Not love by Alice X (book recommendations website TXT) 📕

funeral and then she’s giving her daughter away to some random dude who lives half away across the world.  I sat on the step of the cold cellar, everything was damp and cold. I kind a liked it there rather than the house. It was so much peaceful and more relaxing. It was because I could do anything there and nobody would give a fuck about it.  I don’t know how long I sat there for; all I knew was that my parents were have a really big go at each other. I could hear mum throw a massive fit and dad just swearing. ‘Oh your cousins bitch’s so and so.’ yeah he was blaming mums family. I don’t know what for but something. Dad made himself out to be a right Don and showed people he was such a good family guy but if you really knew every dirty little secret about him you would want set his body on fire and watch him burn. He knew I knew some of his dirty secrets like he had cheated on my mum three times, once even with mum’s sister. After a few hours, my hands went numb with the cold. The shouting had stopped and I thought that everyone had gone to bed. I thought that they forgot about me like they always normally did. It didn’t bother me because I had gotten used to it.  

 

Until I heard the doors get unlocked. I could hear it being done ever so quietly and slowly. Then when the door opened, there stood in the light of the hallway was Eldon. “I thought they forgot about you so I thought I’d let you out,” he said in his best voice. It was really nice of him to let me out; I felt a small knot tie in the pit of my stomach. Slowly getting up I wobbled and nearly toppled over everywhere. His arms came over and steadied me, for a second I thought he was feeling my bum but his hand helped me stand straight. I felt my cheeks burn a little hot, a guy as amazing as Eldon had never been so close to me. He helped me get up the stairs and to my room then I told him I’d be fine then he went back down stairs where in the corner his room was based. I pretended to walk to my room but I stood back and watched him as he made his way to his room.  His perfect shoulders strong and firm, his bum was perfect just like him in those just right jeans he wore. I thought to myself and realised I had it bad, I had fallen for him. But I couldn’t tell him because it would be awkward plus I was arranged to be married soon. Damn life really liked testing me. 

Chapter 6:

I woke up to find that the covers were on the floor and the curtains drawn back. I got up slowly and then walked to the door. I looked down at my clothes and realised I had worn the same clothes for over two days. Then walking to the cupboard I pulled out a small black skirt with my best shirt. It was the one which looked like it had been ripped, mum hated it. Then I felt too naked so I pulled out some tights to wear under the skirt. I felt like my bum was showing if I didn’t wear them. 

 

I looked in the mirror and saw my hair in a mess and a little drool mark on my face. “Oh damn” I thought. Quickly tip toeing to the bathroom I slammed the door to warn everyone I was awake. I locked the door and walked to the sink. I splashed some water on my face and sorted a little of my hair out. I pulled them down straight like I normally liked them.

 

After I was finished I opened the door to my surprise mum was stood there. “What?” I asked her, she then grabbed my hand and dragged my down stairs. Pushing me to sit on the sofa, I felt like I was a doll or something that she could just push me around. She didn’t even say anything. I felt her poking fingers stab into my flesh like knives.

 

She waited for Katy to come in and sit on the sofa on the left. Then I said “What was all that for?” she cleared her throat and said “well were going today like I told, and were leaving Katy with you. And Eldon will be supervising you both.” my heart jumped a little. I didn’t want to show either one of them the joy that was arising inside me. Finally some time away from the stupid messed up parents. This was going to be the best. She kept talking about if something were to happen who to call and the number and all that shit but I was too busy imagining what I could make Eldon do without my parents. Plus I was going to be married so no harm in having some fun right. Any ways what could be worse than cheating on your wife three times, plus I wasn’t married yet. Finally mum shut up and smiled. She then walked out and began to help dad with the bags and things they were taking with them. Sometimes she acted to bipolar; yesterday they were kicking me into the cellar and nearly killing each other and the next their perfectly fine. For some reason I had a feeling they had, had sex to calm them down.   

 

Before I knew it they were stood next to the door talking to Katy about the rules and all that crap I wasn’t interested in. I stood leaning to the wall; Eldon was stood on the other side, ready in his black t shirt and black matching skinny jeans. Mum was giving last minute instructions. 

 

Katy was acting like a little girl who was going to miss her mommy, she kept saying “mummy I love you.” then as the car started to drive she began to close the door. She suddenly shut the door and turned to me with the face she makes when she wants something. I wanted to say stay out of my way but she said “I’m not staying here; I want to go to a party at Megan’s house then I’ll sleep over at hers.’ I felt s smile creep on to my lips and I said “I haven’t a better idea, the quicker you get out the better.” she smiled and ran up the stairs to grab some of her things. 

Chapter 7:

Eldon looked at me with a strange look, “so what you’re going to let her go that easy?” I shook my head and pulled out a tenner out of my pocket and waved it in his face. Eldon still looked confused then he said “but she’s my responsibility,” he was going to go tell Katy she couldn’t go when I said “One Megan’s mum is really close to my mum so she wouldn’t let a fly touch Katy, she loves Katy more than her own daughter,” Eldon gave me a strange look “Yeah it true, Second reason she give me a tenner for keeping my gop shut so let’s not ruin that now should we?”

 

When Katy came with a bag that had her belongings we agreed that we had to take her to Megan’s house and would pick her up from there two days before Mum came home. We made sure that if our parents were to come early what would happen and any other scenarios we needed to get out of the way, making sure Katy was up to scratch with the plan we went to the car. As we sat in Eldon’s car I felt like it was the type of car I would have dark with the only the light that came in through the windows and leathered seats. It was posh alright not what mum and dad had a crappy old cooper car. 

 

The road felt endless, it just stretched out to far while I sat in the passenger seat. There was no talking, no music no nothing. Just Eldon was driving and Katy banging her feet against his seat. Then Katy said “so Eldon do you have a girlfriend?” my heart jumped a little. I wanted to know the answer to this myself. His eyes were glued to the road. “Arm….no…” he said his face turning a little red and pink. What the fuck he was blushing. Why? I didn’t even know guys blushed. Well that meant that he was all mine. And I was going to make sure of it. Well mine till I got married I guess….Damn.

 

Katy took advantage of the moment seen as there was nothing else going on she began to interrogate him but I didn’t stop her because I wanted to know the answers myself. Her second question was “what was the best party you went to and what, did you do there?” he laughed a little then said “my fifth birthday party and when the cake fell on my head because I didn’t have to get a plate to eat it.” I wanted to laugh at that myself he just told her a load of bullshit then she wouldn’t know the truth. I could tell by his voice. Katy protested “no Eldon that’s not what I meant, come one tell.” he shook his head and said “that’s true I swear,” I gave her a look to make her shut up. She then slumped back in the seat and just watched his seat from behind. After a good ten minutes she asked him another question “are you virgin?” my eyes shot opened. I knew she didn’t act her age but what the fuck man that question I wouldn’t even ask. That totally came out of nowhere. I looked at his face. He looked embarrassed. I turned to Katy and said “shut the fuck up bitch,” she then kicked his seat really hard I felt the vibrations on my seat. I could see him swear at her at the bottom of his voice I wouldn’t blame him I wouldn’t want people to know that I was virgin, but I couldn’t imagine him being virgin… but was he really?  

 

After five minutes we finally got to Megan’s house. We parked outside of her house and waited for Katy to get