

"Why love is so difficult Siddharth. Why we can't get our love easily?" I asked him.

"Who got their love easily they don't know the value of love." He said while playing with my bangles with his other hand.

"Why do you love me Siddharth. I am just an ordinary girl." I asked him.

"You are not ordinary girl. Everything about you is special and i don't fell for ordinary girls. So never think about yourself that you are ordinary." He said while rubbing his cheeks slowly on my head.

"I always want to be an housewife. Who cooked breakfast for her husband. Give his wallet and watch when he forget them in a hurry. Who wait for him whole day to return from his office, cooked dinner for him and sleep under his arms. They have two kids and both are looking like their handsome father. Is that make me low Siddharth? Is that all make me out fashioned? Do you want to this type of girl." I asked him looking at front.

"I will die to marry such girl who will cook for me and wait for me whole day to come from office and when i came from office all tired, she served dinner to me from her beautiful hands and asked me about my day." 
He said while looking at henna in my hands.

"I am tired now to be strong for everyone when i know i was weak from inside. I just wanted to be me. I don't want to do anything which i don't want." I whispered.

"You don't have to be baby. I got you now. You can do anything you want. No one gonna force you." He said.

I closed my eyes and leaned more to his shoulder.

"You written my name on your hand with henna." He said with a smile on his face looking at his name on my hand.

"It's late now..we should sleep." I said while pulling myself off from his shoulder and started to got up but he held my hand.

"First eat..you didn't eat anything in whole day. You must be hungry." He said while take a plate full of food from beside table which i didn't notice before.

He took a morsel of chapati after dipping it in a curry he make me eat the morsel.

I never thought god hear my this wish that soon. My love is feeding me when my hand is full of henna. Tears started burning at the back of my eyes. We both sit there in silence when he is feeding.

After feeding me he put the plate aside and wiped my mouth with tissue.

"If you want to share anything, you know i am always here for you." He said while caressing my cheeks with his thumb.

I lowered my head nodded. He pulled my head to him and kissed me on my forehead. I closed my eyes. He moved further and kissed on my both eyes then he kissed me on my left cheek after that he moved to my right cheek and kissed me on there.

He stopped in front of my lips. Our nose are touched each other i can feel his hot breath on my lips. He leaned more, i clutched his shirt from sides tightly when his lips touched mine.

He started move his lips slowly on mine. He took my full lips between his and kissed them. His hands found his way to my waist and caressed them. I leaned to his kiss tears are falling from my eyes when i find my peace in his kiss but Riki's words are echoing in my mind.