Perfection? by Katie (hardest books to read txt) 📕

me from being with other girls, just practice I keep telling myself, practice so I don’t fuck it up with her.

‘thts nice mann, Sammy wants u now, jus drpd her off hav funn’

I shook my head as I could literally see him jumping around trying to get to Sammy now as fast as possible. What in the hell was I going to do with him?

Sean’s P.O.V.

As soon as Jimmy sent me the last text I was telling Jessica I had to go to work. She pouted, but got dressed and kissed me when I dropped her off at her house. I couldn’t wait until I saw Sammy. I called her as soon as I couldn’t see Jessica’s house anymore. It went to her voicemail so I left her a message.

“Hey sexy, I’m on my way to your house, can’t wait to see you baby.” I smiled and shut my phone and powered it down so Jessica wouldn’t be able to reach me while I was with Sammy. As I pulled into her driveway I noticed both her parents cars were missing. I smiled even bigger and walked to her door. She let me in almost as soon as I knocked and she threw herself into my arms.

“God, I couldn’t wait to see you.” She kissed me and pulled me back into the house with her. I tried to lead her to her bedroom, but she stopped in the hallway pushing me up against the wall. This surprised me in more than one way, I never took her as an aggressive girl in bed. She just seemed so fragile. I picked her up and carried her into her bedroom. My heart raced as I thought of being with Sammy after waiting all summer for her.

But no matter how hard I tried I just couldn’t get it up. I wanted her, I wanted her so bad, but I couldn’t. I kept thinking of Jessica and the little bit that was up went down right away. I was getting pissed and gave up trying to have sex with her, and when she frowned at me I reached my hand down between her legs letting her get all the pleasure this time around.

I held her close to me as she cuddled herself close to me. I know I could have done better I could have had sex with her. I wouldn’t have had been with Jessica so much. Fuck. I need to talk to Jessica and soon. I can’t stay with her anymore. I think I am falling in love with Sammy. So hard and so fast. I played with her hair and she smiled up at me.

“I love you.” The words were out of my mouth before I could stop them and she smiled even wider leaning up and kissing me roughly before pulling back to look at me.

“I love you Sean.” She laid her head back down on my chest and I smiled. I would tell Jessica tomorrow when I saw her. I couldn’t go another day hiding how I felt about Sammy. Jessica would get over me, I know she will, she’s stronger than she looks. But I can’t live without Sammy. I need her in my life.

Joanna’s P.O.V.

“God, I love Sean so much Jo. I know he will come back to me, I know he will leave, but he will come back.” There was something off about the way Jessica was talking. I heard it perfectly, maybe because we have been best friends for so long, or maybe just because she sounded hysterical almost.

“God, what’d you do now Jessi? And don’t say nothing, because I can hear it in your voice.” I tried to keep my voice even and smooth, she won’t talk to me if it isn’t. My heart raced at the possibilities. She wouldn’t risk her future for some fucked up perfect ending would she? I really hope not.

“I just didn’t remind Sean about the condom, and well my shot needs to be renewed so I don’t know. Nothing maybe has happened, but then again we did have sex all day. He’s going to come back to me Jo, we will have everything I ever dreamed up. But shit I have to go, gotta help my mom with dinner and stuff. Love youu.” After Jessica hung up on me I sat there for a long time before I gathered my wits and called the only person who would know what to do.

CHAPTER 3

Jimmy’s P.O.V

I have to say I was a little more than surprised when Joanna called me. I smiled and flipped my phone open as I flopped down on my bed.

“Why, hello Jo my beautiful.” Hearing her giggle on the other line I smiled. Yeah she wants me too, she’s told me but she don’t trust me. Can’t say that I blame her, but in my defense if I had her I wouldn’t need anybody else ever.

“Listen to me Jimmy, no flirting right now, Jessica is up to something and we need to help her and Sean before she ruins their lives.” She sounds so serious and I gotta say I sat up straight as soon as she said Jessica was up to something. That girl was clever, which was scary.

“What’s going on Jo?” she spoke in a hushed quick tone explaining to me everything, from Jessica knowing about Sammy to her trying to get pregnant to keep Sean. God, Jessica is fucking nuts, I am so glad I fell for Joanna!

“Oh. My. God. I have to warn him I have to Jo.” Even as I said this I heard her start to protest.

