Sweet Secret by Karina Castillo (Bekacastle) (recommended books to read .txt) 📕

Dear diary, I'm falling in love with Denzel Derricks, and sadly I haven't told Joe...

I closed the diary and leaned my head against the tree.

That night after doing it with Denzel I ended up crying in a corner of my room, after taking a shower and after the light dinner I made because my stomach had turned upside down. Was this how it felt to be in love and nervous?

I took out a headache pill and took a sip of juice.

This is what you make me do, Denzel Derricks.

"Hey, Rebecca." Old Rebecca would have freaked out at the sight of him and died of a heart attack, but when I saw Jayden Foster I just felt calm. “You still remember me?”

I nodded, I squeezed the diary in my hands, I wanted to hide it, but it didn't give me time, and by then I had already noticed.

"I just came to tell you that nothing is going to happen between us." I bit the inside of my lip and raised my eyebrows. Has he become a complete idiot?

“I don't want anything with you, Jayden.” and so it was, the new Rebecca was in love with someone else.

"That's not what your diary says." I rolled my eyes irritably, but he still continued. “You shouldn't be sleeping with Derricks while you're having a thing with Joe.”

He's a fucking idiot!

“That's none of your business, Jayden.” I grabbed my things and stood up, but he went after me.

"By the way, you better run or your two boyfriends are going to beat each other up now that they're back at school." he finally commented.

I clutched my backpack to my shoulder and started running with the journal still in my hands.

I had completely forgotten, it was already Monday.

Room 101, nothing. Hallways, nothing. Bathroom, nothing. Wait to?! Why did I search the bathrooms?!

If any boy saw me, I would humiliate myself again.

Stupid new Rebecca distracted.

There was only one place I could think of, and that was where it all started.

When I got to the gym the boys were playing lightly, I stopped shaking and saw Denzel throwing the ball, the boys on his team cheered and then I saw him adjust his curly hair; And when I least expected it, our eyes met.

The images of everything that had happened several days ago crossed my mind, if I saw myself in a mirror right now I would say that I am blushing.

I can't keep kidding myself, I'm falling in love with him.

"Hi," he leaned closer, his voice so husky it worried me. 

Would he have gotten sick?

I didn't say anything, I didn't really want to say anything to him, I wasn't ready to face this...

"What's wrong, Rebecca?” I turned around and ran away from that place. I could not stand it.

The nerves were submerging me, I felt too strange, I felt that what I had done with him was very, VERY wrong...

"Rebecca." I bumped into Joe, he looked completely improved. “I'm back, pretty, why are you running away?”

Because I slept with your worst enemy.

"Hey Joe, I... I was actually looking for Anne, is she around?" I hid the diary behind me.

“It is in the library.” answered.

"Thanks, I need to go find her."

"Wait, don't eat cravings." He took my arm gently. “I want to talk to you about something.”

"I have something to talk to you about, too, Joe."

“Come on, let's talk, Rebecca.” We took a seat on a nearby bench, and he began. “I want to confess that I've been seeing another girl, her name is Megan, but I'm sure nothing happened between us, we just finished something we had a long time ago, we left it behind, and I must tell you that now I will be all yours.”

Joe locked my hands in his.

Tell him, Rebecca.
“I haven't been honest with you, Joe.” I moved my hands away. “I want to take some time.”

"And why is that, pretty? Have I done something wrong?

“On the contrary, I am the one who has done something wrong.” I corrected, dropping my shoulders and waiting for her response.

“Okay, I get it, Rebecca. I know I haven't been there for you, I haven't been the boyfriend you expected me to be... Everything happened so fast that we didn't have time to get to know each other. I saw you and thought you were cute.” Joe touched my face. “I thought no matter what everyone said about you, I thought you were so cute that I should be your protector…”

Oh Joe, you really are too sweet.

"Just promise me something, Rebecca Eyre," I listened carefully. “You're going to one last party with me, and then I'll stop bothering you.”

(...)

Damn clandestine parties. I don't know why I agreed to come to this dark cellar.

I put on my best clothes, even though they were demeaning compared to other girls' outfits. Falling from Deorro began to play, and the couples mingled with each other. It was a neon party, Joe disappeared to get drinks and I stayed with Anne, who watched the guy doing the makeup carefully.

“Go talk to him,” I yelled, since the music was so loud.

"I don't think so." He adjusted his glasses.

I didn't want to push her, Joe came back with the drinks and started us dancing once we finished drinking. Anne didn't want to go with us, but she offered to watch my bag.

This had happened so fast.

What the fuck am I doing at this party?

The alcohol was starting to burn my bloodstream, I went for another glass and another until I took off my jean vest and was left in my bra.

I felt too much adrenaline running through my body, I was sweating everywhere, yes, everywhere damn.

I shook my hair, looked at the ground, and when I looked up I missed Joe.

"Hey, baby," a guy with a long beard and tattoos approached. “Do you want me to take you to heaven?”

“Who are you?” I said almost like a whisper; I was beginning to feel weak. The subject held me and began to drag me. I didn't see Anne or Joe nearby.