Our journey from engagement to marriage by Shipra Saini (surface ebook reader TXT) 📕

You don't deserve him...

He is pitty on you...

He doesn't have trust on you..

He never share his thoughts with you..

You don't deserve....

I put my hand on his chest.

"Stop..." i said while putting my both hands on his chest telling him to stop.

"What happened...? Are you alright..?"
He asked me cupping my face and looked at me worriedly.

"I'm sorry i can't.." i got from the couch and run towards the door.

"Preeti...." I heard him calling me but i didn't stop.

I put my hand on my mouth to suppress my sob. Tears are falling from my eyes continuously and i brok into a sobs.
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Next day at evening Neha's wedding

Today is Neha's wedding and after today everyone go their own way. I didn't see Siddharth since morning. I am ignoring him as much as i can. I don't want to have any false hope in my heart when i know we both don't have any future together.

The moments we share after our separation were one of the most beautiful memories of my life. They gave me hope that we could be one together but riki's words opened my eyes. She is true i don't deserve to be stand beside him.

"Preeti...how am i looking?" Neha said while turning to my side with a wide smile on her face.

"You are looking most beautiful bride in the world." I said while adjusting her dupatta on her shoulder.

"Everyone is ready and you are still roaming around in your anarkali. When will you get ready. Go fast..get ready before barat will come." She said while pushing me out her room.

"Okey...okey..fine i'll go." I said and raised my bath hand as surrender.

I went to my room and got ready in my red lehnga which mummy forced me to bought. I wore my red heavy jhumka and matching bangles. I let my hair open and slightly curl them from bottom. I painted my lips with red lipstick which are highlighted my makeup and tucked my dupatta on my both shoulders.


 

(Preeti tucked her dupatta like this)

By the time i got ready barat had come. So fastly i adjust my hair and walked out from my room.

"Preeti...beta please take Neha to mandap. Pandit ji (priest) is calling for her." Ritu aunty said to me hurriedly when she is climbing down from the stairs.

I nodded my head and went to Neha's room.

"Neha..It's time to go to mandap." I said while walking into the room. She is sitting with her friends and cousins.

She nodded her head and got up from the bed. Her brothers are also come into her room to take her to garden where the mandap is.

We all take Neha to the garden. I can hear the song playing of bride's entry. My heart beat is also increasing because i am going to see him after hours.

As we enter the garden all eyes are turned to us but i can feel his heated gaze on me. I slowly turned my head to him and his eyes are only fixing on me. His eyes moved on me from my head to toe like scanning me to save my photo in his mind.

He is wearing a black tux along with black shirt. His upper two button is open showing his muscular chest. He is looking most handsome in all over the wedding. Even he is looking handsome than Dhruv, who is groom.


 

Our eyes met to each other and we both looking at each other with lots of emotions in our eyes. I can see so many unspoken questions in his eyes. I can see the longing in his eyes. But I was doing all of this for his own good. We can't become one. He deserves better than me whom he can trust with, who deserves him more than me.

I felt tears are burning at the back of my eyes. Before they can come on the surface i averted my gaze from him.

After making Neha sit beside Dhruv on mandap i stepped down from the mandap and stand beside keerti and Puja. Neha and Dhruv both looking at each other with a smile on their face when pandit ji (priest) is chanting mantra.

Neha is lucky she is marrying with her life. Dhruv intertwined his fingers with Neha while saying vows after pandit ji.

I looked at Siddharth. His eyes are also focused on them but he is looking lost, deep in thoughts.

His chain of thoughts broke when his phone is started ringing. He took out his phone from his pocket and checked the caller Id.

He walked inside the house while looking at his ringing phone.

Wedding is taking progress with Neha and Dhruv started exchanging the vows.

Suddenly my eyes fell on the Riki who is walking inside the house. She gave me her hateful look and walked it inside. I didn't give her much attention. It's better i stay away from her and didn't give her a chance to spoil my mood which she already did yesterday.

"Preeti beta will you bring toe rings in Neha's room. I forgot them to put them with other things and Neha need them after some time." Ritu aunty came to me and asked me.

"It's okey aunty I'll bring them." I give her a smile and walked to inside the house.

Whole house was empty only few ladies and men are there who's are talking to each other's loudly. I didn't see Siddharth almost half an hour now. May be his call went long.

Few kids bumped to me when they are playing. I giggled and walked towards Neha's room.

After reaching her room I twisted the door knob I opened the room but i regretted at the same time and wishing that I didn't witness this horoball seen. Floor is slipped under my feet.

Fat tears are started falling from my eyes. My legs are ready to betray me. I hold the door with my both hands to support my weak form. Riki is kissing on Siddharth's lips. Siddharth's are closed and he has holding his phone on his ear.

I felt suffocated. I can't take a breath. I feel a sudden pain on my chest. I stumbled on my feet and set at the door jamb. Siddharth's eyes fell on me and he pushed away Riki immediately. Riki have a dirty smirk on her face looking at me.