“No, Jimmy, you can’t say anything. Just try your damndest to get Sean either leave Jessica or stop having sex with her. I swear if she gets pregnant, she will hate herself.” I took a deep breath before I promised her I would keep my mouth shut. When we hung up I covered my face in my hands. Sean, my friend you are in some deep shit. Well, God, I guess this is when I do better like I promised huh?

Sean’s P.O.V.

Jimmy has defiantly been acting funny around me lately. Always whispering with Joanna. He wouldn’t keep them dating from me would he? Nahh, he’s been waiting way to long for her to not announce it to the whole school. I smiled as Jessica came up to me before last period.

“Hey baby.” But when she went to kiss me I ducked and she caught my forehead. I haven’t kissed her since I was with Sammy almost three weeks ago now. Haven’t kissed barely hugged and defiantly haven’t had sex. It just didn’t feel right anymore. But Jessica just kept pushing herself onto me and it finally pushed me over the edge.

“No, Jessi, stop I just can’t anymore ok. We can’t anymore. I don’t want to be with you ok? I found somebody else.” I caught her hands in mine when she tried to snake them around my neck.

“Wait, what, you’re not serious are you? Really?” Her whole face crumbled and her eyes filled with tears. But even as I watched her begin to cry I didn’t feel anything. It just wasn’t there. I loved Jessica once, but somehow when I met Sammy, I just didn’t anymore. I fell in love with Sammy, so fast and so hard. Even without sex. Sammy wanted to be with me and I didn’t want to lose her by making her wait any longer. I let Joanna take Jessica as I walked away looking for Sammy.

Sammy’s P.O.V.

Maybe I’m stupid for falling in love with Sean. He had Jessica, has always had Jessica. How can ever compete with her? She is gorgeous and popular. And then there’s me. I smiled thinking back to the day I met Sean. I was working in the local ice cream shop so I can save money during the summer, and then in walks Jessica dragging Sean behind her. He looked miserable, but she looked completely blissfully happy. I smiled at Sean as he came up to the counter as Jessica found a seat in the back.

“Hey, what can I get for you?” As I made the two ice cream shakes he ordered I was blushing the whole time as he watched me. He looked like I was the most interesting thing he ever saw. God, I hope he didn’t notice that zit by my chin, my mom said you couldn’t see it especially with the make up, but still maybe he saw it. Trying to tilt my head to hide the zit I handed his shakes to him and our hands lingered touching. It was like electric, just one touch sent shocks all threw my body and I knew he felt them too from the way he just kinda looked at me then our hands. It was amazing.

“Thanks, Sammy.” I blushed and he smiled crookedly at me as he walked away looking back at me one more time. After that he started to come in every day, most of the time by himself, he did bring his kid brother Max once though. He said it was a test because Max didn’t like anybody and if I could pass it then I must be a good person. And thank god by the time they left Max was practically in love with me.

I shook my head, shaking away the memory as Sean came running up to me in the hallway. Before I could even think about what was going on he was kissing me. I kissed him back of course allowing the tingling and electric shock run threw my body. When he pulled back from me I smiled and blushed so red, and even more red after I noticed everybody in the hallway staring and whispering quietly.

“Sean, what are you doing?” I whispered to him trying to hide my face and almost pretty much stuck my head in my locker once I got it open. He followed me of course and pulled me out of the locker and held me close to him.

“Well, Sammy, I want you to be my girlfriend, I mean if you’d give me the honor that is of course,” Jessica. Was the first and only thought going threw my head beside total humiliation because all these people were probably thinking the same thing. “And don’t even say what about Jessica, because there is no more Jessica, well I dumped her Sammy. I left Jessi so I could be with you, really be with you,” He tilted my chin up until I was looking into his eyes and his smile was contagious, it defiantly had me smiling huge. “I love you Sammy.” He kissed me again, this time sweet and gentle and the whispers got louder.

“I love you Sean.” I smiled as I let him take me in his arms while he addressed the whole hallway.

“Yes, this is my girlfriend, shows over, you can go now.” I giggled and hugged him harder and got lost in the moment as I processed that I was actually dating the guy of my dreams.

Jessica’s P.O.V.

He left me. That was it, he was just gone. He didn’t hold me when I cried, just handed me over like he was disgusted. And he didn’t come back. I even heard from Joanna that he made it official not even ten minutes after he dumped me. But I still love him, I don’t want anybody else, I don’t need anybody. I need a