A special relationship!? by Ashley Love (summer reading list TXT) 📕

lied and didn’t talk to you, but your cousin is my neighbor and she and my ex are BFF’s, so since I hadn’t broken up with her officially, I had to pretend. I know you are angry, probably want to kill me, but I hope you can forgive me.” it stated. Since I knew what he texted my cousin I doubted that he really is just pretending. But I decided to play along. “Yes it was a huge surprise. I just don’t get why you lied to me, but ok. Since my friend likes to sleep in, I wanted to ask if you want to meet tomorrow morning to start the day together.” I replied. It didn’t take long till his text came back. “I’d love to! But I’m invited to a birthday party and I have to be early, to help preparing. Sorry.” Again I was angry. I desperately wanted to meet him, just to talk things over. But it seems that he doesn’t. Revenge... Oh sweet revenge

Since his texts over the following days got less personal and also less in number, it was clear to me that he just wasn’t interested in me anymore. So I decided to get in contact with his girlfriend. “Hey aren’t you the neighbor and friend from my cousin J?” I asked. “Yes I am. And I’m also C’s girlfriend.” she responded. I was stunned. Why on earth would she say something like that? Was it possible that she knows about me? “Why do you mention C? Did he tell you that we texted?” I asked. “Sure. I know that you text, just as he does with others too.” she replied. “But if you don’t mind me asking, what do you guys talk about?” she asked. Now it dawned me. So she knows that he talks to other girls, but not more. So I still had my chance of revenge. “Well we talked about many things, but I want to be honest with you. We also met once.” I explained. “When was that?” she asked. “Thursday two weeks ago, around 4 p.m.” I replied. “He told me he was meeting with a coworker!” she replied angry. “Why can’t he be honest with me?” followed soon after. I began to feel sorry for her, so I decided to tell her everything that happened, but without certain details. “Ok, now I’m angry. Just a sec. I’ll ask him right away!” she replied. “What I would give right now just to be a fly on their wall!” I thought. “It took him some time, but he confessed.” she texted some time later. “Did he say why he did this?” I asked. “No. He doesn’t know why.” was all she said. Now I just wanted his explanation and move on with it, so I texted him. “All I want to know, is why? Why did you have to lie? Was there any feeling for me or was I just a toy to you?” I asked. But he never replied. A view days later I wrote my final text. “Ok I see. No answer is also an answer. Thanks for having the balls to tell me! You are just another proof that most men just want one thing! If you still want to explain yourself go ahead, I’ll listen, but don’t expect me to text you ever again!” Also here no reply. Interestingly his girlfriend continued texting with me and even wanted to meet. I refused, not because I was afraid of her, but because I expected him to be there too.

Days passed by and I was on my way to our annual family get-together in connection with the city fair. As we were watching the parade, I got a text from his girlfriend. “Whatcha doin?” she asked. “Watching the parade” I answered. “Are you in T?” she dug deeper. “Yes, why?” I replied. “Why didn’t you say so? We are going to the fair later, wanna meet?” Actually I had this strange gut feeling that this would happen, but I still didn’t want to meet, especially now that I know that he will be there. “Were gonna have some coffee first, I don’t know when the kids want to go. But we’ll see” I replied, hoping we wouldn’t meet. But Luck was not on my side. My niece, my siblings and I just left the bumper car, as he and his girlfriend passed by. Of course he had to see me! He smiled at me, just like nothing had happened. Stupid me smiled back as he passed by. It seemed that his girlfriend didn’t notice anything, which I was happy about. So there we were, standing meters apart, secretly casting glances at each other. As we walked up towards them, I was thinking on passing by, pretending not to see them, but I decided not to. “I have to say hi to someone. You go ahead I’ll follow.” As I was talking to my brothers, I heard him telling her, “Look, she’s gonna pass by” but as I turned around, walking up to them I heard him whisper, “Or not”. “Hi there” I greeted both. “Nice to finally meet you.” she greeted back. Totally ignoring him, I talked with her about anything and everything, just not the relationship between them or what happened between him and me. As soon as he was gone for a view minutes, she changed the subject. “You know, he confessed really quickly. He promised never to cheat on me again.” then she came closer and whispered, “But if he does, he knows what he’s in for (what is going to happen to him).” I laughed. “If you need help, I’ve got a baseball bat at home, I’ll come over.” she joined my laughter. “Was really nice meeting you, we definitely have to stay in contact. But I gotta go now, he’s waiting.” she said and left. I searched the crowd for my brothers and joined them again. Though we didn’t meet again that day, I noticed that he was always close by and watched me, just as I secretly glanced at him. As I drove back home, my thoughts were centered on what happened today. “Does his secretly starring mean something? What is his girlfriend thinking? Are they both in it together?” These thoughts kept popping up in my mind.

Are you kidding me? This is how it ends?

 A couple of days later I received a text from him. Surprised and also accordingly curios I opened the message. It was some stupid chain letter about friendship and who you don’t want to miss in your life. I was angry. “Are you kidding me? No explanation, no apology and now this? Is there anything you want to tell me?” I replied. “Sorry. Wasn’t meant for you. I just send it by accident.” he answered. “Accident my ass” I thought. “Seriously. What is it? What do you want from me?” I asked. “I don’t want anything anymore.” was his answer. Again he left me angry and confused. Since I had to move on somehow, I decided to ignore what happened, but easier said than done. So one day I decided to apologize to him. So I texted him, “ Although it was short, it was enough. Way too fast did I fall in love, just to get hurt. You made me to want revenge, for the first time. How I wish things would have ended differently, or we at least would have talked about it. Nevertheless I have to move on, not knowing why you did what you did. So to be able to move on, I want to apologize for all the bad things I have done to you. SORRY” I didn’t take long till his response came: “I have done these bad things to you! I should be the one saying sorry. SORRY that I have hurt you.” I was stunned. Did he just apologize? Hoping this would be the chance to talk things over I continued texting him. “Thx for the apology. Although I’m still angry and hurt I will remember the fund memories of you.” “I will too. To be honest I fell in love with you too.” was his response. Now I was really confused! If he really loves me why would he have done these things? “Why did you then lie to me? I would have been Ok if you had told me that you still live with your ex but you're moving out soon." I asked. “I don’t know. But I’m really sorry. I hope you’ll soon find your true Mr. Right. Love C" was his last response. Although I felt like crying, I was relieved. Now I finally could move on! I just regretted one thing: That I didn't slap him across his face, when I had the chance to!

This is how I moved on

The following days and weeks were like an emotional rollercoaster. On the one hand I was relieved to know why things between us ended, but on the other side I was missing him so deeply. During the times I was angry, I listened to a song that gave me some really stupid ideas. I seriously was thinking of paying him a surprise visit, making him jealous and I even thought about smashing his car! But I would never do the latter. So to snap out of it, I decided to take a trip to M. I spend a whole week there and it was just awesome. I was sightseeing, shopping and visited some friends. This is when it happened. A friend of mine organized a party with all her friends nearby so I could meet new people. “Hey, I’m S. Nice to meet you.” a guy, about my age