Our journey from engagement to marriage by Shipra Saini (surface ebook reader TXT) 📕

Preeti's point of view

When your heart and mind fighting on different things, when your heart telling you to hold him but your mind stopping you to do, you wanted to listen you heart but your mind pushing you away from it that time blankness fell over your heart and mind and started feeling depressed and this is what i am feeling right now.

I know what i am doing to him right now is wrong but what the relationship means when you hide things with each other.

But he did this for you..because he love you.

I know..

I looked at the new married couple who are taking blessings from elders.
I was standing beside keerti near the mandap when Siddharth came and stand opposite to me on the other side of the mandap. He looked at me intensively. His face looked blank but i can see many emotions in his eyes. Tears fell from my eyes immediately, looking at him so i averted my gaze from him while wiping my tears.

"What happened bhabhi.." keerti asked me with concern.

I give her a small smile and shake my head as 'no'.

I looked back at Siddharth but he was not there. I looked here and there to search him but my eyes could not find him.

"Preeti..took new wadded couple inside the house." My said to me.

I give her a short nod and started walking beside Neha to go inside the house. Everyone was following us from behind.

"Preeti..."

We were walked only few steps from mandap when someone shouted my name.

Everyone stopped on their steps and turned to the voice. My steps halted in place and my heart beats fast inside my rib cage, when i heard his voice.

I turned slowly to him and met his eyes. His eyes are fixed on me and he is walking towards me slowly. Everyone started moving aside by making a way for him.

"I never kind of a person who fell in love easily." He said wile walking towards me and stop 10 steps away from me.

"It was not because i had not trust in love it was because i never thought that soon. I fell in love with this girl when i first saw her and i know from that time that she is the one for me. I fell for her innocence, ber nature and most importantly her pure heart."

I looked at him with my teary eyes and i saw a layer of tears in his eyes.

"Our fate played with us and I failed us. I failed our love. I thought staying you away from my messy life, I gave you happiness but i never thought It broke you from inside. I never realized you love me that much that you stop living your life. You said you don't deserve me but the truth is i don't deserve you."

I loud sob escaped from my mouth and i broke into tears.

His eyes were glistening due to the unshaded tears and i saw love in his eyes for me. He started walking towards me slowly. I bowed my head and started crying. Fat tears are continuously falling from my eyes.

He stopped and stand closed to me that i can feel his body's warmth.

He put his one hand on my waist and another one on my cheeks.

"I know i don't deserve you but I want you in my life so i can make myself deserving for you. I know when god tested our love I behaved like an asshole and hurt you in a way." He whispered while wiping my tears with his thumb and creased my cheeks.

Fresh stream of tears escaped from my eyes.

He put his hand at the back of my head and touched our foreheads.

"Never say that you don't deserve me because you are the most beautiful thing happen to me in my life." Tears fell from his own eyes.

"I love you so much..Please don't leave me. I will die without you. Marry me Preeti." He choked out.

My body started shaking due to my weeping. I started cry badly.

He took a deep breath to calm himself and pulled away little. He make me look at him by raising my chin little and cupped my cheeks with his hands.

I looked at him with my teary eyes.

"Let's get married..."

"Right now...right here.." he said while looking at me with confidence and love in his eyes.

"Keerti bring vermillion from mandap." Shivani di said while holding me by my both shoulders.

I didn't realize when she came and stand beside me.

"Ji...shivani di.." keerti replied to her.

I looked at my family, Anit uncle and Neeta maa they have a smile on there face. Neeta maa had tears in her eyes and she looked I and Siddharth motherly. I turned my gaze to mummy and she nodded her head to me. She had tears in her eyes.

At last my eyes met to him. He is looking at me with most love. I saw longing in his eyes for me.

If I was in his place I'll do the same. He hide things because he love me and I deserve him more than anyone.

He need me, i need him. I need him as much as he need me. We both craving for each other's love. It's time to heal our heart with love.

I know i wasn't with him when he was alone but I wanted to be with him forever. I wanted face our up down with him and when he need me I will be standing beside him as his wife.

We both incomplete without each other and I wanted to complete our souls to be with him forever. We both are made for eachother. No one can separate our souls, not even death.

"Bhayi..." keerti said while forwarding a small vermillion box towards him.

Shivani di stepped back from me giving Siddharth and I are own space.

I looked at Siddharth with my teary eyes. My eyelashes are wet in tears and they have a stuck tears in them making them heavy.

We both looked at each other without a blink. Having our loving conversation through our heart. Atlast he averted his gaze from me and looked at the small box of vermillion in Keerti's hand.

Siddharth took a small pinch of vermillion from the small box. He looked at me lovingly and i was looking at him without a blink. My eyes are filled with unshaded tears.

He raised his hand towards my head. Before filling the partition of my hair he looked at me like asking my permission. I just looked at him with love. It's like he read me through my eyes and filled the partition of my hair with vermillion.